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This year is the first time I don't spend time with my family to celebrate Christmas together. I decided to stay in Singapore during the term break, remembering the NMM project I need to work on, despite the fact that my mum did ask me if I want to go back. I wondered how my Christmas this year would turn up to be. It could be fun.. or disastrous.

And today is the day. It's Christmas time, the day that I have been waiting for..

"It does not seem like Christmas at all!", one of my friends in Indonesia said. Well, this is probably what was happening here to me as well. I tried very hard to tell myself that it's Christmas. I smiled, said 'merry christmas' to all the people I know who celebrate it, but deep inside my heart, it was empty. It's sad, so sad 'til I feel like crying..

Orchard Road had been very colourful with lights and christmas decorations. Christmas carols were everywhere. The road was totally packed. It was like a sea of people. I was there for the last 3 days, and got very sick of it. I went out with friends for their Christmas celebration on the 24th. They stayed up late until 6am, playing and partying (they are not believers, btw) on the surface of the busy Orchard Road. Me? Well, hello, I needed to go to church on the 25th, thus I only went halfway and went home just after the countdown... err, uh, no. I even missed the countdown~! Everyone was busy with their phones, calling their friends, etc etc and the countdown was over. T__T

The 25th itself, after the church service, I was meeting my still-the-same friends for another christmas celebration, the continuation from yesterday's. A lot of people were celebrating it. The heart of the city was extremely full with people, Christians or non-Christians. They took photographs, raced for the end of year sales and promotions, gave gifts to each other, and so on and so forth. It was kind of ironic that people seemed to have a Christmiss Christmas. They expect gifts and presents on the special day, yet they fail to see the greatest gift that has been given to them somewhere around 2000 years ago. They fail to see the real reason for the season. They admire the fat creature with a huge belly who always wears a red and white costume riding on a sleigh. I really don't understand why is Saint Nicolaus so popular. I mean, world, what had he done to save you? Does he bring salvation? Does he love you? Is he willing to die for you? It is upsetting to learn that so many people still don't know the beautiful Someone, the Prince of peace, Jesus Christ. I can give you tonnes and tonnes of comparisons between Santa Claus and Jesus Christ. Here are some of the reasons why Jesus is far much better than Santa Claus:

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1. Santa lives at the North Pole, Jesus is everywhere. He lives in heaven as well as in your heart. (1 Corinthians 6:19 "You surely know that your body is a temple where the Holy Spirit lives. The Spirit is in you and is a gift from God.")

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2. Santa rides in a sleigh, Jesus rides on the wind and walks on the water. (Matthew 14:22-33, Acts 1:6-11)

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3. Santa is only there on Christmas day, Jesus is an ever present help. (Matthew 28:20 "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.")

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4. Santa fills your stockings with goodies, Jesus supplies all your needs. (Philippians 4:19 "And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.")

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5. You have to wait in line to see Santa, Jesus is as close as the mention of His name.

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6. Santa lets you sit on his lap, Jesus lets you rest in His arms. (Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest.)

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7. Santa doesn't know your name, all he can say is "Hi little boy or girl, what's your name?", Jesus knew our name before we did. He knows our history and future and He even knows how many hairs are on our head. (Jeremiah 1:5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you.", Isaiah 43:1 "I have summoned you by name; you are mine.", Matthew 10:30 "And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.")

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8. Santa only gives gifts to good children, Jesus died for every single being, yes, sinners included. (Romans 5:8 "But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.")

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9. Santa has a belly like a bowl full of jelly, Jesus has a heart full of love. (John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.")

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10. Santa takes your food, usually milk and cookies, Jesus takes all your worries and burdens. (1 Peter 5:7 "Leave all your worries with Him, because He cares for you.")

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11. All Santa can offer is HO HO HO, Jesus offers health, help and hope. (Exodus 15:26 "I am the LORD, the one who heals you.", Psalm 121:2 "My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.", Rome 5:5 "This hope does not disappoint us, for God has poured out his love into our hearts by means of the Holy Spirit, who is God's gift to us.")

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12. Santa says "You better not cry", Jesus says "Cast all your cares on me for I care for you." (1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.")

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13. Santa's little helpers make toys, Jesus makes new life, mends wounded hearts, repairs broken homes and builds mansions. (2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature", John 14:2 "In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.")

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14. Santa may make you chuckle but Jesus gives you a joy that is your strength. (Psalm 4:7 "But the joy that You have given me is more than they will ever have with all their grain and wine.")

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15. While Santa puts gifts under your tree, Jesus became our gift and died on the tree.(the cross). (Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.", 1 Peter 2:24 "He himself bore our sins in his body on a tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed.")

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It is obvious there is really no comparison! Jesus is still the reason for the season. Yes, Jesus is better, he is even better than Santa Claus.

(Resources: The Bible KJV, The Bible NIV, The Bible TEV, The Bible NCE, http://www.new-life.net/jcbetter.htm)

So.. let us go back to our previous topic. We walked around and round and round and round.. It was supposed to be a fun day, but I did not really enthusiastic. I knew they had planned to be in Orchard until past midnight, or earlier. I told them I couldn't stay up too late. I needed to go home around 6 or so.. They looked kinda disappointed and asked me why. "Christmas is not only for myself", i told them. Well, actually, the reason was simple enough, I didn't want my Christmas to be so empty. To them, staying at home on the 25th of December means an empty Christmas. My mindset was, I hadn't had time for my beloved Saviour, I just spent my Christmas with my friends, etc etc. It's kind of unfair to Him. My 'happy birthday' was just a short one, in the bus. It was such a shame. My heart was not really focused on Him these days. Emptiness. Hollowness. Meaninglessness. Those are what I felt, even now.

Truly there should be something wrong with me. I went home, sang a few worship songs, prayed, but my tiredness won the desire of being in God's presence. I felt so bad for not spending Christmas with Him. It's His birthday, afterall, and I didn't even have time to be with Him? I said I love Him, but these were what I did on His birthday. Had fun. Met friends. Took photos. So ironic. I told Him to have a date with Him on Christmas, just simply feel the beauty of His presence, being with Him and surrounded by His love, but in the end, I ended up having a 'date' with my friends. Sooo bad. I'm terribly sorry, Jesus. :( :(

Jairus said I should not feel guilty. He is God of love. In Christ, there is no condemnation. Well, I didn't feel any better after he said that. His Christmas was quite eventful afterall, that's why he could say that. But what about me? No fams, no nothing, not even a time for Jesus.. :(

So yeah, this was pretty much what I did in my first time celebrating Christmas alone. Boring? Whatever. I thought everything would be fine. Sigh.. Somehow, I miss celebrating Christmas with my family... Mum.. Dad.. Bro.. Sis.. Cousins.. Aunts.. Uncles.. Grandmas.. Ohh. Is Polytechnic's somehow-sucky-but-we-can't-help-it academic timetable to blame? Lol... Unfortunately, no.

Anyway, I hope you all had a blessed Christmas. Selamat hari Natal*, everyone! :D


*Merry Christmas in Bahasa Indonesia

I'm so sorry to all people, especially to my non-Indonesian friends for not keeping you updated. I've been posting my blog in Indonesian lately, which may put you off. Hehe.

Things have gone pretty badly these days, with term test being held up this week, not forgetting the amount of stress I had. The past 2 weeks had been the tough ones, I should say. The screwed up interview, the unprepared me for the term test, the lack of focus me when studying as well as praying, the failures of not being able to overcome all the temptations such as not to read the story books, or not to watch any movies, to turn off the comp, to keep those blank papers free from sketchings... well, basically, there are times when I failed to overcome the lazy and procrastinating attitudes in me. My term test had been such a mess, Business Accounting paper was the worst. I hate Accounting. It has been my enemy ever since Gerald started to tutor us. Well, it's not that I don't like Gerald, err..ok, I should admit that his teaching ability is not as good as our previous tutor, whatever her name is. However, i just find the subject a hassle. Too mahfan, if I am being honest.

