Chelsie dan Luna.

Gue mo cerita.

Ada seorang anak, yang pengen punya seekor anjing. Dari dulu dia selalu mampir ke pet shop, liat2 kalo2 ada seekor anjing yang bisa dimilikinya. Dia juga jalan2 sama anjing orang, kenalan sama anjing2 jalanan, pokoknya apapun yang bisa bikin dia ketemu sama anjing yang sesuai sama kriterianya.

Suatu kali dia ketemu seekor anjing cantik di pet shop, namanya Chelsie. Dia jatuh hati sama tu anjing, dan pengen bgt dapetin anjing itu. Dia liat harganya, muahalnya bukan main. Agak sedih juga, namun dia gak putus asa sampe situ. Anak itu terus mengumpulkan uang, berharap saat tabungannya sudah cukup nanti, Chelsie masih ada di sana. Akhirnya, hasil jerih payah anak ini pun terbayar. Chelsie pun menjadi miliknya.

Anak ini gembira, begitu pula Chelsie. Mereka menjalani kehidupan bersama seakan-akan tak ada kesedihan yang berani menghampiri kedua makhluk hidup itu. Sang anak menjadi begitu dekat dengan anjing peliharaannya, demikian pula dengan Chelsie, yang makin lama makin manja dengan sang anak. Sang anak pun bersyukur telah mendapatkan Chelsie. Baginya, anjing cantik ini adalah anugerah yang tak tergantikan.

Tapi sayang, tiba-tiba Chelsie yang disayanginya ternyata berubah menjadi judes banget. Sejak itu, Chelsie gak pernah mau menerima cinta kasih dari si anak. Chelsie selalu membuat anak ini kecewa, Chelsie gak pernah mau diajak main, Chelsie gak mau dimiliki oleh anak ini. Seakan-akan memiliki dua kepribadian, Chelsie pun menjadi sosok anjing yang sangat berbeda dari yang dikenal sang anak beberapa bulan yang lalu. Sekarang, di mata Chelsie, anak ini memiliki banyak kekurangan, dan gak pantes buat memiliki seekor anjing seperti dirinya. Anak ini pun terus berusaha dan berusaha, namun hasilnya selalu gagal. Usaha pendekatan yang dilakukannya terhadap anjing cantik itu selalu gak membawa hasil. Chelsie menjadi seekor anjing yang sulit diajak berkompromi. Paling tidak, sulit diajak kompromi dengan anak itu.

Berbulan-bulan berlalu. Si anak terpaksa melepaskan Chelsie ke tempat di mana dia bisa lebih berbahagia. Si anak sedih banget begitu tau kalo Chelsie gak mau dia miliki. Demi kebaikan Chelsie, si anak rela melepaskan anjing itu ke habitat yang lebih pantas baginya.

Seperti dikirim oleh angin, beberapa hari kemudian, ada seekor anjing liar yang ditemuinya. Anjing ini biasa2 aja, gak terlalu cantik, gak terlalu indah, bulunya gak terlalu bagus, matanya gak terlalu mengkilat, pokoknya biasa-biasa aja deh. Kalah banget kalo dibandingin sama Chelsie. Si anak gak memperhatikan anjing ini pada awalnya, tapi karna anjing ini selalu ngikutin dia ke manapun dia berada, dibawa pulanglah anjing biasa2 ini, dan dinamainya Luna.

Luna sebenernya adalah anjing buangan. Dia dulu pernah dimiliki oleh seorang bapak yang ngakunya sayang ma dia, tapi justru membawa ketakutan luar biasa buat si Luna. Luna gak bisa main sama bapak ini, dan Luna ngerasa bapak ini cuman pengen mempergunakan Luna. Luna dijadikan ajang taruhan, dipermainkan, dicemooh, dihina, pokoknya sama sekali gak dihargain. Luna pun akhirnya kabur dari rumah si bapak begitu ada kesempatan, dia berlari dan berlari jauh meninggalkan kota tempat bapak itu tinggal, sampai akhirnya dia menemukan anak itu.

Meskipun Luna gak seindah Chelsie, namun Luna gak sejudes Chelsie. Dia senantiasa menemani anak itu kapanpun dan di manapun. Pokoknya, di manapun anak ini berada, Luna selalu ada di sampingnya. Kalo Luna takut, dia pasti selalu nyari tuannya, begitu pula kalo si anak lagi sedih, dia selalu cerita ke Luna. Terutama tentang Chelsie. Si anak selalu melampiaskan kesedihannya pada Luna, dan Luna selalu menghibur tuannya ini dengan mendengarkan dan mengajaknya bermain. Kehidupan ini berlangsung cukup lama, dan Luna ngerasa sangat nyaman berada di sisi sang anak. Belum pernah dalam hidupnya, dia diperhatikan secara luar biasa oleh manusia.

Tapi sayang, si anak cuman menjadikan Luna sebagai pelarian dari Chelsie. Dia sedih banget atas perlakuan anjing cantik itu atas dirinya, dan pas banget saat itu ada Luna, dia selalu menumpahkan kekesalannya pada Luna, meski pada akhirnya Luna juga dipelihara, dikasih makan, disayang2, tapi tetep aja, hatinya ada pada Chelsie dan bukan Luna.

Luna sebagai anjing tentu punya insting yang luar biasa. Dia tau banget tuannya itu masih menginginkan Chelsie dan bukan dia. Tapi sayang, dia gak bisa ngapa2in. Yang bisa dia lakukan cuma ngedengerin setiap kekecewaan tuannya atas perlakuan Chelsie terhadap dirinya, dan mendukung tuannya setiap kali tuannya pergi ke pet shop itu cuma buat ngeliat Chelsie dan ngobrol2 sama Chelsie. Di satu sisi Luna cemburu, tapi di sisi lain Luna tau kalo dirinya gak seindah Chelsie, gak selucu Chelsie, dan gak semenarik Chelsie. Luna pun jadi sedih. Tuannya selalu nyari2 cara buat dapetin Chelsie kembali, dan Luna jadi ngerasa gak aman. Gimana kalo tuannya berhasil ngedapetin Chelsie, Luna mau diapain? Apakah dia akan kembali jadi anjing jalanan?

Luna terus merenung dan merenung, hingga akhirnya dia sadar, kalau pada awalnya dia pun hanya menjadikan anak ini sebagai tempat perlindungan. Dia mempergunakan anak ini untuk melindunginya dari bahaya, kalau2 pemilik sebelumnya mau merampas dia dan membawanya kembali ke kehidupan asalnya yang pahit dan kelam. Mungkin Luna juga mempergunakan anak ini, mungkin Luna juga menjadikan anak ini sebagai tempat pelarian, tapi kenapa Luna cemburu tiap kali tuannya cerita tentang Chelsie? Kenapa Luna ngerasa sakit? Kenapa Luna ngerasa gak aman? Kalau dia bener2 sayang sama tuannya, bukankah lebih baik jika melihat tuannya bahagia bersama Chelsie? Sebegitu egoisnyakah Luna?

Luna pun memutuskan untuk terus menjalankan tugasnya dengan setia, menemani tuannya siang dan malam, menjadikan tempat curahan hati, mendukung, dan membantu tuannya. Namun dalam hatinya, ia mengiris sedikit demi sedikit luka dalam hatinya, dan tak hentinya ia selalu bertanya, "Mengapa engkau hanya melihat dari luarnya saja? Kenapa karna dia lebih lucu engkau lebih memilih dia? Sifatku jelas lebih baik dari dia, dan aku mengasihimu dengan tulus, setulus engkau mengasihi dia. Aku akan selalu menjagamu siang dan malam, sebagaimana sudah kubuktikan di masa-masa ini. Engkau selalu berusaha mendapatkannya, engkau berharap bisa memeluknya, namun engkau tidak menyadari bahwa apa yang kau butuhkan saat ini sudah tersedia di depan matamu. Aku tak bisa berbuat apa-apa, tuan. Jika engkau terus memilih dia, aku tetap akan mendukungmu."

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My acoustic

Strumming my guitar,
Singing songs out loud,
On one simple evening.

It has been so long since the last time I felt this pleasure.
And now I am enjoying it again.

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OSIM - Oh Sh*t, It's Monday!!

HAhaha...

Well, to me, Monday isn't that bad. Partially because we only have 1 miserable 2-hour PracTech lecture which happens to start at 11am.

After having our lunch, we then started to work on our BizIntel assignment, which ends at around 3:30 pm. Our plan was to meet John Sung at 6pm, our company project supervisor, and present him our system, as well as to test the company server. Justin told the group that we would need approximately 1 hour 15 minutes to get into the Island. So we decided to bum around in the computer lab until 4:30 pm comes. Justin and I watched The School of Rock in his laptop. Obviously, there was not enough time to complete the 2-hour movie, but we still watched anyway.

We left the Lab at 4:30 sharp, (even though the bus-waiting time took longer than expected) but we still managed to reach the Island at 5:45 pm. In the Island Bus Stop, Justin met his previous colleagues and we found out from her that JOHN WAS ON MC!!!! Great! We had already travelled that far, but everything just went in vain. Everyone was so excited but now, the mood had gone by the wind towards the thin air. Anyway, we learnt our lesson that next time, before we have an appointment with anyone, do confirm with the person on the day before we left.

Suddenly, in the midst of our disappointment, Shahirah spoke up, "Hey, anyone in for a movie?" We looked at her... actually it wasn't such a bad idea. We thought of it for a while, decided upon which cinema to go to, and finally chose the Grand Cathay at Dhoby Ghaut.

The movie was from 7 to 9 pm, afterwhich, shana and shahirah went home. Justin, Dodi, and I then had our dinner, and went home by train. Everything went good, when finally the sour stuff appeared.

Someone I didn't wish to think, to remember, or to talk to, called me repeatedly. I kept on rejecting or ignoring his calls, but this guy just wouldn't give up calling. He texted me a message, asking why I rejected his calls, which I did not reply. I mean, wasn't the answer obvious? I was avoiding you!

SMS: What's wrong? Do you want me to come over to your house?
I stunned, thinking of whether or not should I reply his sms this time.
My reply: No. Do not ever.

The guys noticed the awkwardness in my face.

Justin: What happened mun?
Louisa: What? Nothing.
*my phone vibrates*
Louisa: Tsk! Stop calling, can??
Dodi: Aiya, just pick up lah!
*I rejected the call*
Dodi: Why never pick up? Your friend calling you, you don't want to pick up. Hai..
Louisa: I don't want to talk to this person lah!
Dodi: It's good what... At least got people call you. I whole day wait for the phone, nobody calls me.

SMS: Why don't you pick up? Anything wrong?

I gave no responses.

Dodi and I talked in the train while Justin was in his own world on the phone. The train finally reached Paya Lebar where I alighted. The calls still kept on coming in, and I always rejected it or just simply did not pick up. Suddenly, a message popped up.

SMS: That's it. I'm coming over...

I FREAKED OUT!!! YOU KIDDING!!! This guy freaking knows my complete full address, he knows which level I stayed in, he knows my unit number, and he can reach my house in no time coz he stays bloody near my house!!!!!!!!!!!!

My hands trembled, I didn't know what to do. I grabbed my phone, typed, "I don't want to see you!"

Message sent.

Then I went to the address book, searched for Justin's number, nearly called him asking for help but I failed to do so. I wanted to cry. I was so terrified I couldn't think properly. I typed to send Justin an SMS, "Please HELP me, I'm so scared!". I have already typed the message, but I realised he was happily in the train, heading home. Then I switched target. I called Shahirah instead, since she knows my situation and this guy, basically everything. Then Shahirah prayed for me. She also didn't know what to do. On that small pavement towards my house, I literally shouted to God, "GOD! PLEASE SPARE ME!!! I really don't want to see him!!"