Last Tuesday, I was involved in the Daegu Medical College's visit to TP from Korea as one of the ushers. I don't know why they chose TP instead of other Singapore's fine institutions. Ok, TP may be a campus with an award-winning architecture, but... does TP really that rock? Lol. Well, I am so used to being an usher in the church, so this was not much of a difficult task for me. I got to know more friends, got a free t-shirt, and gained SEAL Points. Yeah.. This thing could be fun in some way, apart from the fact that it was held during the term test week, the day when I had my Business Accounting paper... And I screwed the paper up. ArrrGgHh!!

Nevermind, Louisa, calm yourself down. You can't turn back time, can you? Just let it be. Move on. Step forward. Okay?

Well well. So now, the term test has over. Econs paper was okay, even though there was a question that I FORGOT the answer!! Argh.. This was EXTREMELY irritating, and depressing as well. I STUDIED, okay? I hate it when you have memorised a thing but suddenly you fail to re-call it when it is being asked, no matter how hard you try to dig it out. My memory sucks, I can't help it. Sighhhhh... What a waste of time memorising it.. -__-"

Move on. I just learnt that my friend's mum passed away today. His MSN nick tells all. It says, "Selamat jalan Mami, Love you so much.. Yohanes 11:25-26" which means "Bon Voyage, Mum, love you so much.. John 11:25-26". Well, he isn't a close friend, but I feel so so sooo sorry for him. :( :( :( He is a good guy, very low profile and hardworking. He is not selfish and is helpful. I don't think he deserves this. I really don't. :( Why must this happen to him? I mean, he doesn't come from a very wealthy family. He has siblings to feed. Life has been tough for him. He had been keeping his faith when his mum fell sick. He always said, "in Him there is healing". But in the end, his mum still passed away. Hmm, there are certain things we don't understand about our God. His timing, His plans, His thoughts... they are mysteries. Our minds are too limited. They are just not capable to understand our BIG God. What I kept in mind is, however, that our God is forever faithful. He will keep His promise alive to those who love Him. He will not disappoint His children. Sometimes, when the tide comes, we feel that He is away and is not there for us. We are wrong, man! He is watching over us. He is moulding us. He is in the midst of making us perfect. He lets all those things happen to us so that we become better creatures. He is giving us challenges. Just keep in mind that every challenge that He gives is always within our abilities. He knows we are strong enough to bear it. He won't let things that are beyond our strengths happen to us. If such thing ever happened, however, trust me, He would be there for us.

Life is beautiful, don't you think? God didn't promise days without pains, but He promised to give us strength for the days and light for the ways.

My friend, you are strong when you are with Him. You can overcome this. You surely can. I believe that... :)

Hari ini gw tidur jem 4 pagi.. a usual for kalongs out there, tapi quite xtraordinary for some peeps. me? well, i am used to sleep at 2 or 3, but 4 is, err.. a little too late. Knapa gw bisa sampe tidur jem segitu? Simple. Gw di'bully' sama maincomms BSC. Sebelll sebelll... Gw kan masuk design committee gt kan, dan gw disuru bikin poster yang deadlinenya ari ini jam 12 malem! Amit amit.. mana ada orang yang bisa bikin poster segitu cepetnya kcuali tu orang emang super duper talented ato emang dia punya portfolio of ideas buat bikin poster? Ada juga ide pas2an.. mana baru dikasi tau jem stgh 12 malem hari sabtu, berani2nya bilang deadlinenya jem 12 malem hari minggu! Untung gw masi sejajar ma subcomms, jadi ga bisa gw apa2in tu maincomms. huhuhu.. seenaknya nyuruh2 orang. Trutama koordinator gw tuh. Dia kira gw robot apa yang ga perlu tidur? Apalagi kalo uda malem2 gt plus dikejar2 deadline. Stuck abis dah gw.. ga ada ide apa2. trus dia nyuruhnya enak aja lagi, dia kaga kasi ide apa2 gt... dia malah suru gw come out with a cool phrase that encourage students to wear red on the day of the event. Uda malem gini, ide buat disain aja ga ada, apalagi ide buat cool phrase???? Rasanya gw pengen meledak2 bak dinamit deh. Neng, besok gw mesti bangun pagi ke gereja! Lu kira elu apa hari minggu engkang2 kaki di rumah?? Huhu maap ya teman2.. gw juga bisa marah. I mean, i deserve the rest i need!! Ilang sudah impian gw to have enough rest. Bbrp minggu blakangan ini gw tuh tidurnya pagi mulu gara2 projek. Hari jumat kmaren projek gw udah gw kumpul, jadi rasanya tenang banget. Sabtu minggu gw bisa nyantai dikit sebelon tidur pagi lagi hari senen-jumat gara2 minggu ujian. Ehhh, ternyata oh ternyata.. jumat malem gw tidur pagi (jam 2an kalo ga salah), sabtu pengennya tidur ga lewat dari jem 12, namuuunnn. duhh.. takdir.. hehe.. well well, tapi beruntungnya gw,, karna saat itu....

ada Jairus!!.. Who? Dia lagi!! Huwehe.. Iya nehh.. bused.. emang pertolongan pertama deh dia! Cool phrase mah pasti urusan dia deh buat mikir2 ginian.. dan emang keren juga, dia kasi gw phrase yang emang kool.. ga salah de punya temen yang inggrisnya super dahsyat kayak dia.. kalo soal bahasa mah lempar aja ke dia. Lol. Dia ada bantu mikir2 buat disainnya sih, tapi yahh.. ga kepake. Abisnya ide dia tuh uda gw pake pas poster gw sebelonnya. Trus Jai suru gw minta tolong Tuhan kasi ide, and i did. Ujung2nya emang jadi seh, jem 4 pagi jadinya.. rada2 aneh juga sih poster gw.. abisnyaa, mana bisa gw mikir dalam waktu sesingkat itu?? huhuhu. MEreka harus maklum, siapa suruh kasi deadline segitu 'impossible'nya. Mgkn Tuhan juga setengah hati nolongin gw saat itu, abis gw kerjain tu poster sambil ogah2an seh.. rasanya pengen gw tinggal tidur aja.. mata gw uda berselaput 12 lapis.. mulut gw uda menguap sekitar lebih kurang 100x1 kali. Huhuh.. makanya poster gw jadi ancur gini..

Nih, gw kasi liat yah gimana jadinya.. hehehe.. JANGAN KETAWA, apalagi SIRIKAN!

Dah liat? Huhuhu... norak banget kan kan kan? Yahhh.. beginilah kalo dikejar2 deadline.. hoahhmm..

Ok, ganti topik! Omong2.. gw kangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnnn banget ma melissa. Uda hampir seminggu ga ketemu. GW lagi bener2 butuh temen buat dukung gw nehh.. interview.. huhuhu.. NMM assignment.. tuh kan.. kalo disebutin 1-1 ga bakalan kelar.. dan gw ga bakalan tidur malem (malem karna gw ga mao tidur pagi lagi). Gw pengen ngobrol nih melissaaaa.. Peeps, dun get me wrong.. Gw ma melissa itu TEMEN aja koq, jangan mikir yang aneh2!! Huwehehe.. tapi uda kayak pacaran aja yah tiap hari kudu ngobrol..loll.. tenang, tenang, kami2 masih NORMAL dan sangat sangat normal. Kami mencintai pria dan hanya pria. Huwahaha.. Melissa dan gw hanya temen yang ga terpisahkan.. well, kadang2 kita perlu seseorang yang bisa ngertiin elo, temen seiman yang punya prinsip yang sama kayak elo, yang berdiri di atas batu yang sama kayak elo, yang memuja pribadi yang sama kayak elo, yang tertarik sama sesuatu yang sama kayak elo, yang obrolannya bisa nyambung, yang bahasanya sama (our beloved bahasa.. Maap ya Jai, elo kalah kalo di bidang ini.. lol!). Buuuuuuuuuu gw kangen beraaaaaaaattttt!!!!

Ehh.. ada e-mail.. hehe.. tunggu ya.. be right back. :P






WHATT!!?? Frens! Guess what the e-mail says??? THE DEADLINE FOR THE POSTER HAS BEEN EXTENDED TO TUESDAY MIDNIGHT!!!!!!! Ini sih ngga lucu!! Bener2 ga lucu! Gpp deh.. afterall, everything has done. You are not God yang bs ngebalikin waktu. Tapi boleh gak gw ngomong sebuah kalimat ke koordinator gw? Boleh kan? kan? Ok boleh. Hehe *tanya sendiri, jawab sendiri*

"BISA GA SEH KALO KERJA ATO AMBIL DECISION TUH GA DADAKAN2 GINI??"

Huhuhu maap yah, gw ga teriak koq.. gw cuma pake caps aja.. ~_~ hehehe.. Abisnyaaa,, nyiksa tau! Huhuhu. Duhh, omong2 koq gw tuh suka ga jaga kata2 yah? Katanya anak Tuhann, koq emosinya meledak2 gini? Koq ga bisa nguasain diri? Koq ga bisa ngalahin keinginan daging? Anak Tuhan boleh marah, tapi hendaknya jangan sampe keluar kata2 yang nggak mengandung berkat,, kan gitu kata alkitab??

Mmm.. this week has been a very busy week. Gw harus bikin proposal buat Networked Multimedia Project, ato singkatnya, NMM. Gw uda stress abis, sampe skip freehand drawing lecture, plus masalah yang ga kelar2 dari awal mpe akhir..

ga cuma itu aja.. sebenernya masi ada NMM tutorial yang suru gw comment on a very bad website layout.. trus kritik dan disain how the webby supposed to be like. yg ini tuh kerja klompok, klompok gw dipilihin ma gurunya, 3 orang per grup, dan, kurang beruntungnya gw, gw 1 klompok ma orang2 yang kurang gt bertanggung jawab.. well, bukannya gimana yah, tapi gw ngomongin fakta neh, hampir semua dari criticising the website sampe sketching, itu tuh gw yang kerjain.. ngga banget kan? mending kalo gw ga ada kerjaan.. kenyataannya tuh kerjaan gw masi numpuk.. blon lagi gw kena shortlisted buat interview.. gilingan gw nervous abis... temen2 1 klompok gw tuh ga kena.. yang kena cuma gw. dan mereka expect gw buat kelarin tugas itu sendirian. gw ga mgkn pass ke mereka karna kmaren gw cuma sisain sketching to be done. dan.. yang bisa sketching cuma gw! huhuhu.. ogah banget dhee.. knapaaa..

ok ok.. mengenai interviu.. tadinya gw tuh super nervous soal gini2an.. gw uda bikin resume yang ga gitu bagus (mnurut gw), tapi ternyata anak2 pada bikin resume yang lebih ga bagus lagi.. parah d.. trus gw apply jadi system analyst, mana gw ga tau lagi system analyst tu kerjaannya ngapain aja.. untung ada ko Gusti yang kasi tau ini itu.. thanks Ko.. Koko emang the best! hehehe.. trus ya nervousnya tetep ada lah.. gimana nggak, 2 interviewers and 4 observers, gw ke skul mesti pake baju formal and make up.. oh nooo.. mana gw tuh kadang suka gagap kalo nervous.. otak ga bisa mikir dll dll.. untuuunng ada jairus.. dia kasi tips2 gt deh gimana ntar pas interview, trus dia ngubah cara pandang gw yang ngeliat interview sbg siksaan jadi positif.. training field for the REAL JOB INterVieW! Dia bilang, nilai masi gpp, bisa back up dari yang laen.. tapi kalo job, jangan harap ada backupnya.. Aneh ya.. ga tau knapa, dia tu slalu kasi pertolongan pertama dalam situasi2 mengerikan gw.. huhu.. tu anak koq baik banget yah? i mean, koq ada orang sebaik itu di dunia yang uda jahanam gini? wakakaka.. apa coba. yah, itulah anak Tuhan. anak Tuhan pasti beda.

Hari ini gw sms melissa.. gila kangen banget non!! gw perlu elu buat ngedisain poster colourday! Loh? wakakaka.. gw kmaren bikin poster buat colourday (acara di business school), dan gw perlu kekreatifitasan dia buat kasi komentarrr.. dari dulu disainnya melissa selalu keren.. ilmu photoshopnya juga keren.. huhu buuu lo koq keren abis seh?? kyknya gw perlu secara sukarela menghibahkan talenta gambar gw ke elo deh, biar lu komplit.. huhuhu.. koq Tuhan kasi gw talenta gambar namun ga kasi kreatifitas? koq Tuhan kasi melissa talenta kreatifitas tapi dia ga bisa gambar?? aneh.. well.. banyak pertanyaan2 aneh di benak gw, tapi i guess itulah yang bikin Tuhan jadi lebih Akbar. dengan keterbatasan kita terhadap segala sesuatu, itu yang justru bikin kita makin kagum sama Dia yang ga punya batas!

Oh iya, gw lagi2 jatoh ke lobang yang sama. gw jatoh ke lobang rutinitas. gw ga gitu pengen ktemu Tuhan, yah.. standard problem. Halahh.. kadang gw pengen balik, tapi gw ngeliat dunia koq enak banget ya.. kayak, ermm.. all my friends always say "WTF!" as in, without the abbreviation dengan entengnya. Gw? ga mgkn donk gw bilang gt.. ga mencerminkan anak Tuhan banget. Kadang2 gw cape juga carrying the logo "anak Tuhan". Rasanya pengen aja ikut2an temen2 gw ngegossip, ngomongin orang, ngomong kata2 yang 'standar' bagi temen2 gw kayak "sh*t, damnit, a*s, wtf, f" dll dll dsb. tapi setelah gw pikir2.. gw tuh seharusnya bersyukur gw bisa bawa2 logo "anak Tuhan" gt. soalnya trademark itulah yang bikin gw punya pengharapan saat gw dalam kesusahan. Temen2 gw kalo lagi stress bikin project, mereka keluarin kata2 gitu2an dari mulut mereka. Kayak tadi aja, pas pengumuman shortlisted candidates keluar, langsung deh kutukan, makian, gerutu keluar dari mulut temen2 gw. Kedagingan gw jg pengen sih. Hehe.. Cape juga kali jadi anak Tuhan terus.. kapan gw ngerasain kenikmatan dunia? Tapi soon gw mikir, coba kalo gw ga punya Tuhan yang hebat, saat interview nanti gw akan struggle sendirian. Oh noooo.. can u imagine? Gw sih ga bisa.. soalnya gw tau, gw did well pas oral presentation itu karna Tuhan, gw excell in my subjects itu karna Dia. Kalo gw ga melibatkan Tuhan dalam segala perkara, gw yakin hasilnya ga akan gini. Lagipula Ci Siska perna bilang, segala sesuatu yang terjadi pasti ada alasannya. Gw tau interview ini pasti akan benefit gw in the future.

Oh iya, besok si maya audisi noh.. Audisi nyanyi.. moga2 dia diterima deh.. hehehe.. biar bisa dipake Tuhan.. All the best ya mayaaa! Jia youuu!!

Aih blog gw kali ini bener2 ga mutu.. tapi untung deh ada blog. Soalnya si melissa ga online sih.. internetnya dimatiin gt.. jadi gw ga punya temen curhat.. oh ada si LEo! hehe.. uda curhat ke leo tapi masi kurang, masi pengen keluarin uneg2.. lol. tadi gw di kampus da keluarin uneg2 ke jing yi soal anggota kelompok gw yang ga tanggung jawab itu seh. aduh.. temen bae gw yang 1 itu.. wakaka.. ga nyangka tadi gw ngobrol ma dia 1 stgh jam-an.. just to plain sit and talk! biasanya ga perna lo.. biasanya ngobrol sambil makan, sambil kerjain pr, sambil maen komputer, dll. yah.. kadang perlu lah ngobrol2 gini.. kata si leo, membangun hubungan antar sesama manusia.. lol..

sebenernya masi banyak yang pengen gw omongin..tapi segini aja deh.. yang itu sebaiknya i keep it to myself aja..soalnya concerning somebody gt meski sebenernya gpp seh soalnya dia ga ngerti indo jugak.. wakaka.. tp gpp lah.. ga usah aja.

C u around n bubbye friends.. God bless ya!

ps. kapan2 gw ganti layout blog gw deh.. tapi kapan2 loo.. "kapan" nya gw ga janji.. hehe.. i am planning to do the design myself, namun, sekali lagi, "kapan2". Lol.