I texted the guy. "Don't scare me by coming over."

His SMS: Ok. But let me know why you acted so strangely. If not, I am coming over to find out.
My reply: Are you threatening me? I just feel uncomfortable whenever I'm with you. Maybe you are not the one.
His SMS: What is it that makes you feel so? Anything I can do to make it better?

I seriously fed up. I didn't reply him.

Finally, I reached my apartment, and I looked around, searching for anything that represents the presence of this guy. But no, he's not there. Phew. Thank God.

I quickly went up. I sms-ed Justin, telling him what just happened. I typed for so long, but I accidentally cleared the screen without saving it. Darn SMS.

Then THE GUY called. I rejected, obviously.
Another call came. This one was from Shahirah. I picked up and thanked her for praying for me, and talked to me when I was scared.
Soon after I ended the conversation, another phone call came. Justin.

"What happened? You OK?"

Like Duh! Obviously I'm not!! I told him everything, then he laughed his butt off. Stupid.

Justin: Well, who knows if later there will be news of you and him together...
Louisa: Choy! Shut up! It will never happen.
Justin: Oh, you sure?
Louisa: Hey, don't say anything la, sometimes whatever you said may come true.
Justin: Oh yeah, there is power in a believer's tongue.
Louisa: Exactly. So shut up.
Justin: Laughs
Louisa: Not funny. I will hang up.
Justin: OK Ok relax. bla bla bla.

Then we started talking about anything else....

My life seriously is screwed up. But for now, I just let God have a hold of it. Nope, I mean from now onwards.

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TLG Christmas Celebration

Danny is born an Emcee.
NextLevel is talented (i mean the four goofies who sang on stage, that was ultimately entertaining!)
Book of Hope is useful. (For the first time Christians!)

And, what makes everything special: MY FRIEND CHRISTINA =]

Attending a service with your usual TLG friends is usual, but with her presence, it all became special.

And of course, God's presence too.

Want me to be honest? I feel the PW a bit screwed up. Honest.

But oh well. God still showed up. That matters the most.

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Recount.

Bokek!!! Gua lagi bokek!! Kerjaan gua tiap hari itu tuh narik duit dari ATM. Koq bisa?
Yah bisa lah, masa gak bisa? Hehehe...

YAh uda deh, gw mo cerita. Selamat tidur membaca cerita harian gw... hehehe.

Senin - Selasa... pegi kampus, pulang kampus, mampir parkway, SHOPPING. Gak ada yang perlu dijelasin kali ya, mungkin karna ini terlalu membosankan untuk diceritakan.

Rabu ... Sedikit menarik. Presentasi!

Gua uda dag dig dug gak keruan, gw dan grup dateng pagian buat latian, dan we had the entire lab for ourselves. Kita akhirnya ngetest laptop kita di projector sekolah, dan akhirnya error gara2 by default laptop gw maupun laptopnya justin (cuma kita bedua yang bawa laptop), uda di extend ke second monitor, jadi pas mo dijadiin 1 monitor doang, projectornya gak terima sinyal apa2. Akhirnya kita panggil si technician, and we managed to get the thing done.

After the technician went away, kita latian (gladi kotor), terus akhirnya diusir dari lab karna labnya mo dipake, dan kita pindah lab. Justin closed the Lab Room door, and he instructed, "Ok everyone, Let's pray!" And he led the prayer. It's a good thing that all of us (ok, only 4 out of 5) are Christians, so we can pray together in times like this.

Gladi bersih.

Gua present duluan, dengan group members gw belaga jadi judgesnya. Di tengah2 speech gue, Justin nyeletuk, "what is system management?"

I stunned. Firstly, i didnt expect any questions at that point of time. Secondly, I knew he was acting as one of the judges, but I did not know that the question would come from a person like him. (Ooops. Lol.) I froze.

Latihan selesai, we were waiting outside the presentation room, when everyone was going crazy. Justin and Shana were singing songs they created, like "Yesterday", but they changed the lyric into something depressing, and I was too sleepy to listen. Nevermind.

Presentation went ok, I believe we can pass. Then we went for lunch, and quickly go to the Lab to finish our BizIntel assignment. Pas uda kelar, kita pulang. HORE.

Doa pengerja.

Pulang sekolah ada doa pengerja.. jadi buru2 mandi, grab some meal, then walked off to the bus stop. Sore itu gw baru inget kalo BingBing, spupunya Tirza, hari itu jualan waffle di kampus, dan kmaren dia ktemu gw di kampus ASc dan gw da janji ma dia mo beli. Argh! Maap Bing, gw lupa gara2 presentation itu.....

Sekian dan terima kasih.

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YO YO!!!

heHEHE DAh lama banget sejak gw update blog gw ya, sampe2 teman2ku satu2 meninggalkan blog gw perlahan2 karna bosen nungguin update-an yang ada...

Banyak hal terjadi laaa... dari bete sampe seneng
Apalagi pas worship with stars....

BETE!!! Emang!
KECEWA!!! Sangat! sampe gw ngomel2 ma c sansan (sorry ci!!!)
SENENG! Gak juga sih tp oke lah.....

Btw yah, apaan tuh worship with stars? Heheh. makanya ke www.lastgen.org donk gimana seh! HAhahah. MAles gw jelasin 1-1. ya pokoknya acara yrc sunday deh..

eh ngomong2 soal yrc sunday, kita bakal pindah k ohgs looo... jem 11 pagi, huweheh horeee!! (meski kacau juga kalo diliat dari segi pelayanan...)

Usher jadinya harus berubah cara menyambut jemaat2 baru, skrg ini kan ga ada kursi, gak ada sepatu ato alas kaki juga.. haha.. tmpatnya beda pula... cara ngasi kantong persembahan juga pasti beda.

Multimedia juga mungkin berubah, meski gak banyak, remembering that the Projectors are fixed, the screens are fixed, the camera position changed, the laptop, mixer, computer, etc all changed.

PW? Jangan tanya!! Ini bukan di hyatt, stagenya kecil, jemaatnya uda gak pake tempat duduk, terus ruangannya gak kedap suara, jadi music team must control their loudness.

Apalagi? YAh doa mungkin gak ngaruh kali yah... SALAH!! Sebelum youth service, ada BES... jadi doa gak tau mau jem berapa.... hahehe... minor sih, i know....

Apa lagi? sound system? Beuh!!! Ruangannya bergaung2 gitu... mesti jago deh si anthony...

Cuman perpindahan ini membawa teriakan HALELUYA yang sangat keras dari CARE TEAM, karna dengan ini, care team bisa lebih mengontrol jemaatnya satu per satu, terutama dari segi jemaat baru.... heheh.

Oh iya, pindahnya tanggal 11. which is also tanggal berlangsungnya acara natal gabungan TLG (yang flyernya keren banget itu!!!) WAKAKAKAK. Bawa kado luuu... buat gw moga2 dapetnya yang 10 dollar... LOL.

Trus kmaren ini gw ikut FA ko iie... bole juga, meski gw tdnya pengen share sesuatu ttg anak2 yang tertolak (mnurut gw mereka kurang tau siapa itu anak2 tertolak.....) tp uda malem jd ga jadi d...

Btw, ngomong2 soal FA, pas worship with stars FA gw (Perez) menang kategori FA tergubraks... WAKAKA.. Hidup gubraks!!!! Haiz.... sedih juga sih.... Tau gak sih perez uda bubar??? Alesanny banyak la... banyak yang gak komit, dll dll.... Tp bakal ada FA baru sih taon depan heheh... im so looking forward to that...

Kmaren ini gw balik indo..... ikut retreat gereja, tentang rumah tangga yng diberkati (gak relevan sih sama gw yg belum berkeluarga, tapi gpp la buat masa depan, hehehehehe). gw berdoa kenceng2 soal pemulihan keluarga besar tapi hasilnya tetep nihil, but i know God's time is perfect, so im still hopeful. Sigh.

Di indo bosen banget, satu2nya hal yang gw lakukan yg bermanfaat di indo tu cuma ke salon (anak2 semua pada tau kalo gw merubah gaya gua habis2an sejak gw balik indo!), beli buku di gramed....... nonton, udah. Haiz.... nyiksaaa nyiksa.

Udah ah.

Ngeliat poin2 di atas.. ternyata banyak juga ya yang mesti gw ceritain... ah udah lah... kalo curious leave a comment aja ntar gw ceritain yang panjang.... hehehehehehehehe......

BYEEEEE....

Gue mo siapin presentasi dulu.. besok gw ngeblog lagi d!!

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Adakah hati untuk mereka?

Kita sering gak nyadar kalo di sebelah kita tuh kadang bukan orang yang sempurna. Dia mungkin lagi ngalamin masalah yang semua orang di dunia ini gak pernah tau. Dan masalah itu bisa sampe tahap yang udah gak ada penangkalnya lagi selain kasih, kayak kerusakan otak bagian blakang dll......

kita anggepnya tiap orang harus sama kayak kita, kalo kita dalam waktu 3 taon bisa bertumbuh rohaninya secara pesat, dia juga harus gitu. Dan kadang kita uda terlalu sering menghakimi orang, kenapa dia gak tumbuh2, apakah dia ini bejat, gak holy, sesat, berdosa, dsb?

Well teman, daripada kita sibuk menghakimi, kenapa juga kita gak menyibukkan diri melayani? Si Andri bilang ke gue, 'sekarang ini mah jangan pernah harep kita dilayani orang, itu mah uda basi. Yang sekarang lagi ngetren di FA kita adalah rasa saling melayani satu sama laen. Kita gak bisa ngubah anak2 rusak kayak mereka, yang bisa kita lakukan hanyalah menerima mereka dan kasih tau ke mereka dengan tindakan kita kalo kita tuh mengasihi mereka, karna hanya itu yang mereka butuhkan.'

Gua ambil komitmen mau melayani orang2 di skitar gue. Orang itu mungkin orang yang uda gw kenal deket, tapi ayo kita sama2 komitmen bawa mereka ke tahap yang lebih tinggi lagi, ajar mereka untuk lebih mengasihi diri sendiri, dan untuk mengetahui tujuan mereka diciptakan.

And tell you what. When you have gained trusts from just one person, you are a leader.

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Menghilang bagai uap...

Hari ini gue melihat2 barang2 yang tergeletak gak berdaya di laci meja gue. Isinya macem2, pen nggak bertinta, kertas coret2, notes2, dan 1 lagi, buku kecil berisikan kata2 mutiara hadiah dari orang.

Gua buka2 tu buku, di dalemnya ada catatan kecil dari sang pemberi. To: Louisa. Bla bla bla bla. Gue ngeliatnya langsung keingetan how we met, how close we were, how we used to hang out together, exchange thoughts, be in each other’s presence.

Namun sekarang, hubungan gue dengan orang itu uda bisa dibilang jauh. Oke lah, mungkin gak jauh2 amat, cuman gue ma dia uda agak aneh kalo ketemu. Intinya, kita gak se-comfortable dulu lagi.

Dari situ gue nyadar, kalo ternyata gue uda ngerasa nyaman pas gue memutuskan untuk tidak bersangkut paut lagi dengan orang itu. Kayaknya akhir2 ini hidup gw dipenuhi dengan berbagai2 situasi yang bisa bikin gue lupa sama dia. Gue serius lupa total dan gak bakal inget dia kalo gue gak menemukan buku itu.