Today's supposed to be a holiday. Well, every Wednesday is. My timetable has only 1 subject for Wed, which is Communication Skills 2, and CS2 on Wed is online learning! Woohoo! There isn't any need to come to campus on Wednesday, yea? But today, there was a group meeting for CS2. We planned to have it at 12 noon, coz Yih Long had his Law lecture that ends at 11. However, I came at 11:30 coz I was meeting Su Ling and Jing Yi first for lunch.

Arrived at campus, only to find Jing Yi with her unusual facial expression. She looked like as if she had just cried--all red, no smile, no laughter. I asked, "has Su Ling arrived?" She shaked her head. "She said she just woke up and she's not coming." ... Her voice was all trembled. I think she was somewhere in between furiousness and disappointment. Silence occurred for a while, until she read her latest sms, and showed me her handphone screen. I scanned through the sms which read something like, "Yih Long said change to another day." .. So this is it! We came to campus for nothing! Yih Long, the chairman, said that the meeting is moved to other day.

Jing Yi was furious. We had lunch though, however, this time, we were quieter than usual. Our conversation was mostly dominated with silence. Well, I did laugh and try to maintain the situation as comfortable as possible.

JY: You are not angry with them arh?
LZ: Why?
JY: Because they make us come for nothing!

I could not answer her. Why must I angry? Su Ling apologised and that's the end. Even though no apology came from Yih Long, that is understandable as he does not have our numbers. Just make sure that none of this would happen again in future. Call me too generous, but i really did not see a need for being angry. Perhaps they were kind of terrible for making us come to school for nothing but to have lunch, which obviously wastes our time, energy, as well as money, but being angry to your own friend who had apologised so sincerely is a little too unfair. You know you have wasted your energy in coming all the way to Tampines, why waste another energy in being furious?

I could be angry, but I chose not to. I learnt this value a few days ago from Paul in the Bible. He had a lottt of problems and troubles, and i mean it when i say a lot. What is more terrible than finding yourself being chased after by many people who were aiming to end your life? I mean, imagine to have yourself becoming the 'talk of the town', as in, your pictures are posted on the walls in every corner of the city with big, huge "WANTED!" above your head. His problems were far beyond what we are facing, but he chose to be calm and keep on praising God, his Creator. Being joyful is an action that is first started from wanting. It does not come to you just like that. You want it, you reach for it. How? Control your minds, change your way of thinking, try to view things from different perspectives. I can only think of 1 purpose on being angry: it is to let others know that we are upset. Su Ling knew we were upset; she promised to treat us lunch tomorrow. Thus, the purpose was fulfilled, no additional anger was required.

So, Jing Yi, if you are reading this, YES, you CAN choose not to be angry..
:):) smileeee... 'coz positive thinkers are winners.

Lama2 gw jadi ngerasain nikmatnya blogging dlm bhs indo nih.. hehehe.. Maklum deh.. gw bisa lebih dramatis kalo pake indoo.. Ca elahh, dramatis bow! Wekekekeke...

Maap ya temen2 yang ga bisa bhs indo (hehe gw tulis ini juga ga guna yak.. :P)

Tadi gw chatting ma Tutud... dia crita temen2 grejanya banyak yg ngalamin kebangkitan gt... Ada yg dpt penglihatan, mimpi, dll... Wuihh.. gw jugak tuh 2 hari yg lalu... apa mgkn ini minggu kebangkitan yah??

Gw percaya bentar lagi kekasih gw bakal dateng.. gw siap gak ya? Huhuhu... Ga tau ni mo ngomong apaan... gw pengen ngomongin Tuhan tapi males ngetiknya.. huwehehe.. Maklum lah lagi jatuh hati nih ma Tuhan.. hehehe... Terus terang gw ga bakal bisa idup tanpaNya.. :D:D

Uda ahh.. lagi makan kwaci bunga matahari... huhuhu... Gw tuh ngemil mulu yakk >.< Tadi bbrp temen di gereja bilang gw tambah makmur aja... Duhh.. Lama di Indo siihh! Di Indo tuh ya, ga peduli jem 9 keq, jem 10 keq, tetep aja keluar cari makanan.. Bis makanannya enak sihh.. huhuhu... Blame it on Indo!! Hahaha.. Di Jkt tuh ya, ke mana2 pake mobil... Trus berhubung gw jarang2 ke jkt gt, tiap kali tante gw yg demen bikin kue enak2, selalu bikinin kue gt kalo gw balik.. huhu.. makin ndut aja gw... T__T Pengen kurussss!! Hahaha... Moga2 di Sg bisa nurunin berat badan, paling nggak ke berat badan semula... huwahaha... Yah.. lumayan juga si tiap hari kuliah, bolak balik rumah-bus stop-kampus. Hehehe.. Trus tinggal di apartment.. gw usahain ga ambil lift d di 5 tingkat pertama... Hehe.. Yah gradually lahh... masa tau2 mpe lantai 15??

Iya nih.. masalahnya, di Sg tuh ga ada siapa2... Jadi kalo di kamar sendirian, gw suka ngemil.. huhuhu.. nih contohnya sekarang... Makanin biji bunga matahari... huwaaa... Gpp deh... ndut2 tp gw tetep anak Tuhan.. Hehehe... Gw tetep berharga di mataNya. Amenn? Hehehe... Tp tetep, kalo bisa nerapin pola hidup sehat, kenapa nggak? Ya nggak? Aduuhh.. tapi pencobaan ni berat bener yakk... Stop Ngemil!!! Aduhh, siapa sih yg ciptain cemilannn???? T____T

Friends, i'm sorry that it takes me ages just to update this blog. I've got a very cool story to share, however, due to the lack of my English, I am going to share this in Indonesian. You can ask your Indonesian friends to translate for you :P

Kmaren ini gw libur panjang. Gw tau api gw bakal redup di Indo, tapi sayang, gw gak ngejaga api itu. Dan benar, api gw redup, bahkan, should I say, padam.
Sesampainya di Singapur, gw ngejalanin hari2 gw sebagaimananya gw. Chatting, main2, shopping, nyantai, pokoknya gw abisin 1 minggu sisa liburan gw sebelon mulai semester baru. Gw uda jauh dari Tuhan, jauuuuuhh banget.

Hari minggu gw ikut FA dan Youth. Di FA gw tuh masi sempet2nya sharing bahan khotbah di Indo, padahal hati gw tuh uda kosong, hampa. Gw gak ngerasain apa2. Mungkin gw saat teduh, mungkin gw doa, mungkin gw baca Alkitab, tapi itu semua gw lakukan semata-mata karna gw takut. Kenapa? Soalnya gw takut kalau-kalau 1 menit lagi Tuhan datang, trus gw lupa doa, gw gak keangkat donkk... Bukan cuman itu aja, gw juga takut Tuhan marah kalo gw gak doa, gw takut Tuhan gak bakal pimpin jalan gw (soalnya banyak temen2 gw kesaksian, hari mereka gagal cuma karna mereka lupa doa). Tapi apa yang gw rasain selama gw doa? NOTHing. Gak ada. Kosong. Zero. Tuhan sama sekali gak jadi fokus utama doa gw. Gw doa, gw minta ampun karna udah menomorsekiankan Tuhan, tapi hati gw gak bener2 minta ampun. Gw minta ampun gak sepenuh hati. Gw tau, the next few days, gw pasti gak akan berjaga-jaga lagi. Jadi singkatnya, selama ini, gw tuh cuman MENIPU diri gw sendiri. "Aku kan uda doa loh Tuhan..", padahal dalam hati gw juga uda tau kalo yang berdoa itu cuman fisik gw. Roh gw sama sekali gak berdoa, bahkan Roh gw uda gak tau ada di mana. Mgkn uda terperosok ke jurang yang paling dalam. Ato mungkin uda mati karna gak dikasih makanan rohani. Ato karna gak nafas.