Dan kayaknya, gue ini tipe orang yang gampang lupa sama temen lama kalo uda punya temen baru. Buktinya nih, dia dengan mudahnya gw lupain, temen2 maen gue di kampus uda kurang begitu ‘berharga’ lagi dibanding sama temen2 baru gue di gereja, be it di FA baru ato FA lama, ato mungkin anak2 Sunday dan multimedia.

Gue di satu sisi merasa jahat banget karena segitu mudahnya gue melupakan orang, namun di satu sisi gue merasa seneng karena di lingkungan gue yang baru, gua merasa sangat sangat sangat dan sangat diterima.

Hari ini gua jalan2 ma tirza, sansan, dan steven. Pas kelar makan, sansan telepon2in anak2 FA yang udah menghilang dari taon jebot. Di situ gw bener2 kagum sama dia karna dia masih bisa teleponin anak2 yang udah menguap ditelan udara gitu aja dan ngobrol macem2. Sedangkan gue? Gue cuma bisa basa basi haha hehe sama mereka tanpa ada tujuan yang jelas mau ngomong apa. Terus terang nih kalo gue, gue bakalan pasrah deh. Kalo emang kita dikehendaki untuk bertemu lagi, kita pasti akan bersua. Tapi dari kejadian ci sansan telpon2an itu gue sadar, banyak orang gak peduli, karna mereka uda sibuk sama urusannya masing2. Kita adalah orang yang seharusnya bertindak untuk follow up temen2 lama kita dan nanyain kabarnya. Omong2 soal heryanto, gw baru liat2 foto kita ber4 (gue, hery, melvin, ma pauline) pas tadi ngutak ngatik laci gue. Mereka itu temen2 FA gw dari taon jebot! Di situ muka gue masi innocent banget, dan kayaknya itu taon 2003 gitu. Uda jadul banget yah? Huweheh...

Yah pokoknya ikutin kata pepatah, kalo uda dapat temen baru, temen lama jangan dilupain. Mereka itu permata yang dulu pernah kita temuin. Jangan buang permata itu.

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FA baru.......

Oh iya… kan gw perna bilang, ada banyak hal yang terjadi dalam kehidupan gw...
Salah satunya... Pilihan antara ikut YRC Saturday ato YRC Sunday, pilihan antara tetep ikut FA Menthol ato pindah FA...

Dan inilah jawabannya....

Aku cinta YRC minggu.

Aku lebih cinta YRC minggu.

Aku cinta FA baru.

Meski aku gak sanggup bilang kalo aku lebih cinta FA baru.

Karna aku juga cinta FA lama.

Namun aku cinta YRC minggu dan FA baru.

Benar benar cinta.

Mereka bagian dari diriku. Mereka keluargaku. Mereka hidupku.

Kasian banget sih si sasa... ok lah kalian mungkin bisa mikir gitu... mwahaha.. tp bener loh.. dulu gw rasa pindah FA itu sesuatu yang gak pernah terlintas di pikiran gw... gw gak bakal pernah bisa pindah FA.. mana mungkin! FA Menthol itu salah satu komunitas yang dulu sangat gw banggakan. Dan when you said its a CoOL (Community of Love), saya rasa kalian sangat sangat benar. They are such a loving family. Dulu pilihan gw hampir bulat mau pindah YRC aja.... gw di YRC Sat bisa ikut pelayanan juga, dan anak2nya juga gw da lebi kenal (lha wong anak FA!)

Jadi begitulah... tapi kayaknya hati gw gak damai sejahtera. Ada sesuatu yang menekan gw.... gw doa dan doa lagi.. dan akhirnya ko bonar crita banyak tentang YRC Sunday. It’s something that opened my eyes. God does not want to put me in a place that's so fine. He wants me to change something. He wants to use me.

Gw mikir lagi sepanjang hari itu, dan gw juga banyak tanya dari point of view anak-anak Sunday (yang biasanya gw gak pernah, karna gw ceritanya cuma sama anak2 Saturday doank, yang biasanya ujung2nya nyuruh gw pindah YRC), ternyata mereka tuh cukup fair la... mereka bilang, if you think you feel more at home over there (Sabtu), and you think you can excel in your spiritual growth, then by all means, go there! I beg you to go!

Terus terang, gw suka gaya anak2 Sunday. Bagi gw mereka tuh jauh lebih GOKIL dan GARING dibanding Saturday, meski YRC Saturday lebih rame, lebih heboh, lebih gak kayak ibadah kalo ibadah.. kalo pengumuman suka teriak2, dll… tapi anak2 Sunday lebih garing dan gokil kalo lagi ngejoke, kalo lagi ngobrol2 gitu mereka lebih renyah dan kriuk2… trus gw pikir2 lagi, apa karna ini gw lantas membela YRC Sunday? Gak juga kan?

I tried to be as neutral as possible, gw tanya temen2 gw dari kedua belah pihak, gw tanya anak2 FA laen di YRC Sunday (gimana kalo gw pindah FA, dll)… dan gw juga liat apa yg bisa gw lakukan di kedua belah YRC, how God is gonna use me in a particular YRC, and in which YRC I can really grow and develop more potential, which YRC I can feel more comfortable with, dll.

Emang sih YRC Saturday udah kayak keluarga buat gw… anak2 FA menthol di situ semua, namun dari pertimbangan yang lain gw rasa Tuhan bener2 pengen gw untuk menetap di hari minggu. Lagipula ada perasaan aneh yang menekan gw kalo gw bilang gw mau pindah YRC dari Sunday ke Saturday. Hati gw jauh dari damai sejahtera.

Lalu gw bilang ma ko Hendra kalo gw mau fokus ke Sunday. Trus ko hendra bilang "kalo gitu kamu harus pindah FA, soalnya kalo kamu mau follow up anak2 baru, kamu emang mau ajak mereka ke FA kita? Gak mungkin kan.. mereka harus dimuridkan di wadah YRC Sunday..."

Dari situ gw bingung lagi... okay. Gw tau lah dari awal kalo gw bakal diminta untuk pindah FA, tapi gw sama sekali gak kepikiran kalo itu harus bener2 terjadi. Si heru sering ajakin ikut FA ko darwin karna rumah gw cuma 4 bus stop dari tempat FA... tapi gw gak mau! Knapa? Karna gw gak nyambung ma orang2nya....... mereka uda dewasa. Uda pada kerja gitu (kcuali beberapa orang yang masi seumuran gw yang jumlahnya bisa diitung dengan 1 tangan). Oke lah mereka sangat crunchy2 (bisa diliat dari si gheko yang berubah 180 derajat pas masuk FA itu), tapi tetep aja, kalo sharing ma mereka tentang sekolah, gak bakalan kena!

Gw juga tanya Rancu tentang FA ko david, tapi gak banget deh karna harinya itu hari slasa dan tempatnya di novena, dan kelar FA bisa jem 10 gitu... belon lagi perjalanan pulang yang gak ada direct bus ke rumah... dan inget loh, itu masi weekday....... bisa jadi besoknya gw ada tugas ato ulangan.... ~_~

Gw gak mau join FA Jojo karna itu di bukit timah, sangat tidak terjangkau.

FA NUS, FA NTU, udah pasti di luar batas pikiran..

FA Trellis juga gak mau, karna isinya anak2 secondary gitu... Jadi sedikit kurang nyambung juga.... ok lah gw pernah jadi anak secondary tapi akan lebih baik kalo gw ikut FA yang isinya anak2 seumuran gw bukan?

Sisanya tinggal 1. FA Andri. Di FA ini ada anak2 seumuran gw, tapi gw gak kenal mereka sedeket gw kenal rancu, sedeket gw kenal heru, sedeket gw kenal anak2 usher yang laen.... dan lagi, tempatnya yang agak jauh, di Orchard. Tapi ok lah, masi terjangkau. Gimana donk gimana donk gimana donk???

Ok lah mungkin keputusan gw saat itu berkutat antara FA Andri dan FA Darwin (paya lebar).

Namun atas dukungan dari ko hendra....... gw masuk FA Andri. (ato lebih kerennya, FA Perez yg artinya - katanya nih - breakthrough). Lagipula di FA ini banyak anak2 seumuran gw gitu yang bikin gw lebih nyaman. Mungkin belon terlalu kenal, tapi eventually bisa lah abis kenalan2 gitu.... Namanya juga masi baru!

Dan terima kasih Tuhan, aku merasa sangat diterima di sana. Anak2 FA itu bahkan sebelum gw masuk FA uda sering bilang "FA kita", "FA kita", "FA kita", padahal gw belon officially jadi member FA itu. Trus hari pertama gw ikut FA juga gw dijemput dari OHGS ke rumah ko omar... dan uda kasi tau acara outing anak2 FA sebelum gw bener2 jadi member FA itu. Bayangin aja, hari minggu gw cuma bilang "Ntar gw ikut FA lu ya hari jumat...", responnya uda kayak gw ini bagian dari mereka.

Minggu pertama gw di sana, kita maen game 'wacko' (sejenis ice breaking game buat kenal2an dan mengingat nama2 orang). Lucu sih, gw aja yang baru pertama kali dateng udah bisa teriak2. Mungkin karna gw uda kenal beberapa anak2nya kali ya jadi bisa teriak2. Hehehe.

Minggu kedua itu bible camp. Di bible camp pun pas foto FA gw uda langsung ditarik2 suru foto bareng. Minggu ketiga setelah bible camp gue uda dikasi tanggung jawab doain 1 anak FA, minggu keempat setelah minggu ketiga (duh!) gue uda disuru ngajakin temen2 gw masuk FA, uda dikasi tau masalah2 apa yang dialamin sama FA itu, uda dikasi kepercayaan seakan-akan gue ini uda lama di FA itu.

Pindah FA emang berat, apalagi FA Sansan (Hendra) karna gw uda jadi member FA itu sejak gw taon 2003. Bayangin aja bo... Hampir 5 taon gitu loh... Sejak FA Sansan sama FA Hendra belom bersatu, gw uda di sana. Cuman entah kenapa, di FA Sansan gw gak merasa diterima sampe segini dalemnya (maaf ci!).

Awalnya gw pikir FA baru akan jadi sebuah nightmare. Gua orangnya susah mingle with new people. Gw orangnya susah banget terbuka dan susah banget adaptasi. Tapi di FA Orchard ternyata gak separah yang gw kira sebelum gw masuk FA itu. Bahkan gw sempet terkagum-kagum sama cara mereka menerima anak-anak baru. Mungkin ini juga berkat doa anak2 FA Menthol kali ya (gw minta didoain malem sebelum gw mo join FA baru, heheh). Emang bener kata steven, terima aja. Kita gak tau apa yang bakal terjadi. Hehehe....

Kalo Tuhan mau pake kita lebih lagi, Dia juga pasti uda nyusun strategi dan rencana, dan semua itu pasti sempurna. Mungkin bagi kita itu berat, sakit, nggak nyaman, tapi kalo kita mau dipake Tuhan secara menyeluruh, kita harus keluar dari comfort zone kita dan lari sampe ke tujuan akhir itu. Sampe mahkota. Jadi rencana apapun yang menurut kita 'nggak banget', jalanin aja. Kan tadi gw uda bilang, segala sesuatu uda dirancang sama Tuhan. Kita sebagai anak-anakNya tinggal nurut aja deh.. Taat aja. Pasti semuanya itu indah. :)

Gua cinta FA Orchard.

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Foto Bold and Unashamed....

My new Family.... (FA gua.. tp koq ada ko wibi sama Heru..???)

Ini Kami.........................