Well well.. Gw baru ngejalanin minggu pertama dari semester 2. Awalnya gw ngerasa semua akan berjalan lancar. Bahkan gw terlalu berambisi kalo gw bakal bagusin nilai gw. Gw targetin buat dapetin A di beberapa subyek. Gw bertekad buat nunjukkin ke orang2, kalo gw ini gak dilahirkan bego. Nilai gw di semester 1 gak jelek2 amat, tapi gw mau lebih. Jadilah di semester 2 ini gw semangat banget. Tapi sayang, gw gak mulai semester ini bersama-sama Tuhan. Hasilnya? Baru juga 1 minggu, gw uda dapet kesulitan. Gw gak ngerti Akuntansi sama sekali, gw punya banyak niat (ngulang bahan kuliah ini dan itu), tapi cuma sebates niat. Trus tadi gw ada briefing buat proyek Networked Multimedia (web design), dan harus pilih 1 topik buat major project. Asli guys, topiknya itu tuh boleh dibilang.. err.. gawat2. Berat. Gw ga tau mesti milih yang mana. Itu masih mending, gw masih punya yang lebih parah lagi. Di semester ini, gw ambil modul yang menurut gw bakalan menarik, yaitu Freehand Drawing dari Fakultas Disain (btw, gw dari Fak Bisnis). Berhubung dulu gw pengen banget masuk disain tapi gak kesampaian, dan gw seneng gambar, ya udah gw ambil aja modul itu. Tapi gambar2 gw tuh tipenya naturalis. Banyak orang bilang gambar gw bagus, dan gw menikmati setiap kali orang bilang gambar gw bagus. Jadi gw ambil deh modul itu. Itung2 buat refreshing setelah belajarin Akun, Statistika, Ekonomi, dll.

Nah, apa yang terjadi? Ternyata Freehand Drawing itu gak semulus yang gw kira. Itu emang modulnya Fakultas Disain, tapi ternyata itu tuh jurusan Product and Industrial Design (PID). Semua sample2 yang ditunjukin gurunya itu tentang technical drawing. Jadi kita mesti gambar konstruksi dll. Bukan cuma itu, gambaran2 yang dimaksud dosen gw itu tuh cuman outline2 gt. Gak ada tuh arsir2, rendering, bayangan, dll. Yang ada cuman garis2 dan detil. Amit2. Gw paling benci technical drawing. Gw dulu belajar perspektif, tapi gw akuin, gw sampe terbosen2 belajarin gituan. Ini bukan cuman perspektif. Ini gambar teknik beneran. Jadi mo gambar palu aja nih, mesti gambar kerangkanya dulu. Aduh.. bukan gw bangettt..

So gw ada PR gambar nih ceritanya. Dan gw gak bisa. Gimana mo bisa? Orang dosennya pas gambar aja uda kebanyakan garis2 dan lingkaran2. Susah ngikutinnya. Pusing. Ga ngerti. Gw mulai mikir buat cari bala bantuan. PID kan jurusannya si Christina, mgkn gw bisa ke rumah dia dan pinjem buku gambarnya.. Eh tapi mana mgkn? Dia kan juga perlu. Trus gw pengen telpon nyokap, pengen curhat tentang pelajaran mengerikan ini. Tapi gak jadi2 mulu. Gw sebel, gw marah, gw kecewa. Koq pelajarannya kayak gini sih? Apa-apaan nih? Gw ambil modul ini kan tujuannya pengen refreshing, kalo gini mah namanya nambah2in beban!! Gw curhat ma Melissa, dia bilang "jangan jadi down ya Sa.. Jia You!". Eehh.. iya nih.. kayak gini mah mesti extra jia you! >.< Gw curhat ma Leo, Leo bilang "itu sih siksaan!" Hehe.. Gw sedikit terhibur karna Leo 'ngerti' kondisi gw. Yep, it's a real torture.

Pas lagi marah2nya & pas kata2 kutuk lagi keluar dari mulut gw (akhir2 ini gw susaaaahhh bgt bersyukur. Gak ada tuh kata2 berkat.. huhuhu.. Sedihnyaa.) Maap ya temen2, gw gak mo jadi muna, gw cerita apa adanya. Gw uda ga bisa kontrol emosi gw. Gw bener2 marah dan pengen nangis. Trus... tiba2 Hernando message gw di MSN. Udah lama kita gak ngobrol, namun kali ini dia msg gw.

"Hai, apa kabar?"

Standar banget. Biasa. Gw gak bisa bilang "baik", apalagi "luar biasa". Yahh.. ok lahh.. Trus gw tanya.. gimana kabar dia. Dia bilang, "nilai jelek, tapi gw makin deket sama Tuhan". Ahh.. tipikal Nando. Trus dia tanya.. "gimana pertumbuhan lu? Kehidupan doa lu?" Gw diem bentar sih, tapi akhirnya gw crita ma dia, gimana jauhnya gw dari Tuhan, apa yang gw rasain kalo gw lagi doa, apa motivasi gw pas berdoa, gimana gw terlalu sibuk sampe2 gak ada waktu buat Dia, gimana kedagingan gw selalu menang kalo berantem sama keinginan roh, dll dll. Dia cerita juga pengalaman dia, gw kasih tau dia apa yang gw alamin, kehidupan rohani gw yang udah ilang...

Sampe akhirnya dia bilang "Lu masih percaya Tuhan itu ada? Lu masih menghargai pengorbananNya ga? Nih ya, coba bayangin, lu bisa segalanya. Trus lu buat sebuah dunia dan lu punya harapan kalo dunia itu baik. Namun karna kejahatan orang2 yang lu buat, akhirnya lu ga bisa berhubungan sama orang2 di dunia buatan elo. Apa lu mau segitu rendah hatinya buat ngebatesin dirilu dan dateng ke dunia BUATANlu cuma buat mati? Lu kan bisa setiap saat bikin lagi yang baru."

Iya juga sih.. kalo dipikir2, anugrah itu gak masuk akal.. Apa sih istimewanya gw sampe2 Tuhan rela ngebalikin hubungan komunikasi gw dgn Dia yang udah putus utk disambung lagi pake nyawa?? Dan pembayarannya itu ga gampang, Yesus DISIKSA! Dikhianati sama salah 1 muridnya, ditampar, digebukin mpe bonyok, diludahin, dicambuk 39 kali pake cambuk berkait, yang kalo kena bisa langsung ngerobek2 kulit. Yesus disuruh pikul salib sampe Bukit Golgota. Salib itu berat loh.. Gak sedikit Tuhan Yesus jatoh pas mikul salib. Dan bayangin, tubuh yang uda dicambuk, kulit yang udah robek sampe tinggal daging, bahkan mungkin tulang, mesti kegesek2 sama salib yang kasar, jatoh, kena pasir2 dan tanah2 kotor (aihh,, periihh, perihh!). Sampe bukit golgota masih harus digantung. Gantungnya bukan pake tali, tapi pake PAKU! Tangannya dipaku passsss di pembuluh darahNya, kakinya juga dipaku. Pakunya itu segede2 gajah lohh.. Trus ditambah lagi mahkota duri.. Aiihh... sakitt!! Belon lagi olok2 yang harus diterima, anggur asam yang ditumpahin ke tubuh penuh darahnya (perih banget pasti), dll dsb yang ditanggung Tuhan Yesus selama tergantung di kayu salib selama 6 jam. Dan, tau gak semua itu buat siapa? BUAT LOUISA!! Buat KITA! Buat kamu dan saya! Dan karna karya terbesar itulah gw yang tadinya gak bisa apa2 jadi punya kuasa. Gw yang tadinya miskin jadi kaya. Gw yang tadinya lemah jadi kuat. Gw yang tadinya sakit jadi sembuh. Gw yang tadinya terkutuk jadi bebas. Gw yang tadinya MATI jadi HIDUP.