Steven dan Saya (dan name tags kami)

In our own thoughts... Maya and Louisa

Louisa & San-san

Menthol Girls...



Hendy tidur di aula...


Ivan NB makan apel


Kenny menerawang ke langit-langit

Kenapa gw bisa ada di sini????



People, look.. it's LOUISA!!


Post master, Food Provider, First-aid IC... waaa..
(Me, Tirza, Steven)



Dan masih ada foto-foto lainnya yang tidak dapat diupload satu persatu...

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UCAPAN TERIMA KASIH

TERIMA KASIH:

buat semua panitia yang uda ngebantu in one way or another... gw jadi ngerasa semangat tiap kali mau ke OHGS karna ada dukungan dari kalian juga...

Apresiasi setinggi langit ditujukan pada ci widiya, cici yang baik sekali, yang udah hapal banget gimana caranya mimpin bible camp, huwahahahah.... yang sabar banget jawabin query2 semua panitia.... makasi cici...

Sangat2 berterima kasih kepada steven dan becky yang gara2 gw, harus rela jadi "part timer" di gereja, tiap kali harus ke ohgs demi ngebantuin gw... huwahahaha..

buat Tirza dan tim multimedia yang uda ngasi gw lesson yang super duper (inget gak pas session pertama gimana parahnya multimedia kita? displaynya ijo, laptopnya baterenya abis, settingnya gak bisa nyambung, dll dl... tapi bener2 hebat deh Tuhan itu.. pertolongannya pas banget di saat kita berdoa meminta dgn sungguh. yang kita perlu tinggal minta. Tuhan gak perna telat kasi jawaban, cuma kadang kita yang telat buat minta).

buat FA ko hendra yang uda doain buat kesehatan gw, karna gw sempet sakit beberapa hari sebelum bible camp... puji Tuhan gw sembuh... terima kasih buat doa doa kaliannn...

buat ko david chandra yang sabar banget gw tanyain ini itu regarding the booklet's layout...

buat andri kuya yang uda ngebantuin gw di berbagai hal (terutama soal booklet)... dan yang uda bantu bikin suasana ohgs jadi heboh dengan kegaringannya...

buat steven yang udah mengkritik habis2an nametag gw hingga akhirnya keluarlah final design yang super keren...

buat hendy yang udah rela nemenin gw ke benquick buat ngambil nametag sama booklet, ngangkat2 bulletin, bayarin taxi (meski akhirnya direimburse juga)...

buat rancu, jessica, becky, yang uda bantuin nulisin nama2 di nametag saat gw lagi super sibuk...

buat becky yang sempet2in ke popular buat ngambil plastik2 nametag yang udah dipesen...

buat steven yang bantuin bolongin plastiknya pake cutter...

buat becky dan hendy yang nemenin gw beli makanan2 buat para pemenang....

buat jenny dan maya yang uda bantuin ngabsenin orang2 yang ikut bus....

buat ci hilda yang sabar banget gw tanyain macem2.. kayak telfonin uncle benquick, nyari2 lanyard buat nametag, nyusun kotak P3K, dll.........

buat hendro yang bantuin nelfonin orang2 dan nagih2in duit....

buat peserta yang udah bela2in ngosongin waktu tanggal 7-9 dan rela2in bayar 60 dollar buat bible camp ini....

dan buat TUHAN YESUS yang keren banget yang selalu akan gw sembah.....

juga buat doa dan dukungan kalian semua yang mungkin gak sanggup gw sebutkan satu persatu... dan buat kalian yang udah bantuin gw in one way or another tapi gw gak nyebut...hahaha uda kayak menang piala apa aja yah gw.... lol

oh satu lagi, buat ko wibi yang harus ngerelain kantornya diberantakin sama kita-kita... huwehehehe....... (yang akhirnya gak jadi gw vakumin...)percayalah semuanya itu tidak sia-sia kooo.. =P

MAKASIIII!! ARIGATOO GOZAIMASU!! XIE XIE!! THANK YOU!!!



Anak Bible Camp,
Louisa

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BIBLE CAMP - BOLD and UNASHAMED

Tiga minggu di muka terasa begitu cepat dan melelahkan

Tiga hari saat acara juga terasa begitu cepat namun memuaskan

Tiga minggu kemudian terasa begitu lama tetapi menggairahkan



Aku cinta bible camp!

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updated!!

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Kaki Pelangi

Gue punya temen, namanya Steven. Dia tuh puinter banget bikin puisi... hehe. pernah satu kali, gw rikues bikinin puisi ke dia, dan inilah hasilnya:


Kaki Pelangi
: Louisa Zephania

telah terlukis dalam hati sebuah jejak kaki
dimana sudutnya berona warna-warni, tinggi
juga besar merupa tempat berlindung terhadap matahari
dan ketika hujan pun turun tiba-tiba, akan terjadi
sebuah lukisan yang tak habis diterjemahkan: pelangi


14 Agustus 2007



HEhee gimana? Gimana? Bagus gak?? Well, kalian bisa ngeliat puisi2 lainnya di blog puisinya dia, Caranya? Klik di sini neh.....

Thanks ya Tep! :)

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How Creative Are You?

I did another test called CREATIVITY TEST....... How creative are you... and here's the answer:



You Are 73% Creative

You are beyond creative. You are a true artist - even if it's not in the conventional sense of the word.
You love creating for its own sake, and you find yourself quite inspired at times.


Uh oh... Beyond creative? ~_~ And please dont say im a true artist.... i feel as if i wanna break down and cry.... i am a business IT student, mind you! not a designer.

ok i may wanna be a website designer. i may, i said.

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From Town to Arab St.

Yesterday night was so fun, I walked (yes, on foot) from Town to Arab Street. Thanks to Tay Jia Liang, a friend of mine.

The story began when I was so bored at home, depressed with one handicraft that I wanted to do (see below post and you will know why I am depressed). I thought it would be good to make it and give it as a birthday gift, but then I was stucked in the middle and forced to stop and throw whatever things I had done. So happened that at the moment, Jialiang was online and he asked me whether I wanna chill. I said, why not? So I stopped working with the stupid handicraft (which in the end I just bought a gift instead) and went to see him.

We just had our dinner (a Korean Cuisine) in GrEAT TrEAT food court in Le Meridien, then walked to somewhere near Arab Street for a dessert. He said there was this dessert shop called Pluck, an ice-cream indulgement place. So we went there and along the way, he showed me places of where to shop for a second hand jeans from Japan, and expensive boutiques opened up by potential artists from either Lasalle or NAFA students, where to rent ANY costumes, and many others. We finally reached Pluck, but sadly, we found that the shop was already closed. But Jia Liang (again) spilled out some gossips like there are 2 helpers inside the shop, a guy and a girl, and they are actually a couple. The shop is opened by the girl's sister, and inside it was so artistic and cozy, it was really cool. Girls usually love to hang out there.

Then we walked back, and stopped at another dessert place called Black Pitch. We found out that Black Pitch actually offers movie screenings apart from just desserts. They show arts productions, and have different themes each week. This week, they have musicals. I looked at their schedules and they show things like Cabaret, West Side Story, etc. Next week will be all shows from this Indian Producer I dont know whos the name is, and the following week will be all fashion concept shows. To watch, you have to make reservations. Pretty cool huh?

We went home after splurging on drinks, and we walked to Bugis Station. Along the way, Jia Liang told me lots of intersting facts, including Parkview Square's misconstruction and the flying bartender. It was pretty fascinating. Another thing were facts related to the knife-blade lookalike buildings in bugis, and a budget hotel nearby. All Facts, and not just plain old-folks story. Seriously speaking, I think he will make a good tour-guide. Lol.

Jialiang is one cool knowledgeable guy. Go and chill out with him and you will know lots of new interesting stuff, unless you yourself is just as knowledgeable as him.

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Ide

Kalo kita lagi niat, nyadar gak sih kadang buanyak banget ide2 gila bermunculan di kepala? Dan saat ide2 itu nongol bak tamu nggak diundang tapi diharapkan, meski tuh ide super gelo dan susah banget dikerjain, kita tetep aja bilang, "aahh.. pasti bisa, asal niat aja. When there's a will, there's a way..."

Emang bener sih, gw gak anti sama kata2 itu, tapi kadang, perlu gak sih kita mikir... apa bener itu ide bener2 doable, apa bener kita sanggup ngerjain ide2 tersebut??? Soalnya nih ya, kalo itu ide di luar batas kemampuan kita, chances are, kita bakal berhenti di tengah jalan.

Contoh. Waktu bikin proyek OTBS. Disuruh bikin word games nih. Saat itu banyak banget ide2 berhamburan di mana2... Ide2 menarik dan unik kayak scoring system, yang pada mulanya ada 10 di tangan player 1, player 2 harus berusaha nyolong sebanyak mungkin points dari player 1, sedangkan player 1 harus retain as many points as possible. Cara nyolong dan cara retain? Mainin kata2 di gamesnya. Kedengerannya seru banget, ditambah alur cerita di games itu yang temanya gw bikin sbg perampokan rumah seorang saudagar kaya, dll. Gw tau semua itu bakal bikin lecturers gw terpana. Tapi sayang, untuk ngebuat ide2 tersebut jadi realita, diperlukan kemampuan. Apakah gua punya necessary programming skills to make everything real and working, not just plain ideas? Sayangnya nggak.

Masih banyak lagi ide2 yang kadang bikin gw sendiri terkagum2, tapi sayang, semua itu hanyalah sebuah ide, yang pada ujungnya nggak pernah terselesaikan. Bukan karena gw males, tapi karena gw selalu berhenti di tengah jalan, yang pada awalnya disebabkan oleh kurangnya keahlian atau keterampilan untuk membuat segalanya menjadi mungkin.

Dan menurut gw, hal itu sangatlah menyebalkan.

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Janji sebagai alasan

Gue sebel laaaahhhhh.... jadi orang koq gitu banget... masa dia yang janji gw yang harus tepatin? gw yang harus ngalah??? yang janji siapaaaa??????

dia janji ke orang laen, tapi untuk menepati janjinya dia itu, dia harus minjem laptop gw. dan parahnya, pas dia janji, dia gak konsul2 dulu ke gw, maen janji aja.

masalahnya bukan apa2... sekarang nyatanya gw gak bisa nepatin janjinya dia, karna gw harus bikin tugas gw yang kumpulnya jumat pagi. EEEEEEEEEeeehhhh dia gak tau diri malah marah2 ke gw, bilang gw harus ngalah lah karna kmaren uda janji... YANG JANJI KAN DIA!!! salah sendiri dia janji2 ke orang laen nggak bilang2 gw dulu.. janji dia kan melibatkan laptop gw, harusnya dia bilang2 dulu donk k gw sebelum janji!!

masa demi menepati janji dia ke orang laen, gw harus rela berkorban nggak bikin tugas??????

gw gak habis pikir. koq ada orang sekonyol itu???????

sebeeel... pake melibatkan senioritas segala.. jangan mentang2 dia lebi tua bisa seenaknya aja nyuruh2 gw ngalah... eh bukannya karna dia lebi tua dia harusnya lebih dewasa ya? ngalah donk mbak!!!! halahh.... ada mereka malah gak ada damai sejahtera. harusnya mereka gak usa dateng aja.

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Stories that left unspoken.

Dalam kesesakan, mereka selalu ada di sana.
Dalah kegaduhan, hati yang dihantam badai,
teleponku selalu berdering, my friends are calling.

Punya temen emang enak, karena kita bisa tertawa.
Bayangin kalo gak ada temen, mo ketawa sama siapa hayo?

Tapi kadang kita suka nggak mau terbuka. Kayak gw misalnya.
Susah banget buat gw untuk cerita.
Oke, mungkin kalo cerita tentang hal2 menarik ato lucu, gw bisa.
Tapi buat masalah yang menyangkut pribadi ato personal,
susah banget.

Banyak orang dari dulu selalu bilang,
"Sa, kalo ada masalah bilang aja, gw bakal bantuin selama gw bisa. Lu tuh uda gw anggep kayak ade gw sendiri sa" -dhanu
"Feel free to contact me if you have any problem ya" -ce san2
"If you have any problem, just share it here. Pasti dibantu." -wil
"Why? we are your family here in Singapore.." -jesher
"You can talk about anything to us" -ben

Masi banyak yang bilang hal2 serupa, tapi gw gak pernah bisa buat cerita.
Kenapa??

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Ulang Tahunku

Sudah saatnya gue mengapdet blog ini kan? Mengingat temanku tercinta Tirza teriak2 tiap hari menantikan adanya entry baru dalam blog ini. Mueheheh

Bulan July:

Bulan ini adalah bulan yang cukup menyenangkan, mengingat ulang tahunku jatuh pada bulan ini. Ada banyak hal yang mengharukan terjadi, banyak pribadi yang perlu diucapkan terima kasih, banyak situasi yang menjadikan segala sesuatunya sempurna.

Terence dan Peilin

Beberapa minggu sebelum gw ultah, Terence sms. Dia bilang dia ma Peilin mau ngajak ktemuan pas tanggal 11. Gw ayoin aja. Peilin, Jesher, Terence, Sweekee dan kawan2 itu tuh temen gaul gw di TP. Merekalah anak2 yang bikin masa2 poly gw tak terlupakan. Mereka orang2 yang selalu punya semua ide2 gila di kepala mereka. Gaul sama mereka pokoknya gak ada matinya. Mereka juga orang2 yang mau ngedengerin masalah2 gue, saat suka dan duka mereka temenin gw.

Jadi tanggal 11, booked. Gue sebel juga sih karna ultah gw jatoh saat gw harus kerja. Tapi abis kerja gw bisa ketemu anak2, gw seneng juga.

Shana dan Fadzli

Shana dan Fadzli adalah 2 orang teman terdekat gue di DBS. Mereka berdua sama2 anak TP, sama2 anak BIT, sama2 internship di DBS, sama2 mengalami suka duka seorang intern. Kalo lagi kerja, kita suka belaga2 ria, belaga jadi manager, belaga jadi tentara (ini paling sering), belaga macem2 dari cara2 kita berbicara lewat email.

Contoh 1 (lunch bareng):

Importance: High

“Dear Managers,

Please confirm the time and venue for our appointment this afternoon. The main purpose for this discussion is to meet the hunger demand of our valuable customers.

Kindly revert back your availability by replying to this email. Your prompt response is greatly appreciated, thank you.



Best regards,
Louisa Zephania
President
XXX Bank Ltd.


Contoh 2 (ketemuan di lounge):
“Arm your weapons. Intruders expected. Bridgitised at sixteen hundred.”

“Save to move now. Sector clear. Assemble at rendezvous point.”

“Brigitisation accomplished.”

Hehhe. Seru? Muahahaha saking boringnya kerja, itulah yang sering kita lakukan. Kadang kita maen hangman lewat email, ato tiap orang kontribusi 3 huruf, dan bikin cerita horror misalnya. Ngantor jadi lebih seru kalo kita punya partner email yang juga sama gak jelasnya kayak Fadzli.

Temen2 di DBS juga ngerencanain buat makan di hari ultah gw pas pulang kerja. Tapi sayang, tanggal 11 uda gw reserved buat Peilin dan kawan2.

Andrianto dan Ko Menthol

Andrianto telepon beberapa hari setelah Terence. Dia ngajakin “nego” berhubung ultah kita sama2 di bulan July. Dia pengen gw ma dia patungan traktirin anak2 FA. Gw sih ok2 aja, soalnya tanggal 11 gw juga gak bisa.....

Hari minggu, pas ketemu Ko menthol (my cell leader), dia nanya, “Louisa, tanggal 11 mau makan di mana?” seperti biasa, kalo ada anak FA yang ulang taon, kita pasti selalu makan2. Gue yang uda ngerencanain ngrayain bareng Andri, gak tau juga gimana mau kasi tau ko menthol. Tapi akhirnya gw dan Andri bilang, dan sepertinya ko hendra agak gak mau kalo gw ma Andri yang traktir. Dia mau supaya dia sendiri yang traktir, karna dia uda berpenghasilan. Heheh. Sayang lagi, tanggal 11 uda gw reserved.

As what I may have said, too many friends, fighting for one stupid day.

Tanggal 9 July malam / 10 subuh

Gue chat ma Peilin, and to make the story short, dia batalin acara ketemuan di ultah gw. Gw gak marah sih, tapi gw jadi moody. Bete abis. Tau gitu gw iya-in ko menthol. Tau gitu gw iya-in Shana. Semua gw tolak gara2 Peilin CS. Kalo boleh jujur, gue keseeeeelll banget. Tapi gw belaga tegar. Gw sok kuat, gw bilang gapapa, kalo lu orang pada busy ya uda gak usa dipaksain.... Gue bilang ma temen gw yang laen lagi kalo its not a big deal. Padahal bagi gw sih its kind of big. Dalam hati gw sedih, sediih banget.

Gue sms shana jem 1an. Gw komplen ke dia, untung dia mo ngedengerin, padahal uda jem 1. Shana itu paling mau mengerti gue. Gw bersyukur punya temen kayak dia...

Tanggal 11.

The D day.

SMS di pagi hari.

Bangun tidur, gw nerima belasan sms ucapan selamat ulang tahun. Tapi yang paling surprise itu SMS dari Lionel. LIONEL!!! Bused... sejak kapan tu orang tau ultah gue?????? Xiu Hui juga... hebat ya mereka.. heheh. Lionel malah dateng ke DBS bank buat ngasi kado, plus kirim kartu ulang taon pake POS!!! Ckckckck...... terharu gw. Xiu Hui malah ngajak gw makan malem gitu.. wahhhh kalian semuaaa....

Ancaman Overtime.

Jem 18:16 Max (project coordinator gw) telepon. “Louisa, if you are free, can you come up now?”

Wuaduh, OT lagi !!! Ogah!! Hari ini gw ultah! Gw gak mo OT!!

“Err.. actually I can’t, I have a dinner appointment later...”

Akhirnya dengan teknik appointment, gw dibolehin untuk meninggalkan kantor....

Pesta di malam hari.

Ada Fadzli. Ada Shana. Ada Su Ling. Ada Shahirah. Ada Kue. Ada makanan. Ada hadiah. Ada Louisa. Ada canda. Ada tawa. Ada senyuman. Ada kenangan.

Terima kasih, teman. Kalian sangatlah berharga.

Kejutan di rumah.

Orang2 rumah gw gak tau kalo gw ultah. Mereka gak pernah inget. Dalam perjalanan ke rumah, gw nerima 3 miskol. From a special friend. Gw da panik... nah lo... nah lo... gw gak denger ada telpon!!! Kan lagi asik2nya ngejayus ma anak2 TP.... Di rumah, gw ngeliat ada sebuah kado tergeletak cantik di atas meja (kiasan doang, biasa aja sih, huwahah). Isinya ada sebuah kartu dan... erm... sebuah hadiah. Duh.... Selebihnya rahasia.... Huehehehe.

Ucapan terima kasih

Terima kasih semuanya, kalian sangat-sangat berarti buatku.

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Student Awards Ceremony 2007

I attended the Student Awards Ceremony on Wednesday afternoon, and I received 2 awards: The CCA Merit Award and The Interest Group of The Year Award.

Kind of happy, but do I really deserve these??


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Back Left to Right: Daisy, April, Ronald, Ye Tun
Front Left to Right: Peilin, Jane, Stephanie, Me, Isaiah, Jesher, Terence


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Yummy..........!!!
B L to R: Daisy, April, Ronald
F L to R: Peilin, Jane, Stephanie, Me, Isaiah, Ye Tun, Jesher, Terence


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L to R: Ivy, Peilin, Me, Ye Tun, Terence


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Standing, B L to R: Terence, Stephanie, Ronald, Peilin, Ivy, Daisy, Jane, Me
Squatting, F L to R: Ye Tun, Isaiah, Jesher


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L to R: Ivy, Peilin, Me, Ye Tun


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L to R: Ivy, Isaiah, Daisy, Ronald, Alvin, Ye Tun, Me

Anyways, whether I deserve the award or not, I think I should cherish the moments I have for the past year(s). I have learnt a lot through these two demanding CCAs and the people there are the ones who have gone through thick and thin together with me in school. Thanks my CCA-mates!!! Esp. Peilin (for all fun activities you organised, my birthday celebration, EVERYTHING!), Jesher (for all encouraging and motivational words you give when I'm low, for being so darn serious when studying, which makes me worried and hence hitting my books even harder...), Swee Kee (for all the helps you render during all events, for the scoldings, the nagging, and the fun spent, thanks), Isaiah (for your always great back up plans escaping meetings!! Lol. And for sharing the same darn experience joining the club in the middle of the acad year, and sharing the entire bloody encounter.. well.. you know what I mean. lol. And thanks for being lame...), and Terence (thanks for... -uh, what else?- driving all of us home in the middle of the night), you guys are GREAT with a huge G!! You make my days in TP more meaningful :)


THANKS!!!

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Day of The LORD

I spent almost all of my time in church today, enjoying the presence of God.


7am - 9am : Youth Dawn Prayer
10am - 1pm: Starbucks Coffee
2pm - 5pm: BCS Workers' Prayer Meeting
5pm - 7:30pm: Heart of God Church Service


and I was totally blessed!!!


At the Dawn Prayer, i was reminded to keep on praying for my family. extended family. More than half a decade ago, my extended family has always been hauled with problems. There will never be times where all of us can be one big family, living in harmony. Never. Instead, there would only be arrogance, defamations, lies, backstabs, and so on. The reason? I am not really sure myself. Brother Bonar said that in Christ, there is hope. God can do great and mighty things, even if we think that such things are impossible to happen. But who am I to assume? The future lies in Him, and believing Him is the key to the freedom. I put my trusts on God alone and I believe that restorations will happen in my family. My family will be walking together hand-in-hand towards the finishing line, with God as the leader. Yes, Lord. I demand the restoration!

Workers' Prayer Meeting was awesome!!!! Super duper awesome!!! Serious!! I received the anointing once again. Holy Spirit was and is undescribable! All things involving that Special One is just miraculous and beyond my thoughts. I thought I knew Him and I have been with Him for so long, but today I saw something that's super amazing to me. It felt as if I just knew Him. I become so totally all over Him, my Jesus. I think I am falling in love harder than the first time. I promise I will spend quality time with Him even more than the usual.

Heart of God service was also great. It taught me, as part of the Joshua Generation, to unite with the older generations. Malachi 4:6. When two or more generations unite, the Holy Spirit is real and God will do even greater things that each one of us could ever imagine. Can you believe that? More miracles!!! See Mary and Elizabeth? Two different generations united, and the results? Awesome!!!

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Personality Test

I just took an online personality test and I think the result is pretty close to my ownself. It's kind of cool and let me just post this, alrites?

You Are An INFP


The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards. You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings.

At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual. When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak.