Gw bilang sama Nando, selama ini kalo gw doa minta bantuan, gw takut doa gw 'ditepis'. Gw takut Tuhan gak mo denger karna uda bosen sama gw. Nando bilang, mungkin gw rindu balik ke pelukan Bapa, tapi Bapa terlebih rindu lagi. Tiap saat Tuhan nanti2in gw dateng ke hadiratNya, ngobrol sama Dia. Dia rindu denger suara gw. Dia rindu gw cerita hari2 gw sama Dia. Dia rindu jadi sahabat gw. Percaya gak sih, gw tertegur. Di samping gw ada kertas gambar yang penuh corat-coretan. Gw jadi inget 1 hal. Kepada siapa gw minta tolong saat gw depresi dan memerlukan bala bantuan?? Semester ini gw sama sekali gak ngandelin Tuhan. Dan, sungguh gw gak habis pikir, koq bisa2nya gw lupain DIa?? Serius loh, gw lupa TOTAL sama penolong sejati gw. Inget gak pas gw sibuk cari2 org yg kira2 bisa bantu gw? Apakah gw minta tolong sama Dia?? NGGAK! Kenapa? Karna gw lupa! Karna gw terlalu sibuk sama diri gw sendiri. Karna gw pikir gw bisa!! Gw sampe tertegur banget, dan gw nangis. Koq bisa2nyaa?? Jahat banget gw! Tuhan bisa aja komplen ma gw kayak, "Ini nggak adil! Aku berkorban mpe relain segala2nya buat kamu, masa kamu gak pernah mau berkorban waktu kamu barang 15 menit? Boro2 berkorban. INGET aja kaga!". Tuhan bisa aja ngadain aksi unjuk rasa. Mogok kasih matahari pagi. Mogok kasih penglihatan sempurna buat gw. Mogok kasih Oksigen selama 5 menit. Mogok ngatur jantung gw buat berdetak. Tapi apa yang Tuhan lakukan? Tuhan gak pernah mogok! Tuhan dengan setianya nunggu gw supaya balik sama Dia. Nando bilang, gw mesti matiin komputer sekarang dan duduk diam di kaki Tuhan. Ikutin kata hatilu, coba lakukan penyembahan. Dia mo bantuin berdoa.. Dan gw gak sanggup buat gak ngikutin saran dia...

Tuhan bisa pake siapapun buat tegur kita. Mungkin saat ini gw ditegur sama temen sebaya gw, mgkn minggu depan gw ditegur sama.. tukang siomay? Siapapun bisa Tuhan pakai. Saat ini, gw cuma gak bisa berhenti buat mengucap syukur, atas mahakarya terindah yang udah terjadi 2000 taun yang silam, dan atas malaikat yang udah Tuhan kirim buat negur gw hari ini. Thanks, Father! :)

It's been a long time since the last time I update my blog.. I am currently in Jakarta, so I do not really have much time updating blogs and all that.. Ehehe..

Indonesia is getting crazier and crazier. I believe all of you have been informed that a bomb exploded in our beloved Bali. The victims were mostly Australians and Japanese, which means, DO NOT expect any donations from these 2 countries!! I think God is going to change Bali. Bali used to be known as "The Island of Goddess" or in Indonesian, "Pulau Dewata". There are lots and lots of idols down there. My friend said, "I want my Bali back!". Me? Well, somehow, I don't. Ok. Bali has been a HUGE asset to the country, its beautiful beaches and unique cultures drew tourists from other countries, which means $$ (read: income) for Indonesia. But I believe all things that happen to us (or our countries, be it Indonesia or Singapore or anything) are noted in our God's perfect masterplan. The Bible tells us that God's plan draws us to a promising future (Isaiah 29:11). If Bali is back to its state initially, we won't get the chance to have the REAL paradise, where God Jesus Christ is lifted high (how cool!!), where Bali is no longer "The Island of Goddess" but "The Island of God". Amen.

Not long after the blast, the oil price rose. The inflation rate is 100%. Crazy? Kinda. My parents used to buy petrol for Rp 2,200,- per litre, now, guess what? It's Rp 4,500,- per litre. Imagine the impact--all the prices nation-wide rise! From the public transport fares to the price of an apple. Hehe.. Why apple? Nothing.. I just stated what came into my mind... Lol. So, now, you must be really really smart and efficient in planning ahead your journey. It is better to go to multiple places in 1 journey in order to save your energy, as well as your petrol. Lols. And.. OH DEAR . . . things are getting soooooooooooooo EXPENSIVE!! Please SAVE for heaven's sake!!

Talking about saving, i just talked about consumerism with Melissa. Youngsters nowadays are in a habit of spending, don't u think? Let's see. New handphone models are out, people are competing in order to get the latest gadgets as soon as possible, so they can be the first to have it before their friends do. Another example. Most students are equipped with a PC at home by their dads, but tell u what. They want a laptop! Ask them 'why laptop?', and they will give you tonnes of reasons. It is portable. It has more features. It is cool, and a lot more! So what if it's portable? Does that mean that you will bring your laptop all the way? Oh, so you can use it while you are doing a -sorry- big business on the toilet bowl. Aha! An extremely good reason! -.-" Basically, they want the latest gadgets so that they can show off to their friends. I mean, don't you feel proud if you own that cool, expensive, latest iPod? Tell me I'm wrong, I'm glad if I am!

Today's post is gonna be boring. It's about 3pm when Wasis called me to join him to the cinema to watch "One More Chance". I agreed since I had nothing better to do and I felt that staying at home really stoned me. I guess I have had enough of staying in front of the computer playing games and doing all the boring stuff such as checking mails or browsing. It was kind of puzzling though, as One More Chance was a local movie. I didn't know that Wasis actually put any interests in catching local productions.

Later on, I finally found out that I was the only girl around >.<. I used to hate this kind of situation though. I thought it was funny and uncomfortable for you, as the ONLY girl, being among 5 guys. But somehow, I felt quite alright. Hehe.

The movie was kinda hilarious, but not THAT hilarious. Lol. It's about the lives of 3 men in Changi Prison, and the lives after they were released from the jail as ex-convicts. The movie is meant to support the yellow ribbon project, a project created by the Singapore government (if i'm not mistaken), to give another chance for ex-convicts and accept them in our unforgiving society. However, to me, the ending of the story sucks! It really did spoil the entire thing.

There was a heavy rain after the movie, which 'jailed' us inside the Cineleisure building. We headed to Es Teler 77 to have some dessert, and planned to meet Esther and Kribo after that in Takashimaya. Meeting them, we chit chatted for some time in delifrance (note: the topic of the conversation was about homosexual. . . lol). After realising that time flew very fast, we decided to move our butts off to somewhere and do things that are much more interesting than just talking. As it was kinda late, we decided to play pool. I noticed that Yusrin masters pool very well, hmmm, does he play everyday? *wondering*

No. He does not. Hehe.
How do I know?
Well, simple, dudes and babes.


I..

ask..

him.


Chey.
Gosh, I dunno what else to write lah.. Haiyah.. Nothing to reflect about lor.. Sigh.

Xplore Singapore, Palm Terrace, The Legends, Fort Canning Park. Haha.. yeah. I got to know this event yesterday from my friend, Jenny. She was forming a team of 6 and she quickly sms-ed me to join the team. I was kinda lazy at 1st, remembering it was about a game, hence it must be a race! Furthermore, involving things such as exploring Singapore, i could imagine the exhaustion of panting around Singapore, running like crazy all over the island just for the sake of winning. And the terrible part is, after you spend so much of your energy, nobody can guarantee you of winning the race.

Walking towards the 27-storey building where I lived in, my other friend sms-ed. "Are you informed about the game tomorrow? Do you want to participate? I don't mind joining, as long as there are friends around.." Well, i also were kinda tempted, to be honest, as i have never joined such events! So, yeah, joining the team was my final decision.

So instead of a team of 6, we formed a team of 7: Jenny, Sylvia, Cuppi, Frida, Dodi, Wasis, and I. Because we couldn't go in a team of 7, therefore we seperated. Dodi and Wasis joined another group, while the 5 of us girls formed another group. Actually, some unpleasant things happened during the game, but I am just too lazy to write it all down here. It's about the irresponsible marshalls who left the required stations, causing all of us to wait for them for about more than half an hour in the station! And to top it all off, it was not only 1 station that had no marshalls, but 2, plus the gundu gate master in Jurong East MRT Station who had no idea that we were actually allowed to pass the gate without our EZ Link cards. He spent minutes calling the manager to ask about whether we were really permitted to pass the gate without paying, and so on and so forth. In the end, Wasis' group got the 3rd prize. Mine? Well, I guess it is obvious that we didn't win any prizes, we only brought home our goodie bags, t-shirts, $35 off gift voucher from Tony&Guy, and some small tokens. But it was fun though, and I was quite thankful that we didn't go home with empty hands. (:

No. No B. Sigh. This last two days had been such a mess. First, IISO exam. I studied the whole night but ended up doing a foolish thing of not carrying out the instructions given. Instead of choosing to do 3 questions, I did all 4! My goodness! I don't know how will the examiner(s) mark my paper, hopefully they will be merciful enough to mark all the 4 answers and choose the best 3. Sigh. However, I still thank Him anyway.