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Dawn Prayer

Hari ini hari sabtu, dan pagi ini gw ke dawn prayer (lagi). Entah kenapa gue jadi tertarik buat dateng ke doa jam 7 pagi itu. Jadi gelap2 gue uda jalan ke bus stop buat menuju ke OHGS.

Di sana gue ngerasa roh gue di-recharged lagi. Kadang kita perlu banget buat minum air hidup itu. Bukan kadang sih, tapi tiap hari. Tapi entah kenapa, waktu gue saat teduh, yang gue dapet itu jauh lebi dikit dari saat2 gue dateng ke doa2 bareng kayak dawn prayer gitu. Mungkin tingkat kedisiplinan gue yang kurang kali ya.. waktu saat teduh mungkin gue pengennya cepet2 kelar ato gimana....

Nah saat bagian sharing2 gitu, Ko Omar tanya, apa sih yang bikin kita dateng ke dawn prayer? Jujur aja nih, sabtu pagi itu tuh adalah satu2nya hari dalam seminggu di mana gue bisa bangun siang. Dan terus terang aja, waktu paling berharga itu adalah waktu2 di mana gue bisa tidur pulas sampe puas. Dulu, gue selalu bangun siang banget, jadi bangun2 bisa langsung lunch, dan gue sangat menikmatinya. Pas gue uda kerja, gak ada lagi masa2 bangun siang. Dari senin sampe jumat, gue harus bangun pagi. Jadi sabtu adalah hari paling berharga yang gue miliki. Tapi, saat paling berharga buat gw catch up sama waktu tidur gw (sabtu pagi) harus gw korbankan kalo gue mao dateng ke dawn prayer.

Kenapa sih gue bela2in dateng buat dawn prayer? Kalo dipikir2 yah, mulai jem 7, berarti gue harus bangun paling telat jem setengah 6. Ngapainnnn??? Lu kan tau sendiri betapa gue sangat menikmati bangun jam 1 siang....

Mungkin kalo ditanya alasannya, ada banyak hal yang berbau rohani yang bakalan gw jawab. Klasik. Tapi kalo gue boleh jujur, gue bener2 ngerasa kalo gue harus kudu dateng ke dawn prayer, gue harus ngorbanin sesuatu yang menurut gw berharga banget buat Tuhan. Kenapa? Karna gue mau belajar mencintaiNya. Satu-satunya alasan kenapa gue bisa kuat dan nggak komplen adalah karna gue mau kasih yang terbaik buat Tuhan. Gue udah terlalu sering ngegombal, bilang cinta sama Tuhan, gue mau hati Tuhan disenangkan, dll dsb dst. Tapi buktinya mana? Gue ngedosa iya, tobat juga ga sepenuh hati. Cape gak sih? Kepikiran gak sih kalo sekarang ini saatnya kita semua pada bangkit?

Dan lagi, kalo misalnya gue jadi orang tua, apa sih yang bakal gue rasain kalo misalnya anak gue ngasih gue sesuatu yang gue tau berharga banget buat dia? Apa sih yang bakal gue rasain kalo anak gue rela ngelepasin barang yang berharga banget (mainan kesayangan misalnya) buat gue cuma karna dia pengen hati gue seneng? Man... kalo gw ada di posisi orang tua itu, gue pasti bakal terharu banget dan nganggep anak gue tuh malaikat. Begitu juga dengan Tuhan. Waktu tidur di sabtu pagi adalah sesuatu yang menurut gw berharga banget dan sayang banget kalo gw relain gitu aja. Tapi gue mau korbanin itu semua buat Tuhan karna gw pengen hatiNya disenangkan.

Kita selalu minta buat revival, tapi revival itu gak bakal terjadi kalo kita nggak lebih dulu memulai. Temen gue pernah bilang, kita nggak boleh cuma nunggu2 dari Tuhan doang tapi nggak ngelakuin apa2. We are the ones who roll the ball, God is the one who keeps the ball rolling. Gitu... Jadi, kalo kita males2an terus, gak bisa bangun lah, apa lah.. yah elah.. kapan mulainya revival itu??

Itu juga salah satu alasan gue ikut dawn prayer sih: Latihan bangun pagi. Kalo di indo, nyokap pasti ngoceh2 kalo gue bangun siang. Emang sih, kalo dipikir2, sayang juga bo hari dilewatin cuma buat tidur. Tuhan ciptain hari itu buat kita ngelakuin perkara2 dahsyat, lah kalo kita tidur aja kapan kita mau memberkati orang? Dulu gue selalu minta supaya gue bisa jadi tentara Tuhan yang gak kenal gentar. Mana ada tentara yang bangun siang2?? Iya gak sih? Tentara itu kan siap sedia kapanpun di manapun, tiap hari kerjaannya bergerilya ke sana ke sini... Bukan tidur. Lagian kalo kita mulai hari kita dengan ketemu Tuhan di pagi hari, pikiran kita jadi lebih awas. Lebih alert lah istilahnya. Bukan tentara kesiangan kayak yang tadi gue sebutin itu.

Buat temen2 yang ngebaca post ini, gue sangat mengundang kalian yang masih muda untuk ikut dawn prayer, Sabtu jem 7 pagi di Orchard House of God (Singapore). Ada banyak berkat yang bisa kita dapetin, yang gak bakalan bisa kita terima kalo kita cuma males2an aja di sabtu pagi.

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Hey PEEPS!!!

Finally, I can log in to BLOGSPOT again!!!! Lol.

Therefore, I'm gonna do what i used to do: BLOGGING.

Yeah. its been an extremely long time ever since the last time i blogged. wow! 2 months? Lol. Oh well.. i nearly dont know what to write now... serious. too many things to tell yet too little mood to type. lol.

1. On Internship
i am currently doing my internship in DBS Bank, and I'm posted under CBG (Consumer Banking Group), Sales Incentives Department. Its been rather boring as my jobscope is mainly on payment processing, but hey, at least i know what im doing. Besides the boring excel spreadsheets to work on everyday, I am also involved in developing the regional dept's Intranet Pub and thats stressful!! Alrights. STRESSFUL!! i am not new to web development, but sadly, i am not doing the aesthetic or html. what i do is the site management which i hate. I feel so stupid when it comes to intranet. why? becoz we are doing this as a joint project with other business units in the department, which includes working with other interns. and what stupid is, they start comparing my capability with other interns. and let me tell you this: i am the only poly intern being involved in the project, and the rest of the interns i am working with (and being compared with) are university students!! So please be civil and stop comparing me with them coz firstly, they are older, and secondly, they are pursuing a degree! Sigh. i dont know why. i hate to know less than them. but on the other hand, theres nothing much i can do. man. i cant wait to get this project over and done with.

2. On Church
Bible camp is just over two weeks ago and everything was awesome! We are getting more and more undignified for God! The only thing that im so sorry for is that it needs to end.........

3. On Friendship
Did i tell you before that I have no best friend? Well, i guess i'm starting to break that perception. Im getting more and more comfortable with Shana, and i can tell her my problems, ask for her opinions, tell her everything, anything, basically all things under the sun. I'm starting to be more open to her, and I think we will be best of friends. Shahirah too. But too bad shahirah works in a different company so cant really meet her that often. good thing is, shana is a convert so we share the same belief. Thank God.

Other stuff will be updated soon. Thanks for reading.

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on updates.....

to all readers...... blogger.com is getting really slow when i load it in my home PC, updates will be posted anytime soon. sorry and thank you.hahahaha so formal for what?but yeah, blogger.com is really sucked up in my home pc.. im now posting it in school comp.. but guess when will i be in school again? hmmm......

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CAR ACCIDENT

CRAZY!!!

I almost died. LITERALLY DIED on a CAR ACCIDENT.

That Comfort Taxi driver was extremely reckless. I would have already been in a hospital if that driver stepped on the brakes A LITTLE LATER. Seriously!! It already hit me, but mildly. My fingers touched the car. I was so shocked and traumatized... The thing is, I DID NOT JAY-WALK. I crossed the road when the light was green.

Seriously. I am now starting to be a good citizen (yeah rite. Good Indonesian citizen following good singapore citizens manners, what nonsense). The light was GREEN!!! So I happily crossed the road without looking to the left and right. Suddenly someone honked at me. That taxi. The driver stepped on the brake and the blue vehicle stopped exactly beside me, with its front touching my hand and pushing me a few centimetres away to the other side. I was damn shocked. I looked at the traffic light. Eh? Correct what... green for pedestrians to cross the road, and red for the vehicles. But where did this vehicle come from?? How come it was moving when the light was red??? Then I looked at the driver. The driver looked at the light. Green light. Then he just put up his right hand and nodded his head a bit, as if he is apologising. HELLO!! You almost took my life away! And my exams will start in 2 days time, what can an apology do if I were about to be hospitalised because of your reckless act???

In the bus, I felt like I should have taken his plate number, and complain to Comfort Del Gro. Who knows I might get cab reimbursements for one whole year as an expense of its reckless driver who almost cost my life. Shiok....!! Heheh.

But on the other hand, someone kept on saying, "forgive him... forgive him... forgive him just as God has forgiven you." Whoahh.. Yea...

HEY CAB DRIVER!! YOU ARE FORGIVEN!!!! :)

Hahahaha..... Anyway.. what a thrill. I realised that no matter how far I was away from God, He would still be there to protect me. I know that if God did not care about me, I may have already in the hospital by now. My grandma would cancel her flight, and I could not take the exams in school. What a life. But God is always there by my side. No matter what happens, He will still be the One who protects me and stays beside me. Thank you, Holy Spirit.... :)

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Exams

Phew... finally all projects are done... now left EXAMS... let's see if i can manage my time well.

Zzzz... Exams are just a waste of time.

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OTBS!

Heya! Its been soooooooooooo LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONnngggggggggggg ever since the last time I posted... Been busy with school and other stuff.... Church... Sunshine... exams and projects. Sigh.

Yeaaa...

On Monday, I had dinner with Wasis, Yusrin, Dodi, Frida, and Klara... Wasis just came from Melbourne.. He didnt inform us earlier la aiya.. he just suddenly out of nowhere popped in my MSN window and asked "Louisa besok maen badminton yuk di TP (Trans: Louisa, let's play badminton in TP tomorrow)"... I was like.. huh? TP? Aren't you in Melbourne, Sis? Lol. Ternyata oh ternyata... Then he changed the plan to dinner coz me and Dodi finish our class at 6pm and we are just too lazy to play badminton in such a late hour. Lol. We had dinner in Terra, Bugis Junction. Before we even looked at the menu, I jokingly said, "gw bokek nih Sis.. traktirin donk! (Trans: I'm broke, you treat me ok?)" Huwahahaha.. And he really did (O.o) He just nod his head. I was like.. what does a nod mean? He said it was his birthday on the 3rd of Feb, so he will treat us. Haha happy belated bday, Sis.. Moga2 panjang umur en diberkati melimpah2 sama Tuhan YME. Amin.

Yesterday I stayed in school til extremely late due to the OTBS project. I just left the computer lab at 10pm plus plus when the officer came after us and chased us out as the labs are closing soon. OTBS is supposed to be a fun subject.. It is a programming based subject that allows us to make full use of open technologies. Example: I'm now using blogger.com rite? Ok. Imagine I'm not using blogger.com, but using my own engine that I developed from scratch, how cool is that? And we were taught to develop our own word game as well.. and I got A for that.. Lol. Not because my codes are fantastic... I seriously have no idea why I got such a high mark for my individual assignment (the word game that I developed). I think its because of my design or my delivery.. All I know is that I should thank God for it. God played an enormous role in finishing the entire project. Initially, I was thinking of getting a 'C' coz my codes are like sh*t. I mean, seriously, they dont even work. They only work properly for the hints sections.. Other than that, whether your guess of word is correct or wrong, it will still give you nothing and the programme will still prompt you to guess some more (with the number of hints decreasing by 1 each time). It's not supposed to be like that. They should like give you scores for your accurate guess.. Sigh. Moreover, your number of attempts keeps on decreasing no matter if you guess the word or just buy the hints. I was so stressed by the stupid codes I did not give a damn and just passed it up. Thank God my tutor likes my design and how my pages flow (she even said to all of the practical groups that she teaches that among the class, she likes my design the best, and how well i deliver the game, bla bla.. whoaa.. i am feeling so high.. lol) and she gave me an A. I was like... huh???? A?? I even asked her back, "You mean that's my grade for IA?" and she said yes..... Hahahahaha..... W O W~!

Okay talking about staying late in school reminds me of my SAND project. My group report was like 200 over pages thick!! Whoaaa!!! That's my thickest report so far. Seriously. It almost couldnt go through the staff's letterbox. Lol.

Anywayss.. I just bought my own laptop.. WITH MY OWN MONEY!! Yaayyy!! I support my own laptop okay? I dont ask my parents for their $$$. I pay myself! Whoa.. the feeling of satisfaction is there!!!!

AND HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL... WISHING ALL COUPLES A FRUITFUL NITE AND ALL SINGLES A MEANINGFUL JOMBLO DAY. LOL. LET'S CELEBRATE OUR SINGLE STATUS BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!!!

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UPDATES!

HI!!!

There are TONNES of updates i can blabs about.... Hmm.. my blog's getting rotten? Hahaha, thats not the thing. I AM getting BUSIER, that's the thing.

ON SCHOOL:

School's getting more and more demanding and textbooks are starting to talk greek to me, especially OTBS. It's true that I scored DISTINCTION in project phase 1, but so what? It's just a mere 5% afterall, the thing is, can I get another A or distinction in phase 2 and 3? Answer is no. I took my assessment phase 3 just last thursday, and I scored 13 out of 20. What a shame. If only I used "for loop", "strlen" and "is_numeric", I could have scored higher. SIGH!!! I scored FULL MARKS in debugging la for goodness' sake! Why should I get an extremely lousy grade for programming???? The reason is because I'm a no programmer. Give me calculus, even though it's hard, I would still be willing to sit down and do the bloody question. I would try to use whatever attempts that I think can solve the question and still happy with it. That's part of debugging rite? Lol. Give me an output and ask me to code, I will die.

Jackson just informed us on our group assignment this afternoon in the lecture. And guess what? We are required to BUILD a blog system from scratch. Imagine Louisa is developing a BLOGGER??? Sigh. Is he mad??? And the deadline is 14th Feb. That's my FRIENDSHIP DAY, can?????? (I'm organising an event called friendship day [will change the name soon] on 14th Feb, TP-ers, PLEASE COME!!)

Last wednesday, Belinda gave back our test papers. I scored an A for Marketing!!! HAHAHA... That's PURELY my GOD's work!!!! Coz I studied in the morning all the way to the afternoon on the day of the test itself (no time to study at home days before coz I have appointments and stuff 4 consecutive days before the test)... So I'm extremely delightful to hear that I actually scored an A. Lol.

TPIS Meeting went REALLY long just now, but it's okay because we are organising a very huge event... the TP SPORTS FIESTA'07!!! Yeah!! Winners will get vouchers (either a restaurant, a cafe, or even a LAN Gaming vouchers) to celebrate their victory, and all sports participants will receive a certificate each. We are proposing street soccer, badminton, six-a-side cricket, basketball, and friendly captain's ball (no competition is going on, just purely games for fun)

ON COMPANY:

My mum and my dad are fully supportive, not yet to talk about my cousin and my uncle. Thanks. Because of them, I can have an overseas network. Still a very small one, but good enough to start.

Mr. Ben said it would be good if I make it a habit to come down to the company everyday. It's not impossible, true, but I just can't. First, CCA stuff which always have meetings until very late. Second, there is Ci Vivi in the house I can't possibly give her the impression that I leave the house everyday and come back late at night. Third, church stuff. It's awkward to come to the company on SUNDAY. The Bible says, leave the Sabbath Day for Me (God, I mean). I don't know, I just feel that I meet Mr. Ben and Jiayi more than I meet my own God. I know something's wrong with me. I'm not the type of person who is crazy about earning money. It's true that I'm not born or raised up in a wealthy family, but my parents have planted some values in me not to see money as God, because the love for money is the root to all evils (This is what the Bible says). I always tell myself not to be so materialistic. I told myself, if I earn, that's fully because of God's grace. God wants to bless me financially, this is why I earn. I work, I do things, I opp people, I share, all is for me to get extra. But God is still the One who decides whether I should get the money or not. I do something, God decides if my efforts worth my wishes. God wants me to be blessed from all aspects, and he give the best out of everything. So if He says no, I believe that He has something much better for me.

Not only injecting some materialistic sense into my flesh, they teach me to dream big. Ok. There's nothing wrong to dream big. Even the Church teaches us to dream big. But their DREAM BIG is really DREAM BIG literally. Like I am dreaming of having my own car at the age of 20. Impossible? That's called dreaming big (to them). Haiz.. They teach us to imagine things that we cant afford so we can work even harder to earn the money. Dots rite? I mean, so what if I have a car at the age of 20? So I can drive to university???? That's not the reason why I'm earning now, is it??

And OH! My DAD offers Mr. Yuan Jie a lift from the SoeHatta Airport to wherever he stays. Woah. I don't know my dad can suddenly be so free. Lol...

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woo hooooo!!! highhh

JAKARTA!!!!!

Kamar gue mengecewakan nih............... panggungnya jadi jelek gitu....... huhuhu.... siapa sih yang bikin??? dudung... gak ikutin gambar yang uda gw kasi.... pake pengetahuan sendiri..... arghhhh........ jelekkkkkkkk....... huhuhuhuhu.......

ngapain gw k jkt ya? haha.. masa cuma pulang? gue ke sini with a mission...... misi apa? cari duit.. huwehehehehehehehehhe......... im coming with a mission........... lol

ayo ayo pada nyari duit bareng2.......................... gue seneng deh... huwaahahaha........................... komunikasi dari jakarta ke atasan2 di singapur............. serasa gue ini agen pentink! huwehehehehehehe ok ok imajinasi gue terlalu tinggi.... tapi beneran lohhhhh............ gue ini serasa agen penting yang lagi menjalani sebuah misi di indonesia............... huwahahahaha.......... pekerjaan gue keren bo.............

ok ok..... gue lagi bikin proyek nih..... huhu... php butut......... gak tau gimana cara bikinnya.... dudung...... hang man.... wheel of fortune... whatever..... bleagh......

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EGA

I thought joining the EGA community was a great challenge coz I know almost nobody there, but HEY! All my 'seniors' are EXTREMELY helpful and understanding!!

They allow me to STUDY and FOCUS on my term tests.
They teach me LOTS of stuff.
They care a lot on my personal growth.
They help me to earn more money.
They expect me to be mature.
They open up my narrow perspectives.
They let me see tonnes of things I could not see.
They give me solutions in handling urgent situations.
They are willing to help me in achieving my desires.
They occassionally drive me home if it's already late.

OOOoohhh I love what I'm doing. Hahaahaha.. Seriously.

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Gilanya dunia bisnis

sejak gw menatapkan kaki gw ke sebuah dunia yang bener2 beda banget dari yang biasa gw jalanin, gw koq malah nggak ngerasa happy?

senior2 dan temen2 gue di dunia itu bilang kalo gw udah mengambil jalan yang benar dengan bergabung dengan mereka, dan emang diperlukan sebuah keberanian yang besar untuk keluar dari zona nyaman kita. Mereka bener2 memastikan kalo gw bakal liat sendiri hasilnya. tapi nyatanya? gue jadi makin boros karna iming2 nggak jelas dari mereka. maksud gw, siapa sih yang bisa memprediksikan masa depan?

okeh, mungkin gue sekarang tau kalo gue bakal bisa menghabiskan ikatan dinas gue selama 3 tahun di sana, mungkin hanya itu harapan tentang masa depan yang benar2 jelas terbaca. selanjutnya? tentang betapa berhasilnya gua kalo gua berani, tentang betapa gue bisa jadi anak muda yang berpenghasilan, namun menghabiskan uang hasil kerja keras orang tua gua... semua hal2 yang mereka bilang di saat gua masih naif, sekarang ke mana? hilangkah?

entah gua bodoh atau gua pinter, itu pun gua gak tau. orang2 pasti menentang keras dan menuntut gua untuk bangun dari tidur di siang bolong, berbalik ke jalan tradisional yang biasa ditempuh orang2 konvensional, belajar sungguh-sungguh biar bisa dapet kerja yang baik, dapet penghasilan tetap yang cukup, menikah dan berkeluarga. Konservatif sekali.

mungkin saat gua masih muda, gua punya pemikiran yang cukup gila dan menantang, namun apakah hal itu adalah sesuatu yang inovatif dari sudut pandang orang2 yang sudah lebih berpengalaman? ato mungkin malah dipandang sebagai suatu kebodohan?

akar dari segala kejahatan adalah cinta uang. gua akuin, akhir-akhir ini gua jadi lebih materialistik. kecintaan akan uang seakan-akan terbentuk dalam diri gua, dan kecintaan itu tumbuh dan semakin bertumbuh. salah siapakah? gua mulai ngeliat2 dan mencari tau dunia jual-beli options, gua tertarik untuk mengisi survey2 yang menghasilkan uang, gua tertarik untuk membaca iklan2 tentang cara mudah mendapatkan uang....

mungkin di mana-mana yang namanya bisnis kalo mau dapet uang emang harus mulai dari awal, seperti menulis proposal bisnis yang memberikan prospek yang cerah di hari tua, nyari2 sponsor dari perusahaan2 terkenal yang bisa menopang bisnis yang akan gua buat, dll dsb dst. Namun bisnis apakah? apakah gua ini punya tampang seorang businesswoman? apakah gua punya nature untuk jadi seorang entrepreneur? kalau mungkin proposal bisnis itu sudah ada dan sudah jadi, apa yang akan gua lakukan untuk mendapatkan kapital dan modal? menarik orang untuk membeli saham2 gua? nggak mungkin dong. orang mana mungkin beli saham kalo nggak jelas reputasi perusahaannya. apa yang akan gua lakukan? MLM? yeah, that's a good choice. memberikan gambaran2 yang masih kurang jelas ke anak2 yang punya mimpi yang tinggi akan masa depan mereka, tentang bagaimana mereka bisa jadi seperti orang2 berhasil yang mengendarai mobil tingkatan konglomerat. Membiarkan anak2 tersebut bermimpi dan membayangkan harapan2 kosong dan bilang kalo perusahaan gua pasti berhasil, dan keuntungan gua akan gua bagikan kepada mereka, kalau saja mereka mau bersama-sama membangun bisnis gua.

dunia sudah gila. dan gua juga secara gak sadar terbawa dalam kegilaan dunia. selamat bergabung dengan kami.

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This guy.......

Phew....

suddenly i was thinking of this guy, the guy i like in school.

it's such a huge secret i dont even want to reveal his name to anyone else, even if that one particular person doesnt even know him at all.

omgoodness i like him
omgoodness i like him
omgoodness i like him


i feel that he knows what i need, but too bad i guess we are going nowhere but being buddies.