Day 2 is Business Accounting 1 paper. I have studied, yes, everyone knows it. But guess what? In the day itself, i forgot to bring my calculator!! Heaven and Earth know that calculators are very much needed in Accounting. Had no choice, I did mental calculation which slowed me down. Apart from that, there were MCQs and we were supposed to shade the OMR sheet. I again didn't have a 2b pencil with me, but luckily I took the correct mechanic pencil (I have 2 mechanic pencils, 1 with HB lead and 1 with 2b lead, and I took the 2b lead with me, phew~). The questions were enough to make my brain burst. I couldn't finish my paper (which was obvious, I had no calculator!) but well, I thank Him, anyway.

Tomorrow is Macroeconomics paper. It is not meant to be difficult. I have never felt that Econs paper is gonna be difficult. Everyone can easily Ace it if they study. The problem is: I have no mood to study!! OMG! Suddenly I had a very severe homesick, which caused my mind to keep on thinking about this 4-letter word: H-O-M-E! Oh no! It is such a waste to get a B in Econs!! Where is my mood to study? What on Earth is wrong with me??

Speaking of missing, I miss Jesus Christ. Yes, I prayed every single moment, but where is He? He seems so far away, I cannot feel His presence anymore. I miss Him. I miss the embrace of His hands, the hugs and the love. I want to have a deep kind of relationship, like Abraham's and Moses'. I want to have a victorious life with Him. But where is He? The last 2 days of exam were ended up screwed. Accounting was the worst. I didn't think it was difficult, but yet I have no confidence in getting an A. It is as if I have forgot Him when I did the paper. NO! I shouted for His help, I knew He would be there to help me out, I knew He was there. I wanted to be more than others. Hey, I am the head and not the tail! That is what the Bible says. I had done what God has taught me that I should not lean on my own understanding, instead I should trust in the Lord and acknowledge Him in all of my ways, and He will make my path straight. I have done the "ora et labora" thing, I believe I have done my part! But where is God? Where are you, God?

Just when I was about to post this blog, I remembered my days in O level. Sometimes I was over confident over something, but too chicken to think about big things in another things. I thought I was going to score a C in English, but ended up getting a B3. I thought I was going to get B for science, but ended up having an A. Hey, what you think is gonna be different with what He is going to give you. You might think that it is impossible now to score an A, but who knows? Nothing is impossible when you are walking with God. The faith that you sow will not grow and produce nothing. You will reap something that is worth it. Having a hope in God and trusting Him completely to handle the rest will not do you any harm. I have done my part, what is going to happen after this is beyond my control. Our God is able. It is the matter of faith. Do you trust Him completely?

Chris, chris.. I hear ya!! Haha.. Wanted to update the bloggie but too lazy to do so.. Lol.. Im sorry I didnt write a single word in the month of August.. :P:P

Neways.. here it is, my blog fans all over the universe! :D~

So.. i met my ex junior high school (SMP) classmate a month ago just before the YRC service. I was so surprised when i saw him walking towards the hyatt ballroom. As an usher, I approached him and shook his hand, at the same time, said hi and how are you and long time no see and all those similar things. He quickly looked at me and said his name. (Oh, i won't reveal his name here, as i think it is not very appropriate) When he introduced himself, i was like, huh? I mean, hello, we were classmates back then, of cors i noe ur name! U mean u don't remember me? I replied, "Yea i noe, i'm Louisa, hey! Your classmate in K7!" He showed this bewildered face, and soon i realised that he really did not remember me! I tried to dig out his memory but it came with no result. Well, nevermind. I was soo happy that day as a lot of people i knew in jakarta came to the YRC, one of them is Yenny. I have never imagined that we would meet each other in Singapore! hehe.. so fun, happy. So the case of this ex classmate thingy won't go my way! U forgot bout me, thats fine, mate!

And guess what? I met him (the forgetful ex-classmate) again in Indo Freshmen Nite 2005! With another ex classmates (Christa, my good friend back then). And guess again! The forgetful classmate forgot Christa!! Oh my my! Is your memory really that packed till you have to delete our names off your brain? Well well, try to remember your other classmates, my man. You really need to, seriously. It is not very nice when you forget your own classmates' names! Hehe.

Urm, talking aboit IFN'05.. Held in Bestway Building and targeted for Indonesian tertiary students, it was not really a blast after all. It invited Joy Tobing, the first Indonesian Idol. I asked my Indo frens in TP (and Kelly from RP) and some of them came, but the event was not quite similar to what i have told them to be, or to what i have pictured in my head. The food was far from nice, the games were.....erm, on the borderline, i should say. Perhaps a BBQ would be much nicer, or more games would do better. I understand the tight budget that the committee faced, but hey, do games really need those huge budgets? I mean, police and thief alone was not enuff! We love games, TP students love games. It is fine to play caterpillar or whatever lame games, we don't mind, really! *i send my deepest sorry to all of the committee, especially to Andri, the event planner. Well, i'm not criticising you coz i understand the situation. I'm just telling what i think, and what the others might think. =)*

Temasek Polytechnic Students


Joy Tobing, the first Indonesian Idol


TP Group with Joy Tobing

What else? Umm.. Oh, I met Klara, an Indonesian, in BSC camp. Woohoo! I always love to see Indonesians in TP. It creates a sense of belonging, that tells me that I am not alone. Since all my classmates are Singaporeans, it is always nice to meet Indonesians, don't u think? Hehe.

Lemme think of other stuff to write. Mm.. I went to East Coast Park to cycle with Surina and Nerissa. Hehe.. the environment was ok, we had quite a fun. Again, we met an Indonesian waiter in this Indonesian restaurant. Guess more and more Indonesians are going to stuff Singapore, yeah? Lol.

My grandma was hospitalised on the 20th of August which created a huge panic among all the family. My mum from Jakarta and my aunt from Canada flew over to Singapore just to see her and my other aunt from Germany who was in Singapore that moment and supposed to be back to Germany the next few days cancelled her flight. I was in the camp and wasn't around the day she was taken to the Hospital. I felt a little guilty but what is done is done. She is fine now, just need to be monitored each time. =)

On the 30th of August, I visited my secondary school (BMSS) with Kelly and Razeenah, my 2 ex-classmates who sat behind me. We chatted with the teachers there and met quite a number of other former students like us. It is nice to keep track on what they are up to, coz at least you know that they are alrite. The teachers seem to be grateful to see us, and some of them is going to retire soon. I was glad that I visited the school that day as I wont see some of the teachers if i visit the school again the next year.

I guess that is all from me. I am heading to study soon. The main exam is coming on monday and i guess i have to be fully equipped to face the paper. I always desparate to get a B at least, and hopefully an A, but since my projects are screwed, i think i should not dream too high on getting an A. Hehe. K. please pray hard for me, i really want to grab the B! Gbu!

My cmsk oral presentation is finally over. Thanks to God for giving me the confidence that I needed, and to Jairus, an intelligent NUS student-to-be, for giving me brilliant points and excellent sentences, and for teaching me how to win my case.

These few weeks I have realised that I have a lot of friends. In secondary school, I felt completely left out. Imagine to have only 2 playmates that were not even your classmates, and imagine to have your whole classmates think that you are a weirdo who has an attitude problem! Yep.. Life will be hell for you. I dont know what wrong things I had done in Secondary school. I didnt gossip, I didnt backstab, I didnt bitch around.. I understand that I was kinda like a volcano back then.. I could not control my emotion and will straight away vomitted everything out to my "best friend" (I put " " coz I think she hates me now). But apart from that, I was kind of melancholic, I didnt say out my thoughts enough, and I was a quiet gal, very far from loud.