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LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay I am so sorry. I was in bizlab, was playing truth or dareee *oops*. Okay Steve was watching me typing my stupid blog. Gottagobeforehemakesnoise!

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Challenges in Life

I talked to Jesher that day after InterPersonal Skills seminar. He shared on how I should have the passion in order to love what I'm doing. Geez. What passion? Can passion be built?? Nah! Don't even try and end up wasting your time. Haven't you learnt?? Don't you see GCC? They say they are grooming you, helping you in your personal growth, but are you groomed at all?? Not even one bit. Why? Because you have no passion for the CCA. You only get better in writing down notes coz they take you for granted and always ask you to write those darn minutes. Heck GCC. I am looking forward to the next AGM and can't wait to hand over my position to the next Honorary Secretary.

I replied Daisy's e-mail on what does GCC mean to me. I only write 1 sentence:
"Being with GCC is something that I won't forget for the rest of my life." Quite true. Because I won't forget how torturous it is, how it makes my life so ****ed up (Read: ffffed up, lol), how it steals my precious time. Ok pause here. No. Stop here. Let's rewind and don't ever play it again. I encourage you to be one of the sub-comms, considering these factors: friends to make, things to learn, activities to organise, overseas hosting stuff... go ahead and join for the sake of fun. But I strongly advise you not to join their ex. co., unless you are really into it.

TPIS too. What passion in helping International students to find their home away from home??? You ponteng their meetings, you forget about your responsibilities, you don't maximise your subcomms, what the hell are you doing, dear TPIS Head of Publicity, Louisa Zephania???????

What makes TPIS better than GCC??? The tolerance, that is. You don't meet their deadlines, it's fine. You can't handle one, that's fine. You want to do this, that's fine. Too little control. Too slack. Too kind advisor. But I guess I should thank TPIS for allowing me to be in their committee. I'm proud to say I'm in IS Committee whenever I'm outside, coz all organisations think that IS Club is something big in campuses. It is true, but not in TP. Anyway, I make lots of international friends through TPIS, NOT GCC. GCC please shut your ar$e up and stop saying that GCC is a platform to meet international students. You are doing nothing but making you look stupid. Why? Coz the platform of all international students is TPIS. What GCC does is just asking TPIS to join them and tadaaa... the international students are there! But anyway, meeting other ISC Committee from other polys are something I should treasure, though. Thanks to TPIS.

Another thing that makes me stress: I am a full-time Business IT student. The mountanous projects... the never-improved GPA... Sigh...... But this one is not so bad... At least I still have what Jesher called "passion". But it seems like I have put anything else above it I forget about it. When was the last time you study??? Gosh. Motivate yourself to put studies above the rest. Thank you very much.

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<< Today's Rewind: Project Day

Next week is the project submission. Gosh. My coursemates and I are like so dead now. Mountains of projects fall on us.

Today I came to school just to do the UIR test which I did not really do very well. Baka. It's like only MCQ and yet I did not pass well. I'm so super sad...

Principles of Marketing lesson was cancelled coz Ms. Belinda Ho was on MC. (Miss Ho, prepare yourself for your sing and dance performance next week, will ya? Lol...). So we all went to Jue's working place in Starbucks Changi Airport. The place was so cosy! Aisya, Stephanie, Fazi and I in the end had our OB project discussion there. We took like about 2.5 hours just to finish the darn OB Part A report. No, it's not because it is difficult or a lot, it was because we took more time to chat and joke around than to really discuss the topics (bullying among sch kids). And thank God Stephanie took Psychology before, so she kinda understand human behaviours and why do kids bully their friends. Jue is supposed to be in our group but she had to work so she did not join us. She did task 1 though. Anyway she served us drinks so it is alright to me. Lol. Ok I'm bad....

Anyway, Aisya said she will type the report, so OB down, 3 more to go.

Went home from school, I showered, surfed Internet for a while, and did OTBS straight after that. At least phase 1 OTBS is still doable.. In a sense that, it does not really require PHP codes to begin with. Only HTML and CSS will do. Then, along the way, I developed some ideas on my games. It was kinda cool on how ideas can pop up just like that. So I changed the game instructions and edited my flowchart. Phew.... Left descriptions to do but I'm too lazy to do it now. Lol.

Alright, moving on from projects... I have to find for companies to go for my SIP. Sigh. I throw away the ideas on going for overseas attachment as it is too troublesome (I think). So I guess I will stick to Singapore. Hmmm... Any ideas on where I should apply?

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I'm totally worn out!

11 November? Alright It was like loooonngg ago... hahahaha

My grandma is hospitalised and she can't talk now. Gah... We cant communicate no more coz she cant even write.. Not even pointing alphabets. Sigh.

I dont know what it would be when she is discharged man... Seriously... She cant cook, etc.. what am i supposed to do? Cook for her? Lol.

I'm listening Worlds Apart from Jars of Clay and it's really cool.. This song is about 3 years old already but it is still nice to listen. No wonder Ryan Cabrera loves this song!! HAhahaha...

Anyways.. Ive spent too much money this week I cant afford to spend anymore on unnecessary stuff... And Colvis asks me if I wanna start a business with him.. hmm basically I would be selling web stickers for others who wanna design their own page.. I design and he sells.. Of course the profits will be divided between us... Not quite a bad idea huh? But the programmes I have is only Photoshop and I suck in Flash so I dont know how to bloody design the stickers. Perhaps it would be just non-animated images all over. Lol. I wonder if he can sell those........

I have been wanting to get rich these days i dont know why. I have been attending an entrepreneurship seminar, I wanna participate in online stock trading competition, I wanna invest my money in a company, I wanna write a business proposal... Gah... I dont know what the hell is wrong with me man seriously......

Moving on, I received a wedding invitation from Ci Meili and Ko Albert... They are getting married next month so yeah.. CONGRATS to both of you cici and koko... I hope the two of you will live happily ever after (Lol.. what's this?? a fairy tale?? ~.~)

Alrites.... Enuf of the fun stuff already, let me share with you something ugly.

I HAVE BEEN EXTREMELY BUSY AND FULLY OCCUPIED WITH PROJECTS!!

Ugly? YES! Organisational Behaviour, Principles of Marketing, Systems Analysis and Design, Open Technology and Business Systems................ AND ALL HAVE THE SAME DEADLINES!! Tell me whats wrong with lecturers nowadays?? -.-"

And UIR has that bloggie thing needs to be updated at least everyweek, and my UIR class test is next wednesday....

Not only that, I have to secure my place for attachment next semester and by next month I have to submit my declaration forms, personal particulars, cover letter, and resume. Sigh.

What else? TPIS is having its sports festival, International Bazaar and Friendship day which 2 out of the 3 I am the in-charge.... GCC is having their meetings and I have not yet finished typing the previous minutes...

My mum is coming (again) this Friday....

And TERM TEST is coming in less than a month.....

I AM HALF DEAD NOW. HELP!

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Someone I Love...

there is someone i fell in love with.

His name is...

Jesus.

He cares for me so much that He knows how many strands of hair on my head.

And I have felt and experienced His love, when He hugs me, when He whispers to me how much He loves me, when He told me not to worry, when He asks me to be joyful.. there are a feeling that is impossible to describe. A feeling of satisfaction.

It is a stupidity not to follow His advice. It's a foolishness to just let Him go.

And now God, I know You are still there in the midst of my problems, You are just beside me when I have to make an important decision. And You will answer only if I ask.

REcently I asked God a question. "Must I explore the things that I have never been through in my entire life before?" (The details of the question is confidential)

His answer was so simple, but yet so deep.

"You have the value that is already been instilled inside you ever since you are young. You know what is right and what is wrong. Seek me, and everything will be given to you."

That's true. That's so true. Why negotiate? God is the God of certainty. Yes means yes, and no means no.

YEsterday (Friday night), I asked God another question. Okay, perhaps it wasnt a question but a request. I want $$ within 2 days. A lot sum of them. In cash. The cash will be used for something that I wont (again) let you know in details.

I have been very worried. I called up my dad and he said he cant transfer it to me because in Jakarta, banks close on the weekend. I called my brother and he said he only can give me not more than 200 and he cant give me on the weekend coz he's busy. I almost gave up. But God whispered to me this evening.

"Louisa dear, let me handle everything. Remember Jeremiah 29:11? My plans are much better than yours. Listen, one thing for sure, I will never let my kids live below prosperity. And what money within 2 days? I have my own time, child! Relax. It's not as if you have a financial problem which cause you to beg so that you can live..."

"If I say yes, I can give you more than that amount you ask me. Do you believe me? Oh well.. You know I have everything right? This universe belongs to me. I can always give what you ask me. Money? Success? A companion? I can give to you. And when I give you, I always give you the perfect one, remember? Louisa, just one key for you to get all those: Ask me, and believe."

He really does make me feel better each time i seek Him. That's why I love to be a Christian.

(And Christian here is not a religion. I dont refer Christianity as a religion. It's a treasure that you chose to take. It's a value that you chose to believe in. It's a blessing that you chose to get.)

I love my God.

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Ok alrites

I think it's time for me to update the bloggie.. it's kind of rotting down there with no people visiting. OK maybe some people actually bother, but they dont bother to tag. Nevermind. Lol.

I was too tired after school, went home in the afternoon, and just when i was about to rest for a while on my bed (just to lie down and listen to some music, playing with my phone, etc.. i did not realise that i was gradually closing my eyes, and.. fell asleep. Dots. And I fell asleep for i think 3 hours? >.< Thats Loooonngg!!!

Sigh. cant believe another day just passed.

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Her Words: I have waited for so long

Hari itu aku pergi ke pelabuhan untuk menanti seorang yang sangat berarti buatku. Aku tiba dan menunggu kedatangannya. Setiap sosok yang terlihat serasa memberiku seberkas harapan, laksana rasa dahaga yang hilang setelah menghabisi segelas besar air dingin. Namun, pengharapan itu hilang begitu kutersadar kalau ternyata mereka hanyalah manusia-manusia asing yang tak kukenal, yang berjalan lalu dari pandanganku.

Ke manakah wanita hebat itu?

Aku merindukan kedatangannya sejak sekitar 180 hari yang silam, namun ketika harapan itu terasa semakin dekat, ia malah menjauh. Jarum pendek yang biasanya lamban terasa cepat. 1 jam.. 2 jam..

Aku lelah. Tuhan yang Maha Tahu, berikanlah aku beberapa informasi. Pertemukan aku dengannya. Biarlah aku melihat wajah sukacitanya. Antrian taksi yang biasanya sepanjang kereta api Argolawu, sekarang telah berubah menjadi miniaturnya, seirinig berjalannya waktu.

Aku berdiri dengan pikiran yang dipenuhi oleh harapan-harapan kosong. Nihil. Dia tak ada di sana. Mungkinkah beliau menghilang di tengah-tengah kerumunan orang banyak? Rasanya tidak. Jarum panjang dan jarum pendek hampir bersatu. Sebentar lagi tengah malam. Ketidaknyamanan melanda perasaanku. Resah. Gelisah. Kelelahan.

Aku melangkahkan kakiku menjauhi tempat terang benderang penuh dengan suara dengungan sukacita manusia-manusia lalu. Jauh. Menjauh. Apa sih tujuan semua ini? Semuanya sirna. Harapanku hilang, menguap begitu saja dan bersatu dengan angin malam. Penantianku berakhir pada kekecewaan. Kekecewaanku melangkahkanku menuju sebuah tempat yang kurasa bisa memberiku rasa nyaman yang telah hilang.

Selamat datang di rumah.

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