Perhaps in sec school I was still a kid. My school in Singapore was a secular school, not like my sec school in Jakarta back then.. It was a Christian school, and majority of its pupils are Christians. We had prayers and Bible reading every morning, and a sermon once a week. My friends back then were very thoughtful and kind, cos they were Christians! Sometimes we share our thoughts, and everyone was willing to lend their shoulders for me to cry on. I love my sec school life in Indonesia.. Sigh.. Hope I could turn back time.. :S

I dont think I have an attitude problem now. I have learnt a lot from that nasty experience. I am now very different from secondary school. I am vibrant, and I make friends with everyone. One of my classmates is often surprised by how many friends I have gained in poly within such a short period of time.. Well, the reason is simple. In poly, I took part in events that are still "managable". Helping others set up a booth, attend talks and seminars, attend workshops, camps, and any other events.

Another thing, I am an anti-gossip person! I have never put any interests in gossipping, ever since in primary school, or best, ever since I was born! I am not like most girls. Sometimes I listen to them gossipping, but I never give any damn about their comments. I have my own life to care for, unless they themselves ask me to give any advices. Not that I am an apathetic person, I do care for their souls. But I dont like gossipping. It doesnt change someone's life. Perhaps one's life is awful or immoral, let's say. But does gossipping help? NO!! What we have to do is pray for that person, or approach the person with smile and make a difference in the person's life! Well, becoz of my limited english ability, what I can do is just praying for him/her. I believe in the power of prayers.

Whatever..

Today is the 22nd of July 05, which means that it is the last day of TP International Food Festival and Bazaar. I was supposed to have a class commenced at 9am in the morning but I did not manage to attend that class. The reason? Well, simply because I woke up late. Soooo freakin late. It was 10am when my eyes started to open. I jumped straight away, very shocked by the fact that I seldom late. I rushed to the bathroom and did a quick wash. I grabbed my bag and ran straight to take a cab. The fare was unexpectedly raised to be so expensive. $8.50!! Shucks. Luckily I had enough cash in my wallet.

You know what? God has been so good to me these days. I asked God for no rain for these 3 days during the bazaar so that business can run smoothly, and He answered my prayers. Just yesterday, I was too tired debating with David, causing me not to read the Bible before going to bed. The result is, I was late today. But God punishes people with love. In the end I did not attend the class, and He knows that this is enough for me to change. I repented and promised myself not to miss reading the Bible ever again. Fortunately, that day I had the Leave Of Absence (LOA) Letter, regarding the bazaar thingy. I was permitted to skip lectures and tutorial classes during the Food Festival, but I did not want to skip lectures so I did not use it. Today, I went to the General Office and submit my LOA letter to them as the reason on why I did not go to the tutorial class this morning. Hehe.. so kewl rite?? =P

TP International Food Festival finally over. I had so much fun these past 3 days selling the snacks and stuff. Because we were making losses, Yusrin came up with a splendid idea! He presented his sketches to be given away in a lucky draw as a grand prize. His drawings include Jay Chou, Angelina Jolie, David Beckham, Fann Wong, and Britney Spears. Those people who buy from our stall for at least $2, get a chance to win the grand prize. The other prizes are Silver Queen, Chocolates, Drinks, and many more. Even though we earned just nice to cover our expenses, and our profit was only $14, we really do have so much fun. Today is the day that definitely will not be erased from my memory.

Our Stall. Esther and Yessica wore traditional Indonesian Costumes


The Salesmen


Grand Prize Winner: Angelina Jolie


After counting the Omzet

I cannot reveal everything here. The fun is just so huge till I find myself to be caught in difficulty of typing it up, as it is so difficult to be phrased in sentences. So guys, it is too bad if you miss the bazaar. Our candy floss is soooo popular among our customers. Hehehe. =P

Hey... ^^ yesterday, my beloved friend finally managed to have her internet done. I miss her so much that we talked about everything under the sun and didn't realise that the time was moving so fast without waiting for us.. We chit-chatted until around 3am in the morning?? Hehe.

Mm, my previous post was about my birthday and i talked on how some people were just happily forget the significant day and stuff.. hehez. Now I got the explanations. I should understand that some of them became close to me just a few weeks ago and I should not expect too high of them remembering my birthday. Some of them were even don't know about it! Oh no. I'm soo selfish. Do I always think so negatively?>.<

Mm, today is the Cross-disciplinary Subject (CDS) registration date. Wanna know my choices? Hehez. I also do not know what to choose. A lot of the subjects are appealing to me and I was having a hard time choosing 5 of them. I feel like studying all... hehehez...

1. Freehand Drawing (Haha, I love sketching! =P Just that my sketchings are not really considered as good pieces of work.. That's why I need someone to teach me sketching skills! LOL)
2. Food Hygiene (Hehez.. this sounds interesting as it teaches us about food hygiene.. duh. You need to learn this to be a good house-wife! Lol.. You don't want your family to have food poisoning often rite?)
3. Leadership and Character (This is important to be a boss!! Hehez.. I mean, who wants to be a low-level worker?? Well, i dont wanna..)
4. Productivity and Service Quality (A marketing subject it is, I think it's a fundamental thing to learn if you want to explore on the service-based business...)
5. French (Mm, not really appealing but doesn't it sound cool to be able to speak one of the European Languages besides English?? I think learning French is kinda kool.. Haha. Mm actually I was thinking of a subject called Introduction to Project Management. But nagh.. That one can be gained through experience... Hahahahaha. So, it's French that won! *what lah*)

So these are my choices. I need not ask my parents about CDS. Okay, perhaps they can gimme advices but I want to learn something that is to my interest. Business IT was my dad's advice. At first I wanted to go to Interior Design course but my dad thinks that BIT is better in terms of career in the future. He also stated that Interior Design can be put as a hobby but BIT cannot. That was kinda true, to be honest.. So I followed his advice.. hehe..

Okay, I guess I'm done with typing. My friend, Zi Yan, wants to meet me soon. It has been such a long time since the last time we went out. Ok, I guess I better get ready.... =)

Morning people..! First of all, I would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to those who wished me happy birthday on the 11th of July ^^ I will treasure you guys.. Here are the list in a non-chronological order.

Ivan JL, Andrew, Regina, San-san, Zi Yan, Mia, Dedi, Terra, Kelly, Christina, Elvina, Cynthia, Vanessa, Xiwen, Crystal, Chien Zhi, Daryl, Jing Yi, Su Ling, Nurul, Ivan NB, Nigel, Rendi, Menny, Vanya, Erni, Angga, Andriani, Aprilia, Lestari, Hui Lei, Samuel JO, Ella, Citra, Eileena, Frans & fam.

-plz let me know if I miss you out...K? ^^ (Note: Wishes through MSN Messenger are not included)-

I feel like complaining but I'm afraid people that read my blog will fed up because of the complaining stuff. My previous 2 posts have been about complaints and I believe nobody would like to see another one. But I cant "tahan" liaoz... I feel like vomiting everything out here... I'm so sorry guys..

I feel very disappointed, sad, and at the same time, angry. Yesterday -ohh, its 30 mins ago- was my sweet 17th birthday. In Indonesia, 17 years of age is already considered as adults and girls will usually have blast celebrations. Because I live in Singapore and my acquaintances are divided by 2 countries (Singapore and Indonesia), I understand the situation that I cant have that kinda celebration. Well, I don't really mind as I am not the type of gal who likes to be in a party, to begin with. Besides, I had my term test just the week before my bday, and even on the day itself! So I prefer concentrating on school work to thinking of what type of party should I throw.

I already asked my 2 best friends, terra and chris, to eat out tomorrow, which was on my bday. Before I slept, I was hopping that tomorrow would be fun. Accounting paper was no worries to me. I believed that everything would turn out well and exciting! I imagined I would receive a lot of birthday testimonials from my friends. Just this and nothing more. Well, friendster has given them a hint! There is no reason for them to forget, unless they don't check the net so often. If they cant make it, at least they can send me an SMS? Well I dunno... Or gimme a call, perhaps?

Andrew's msg brightened my day. He was the first to wish me a happy birthday. Andrew wont forget over this little thing as he always remembers my birthday. I remember the last time he sent me a birthday present. I believe the present was so precious to him, that no insane would ever give such a thing away for a person whom he rarely meets. But he gave it, anyway. That was so nice of him. I went to sleep, starting with a prayer, of course..

the sun finally rose on the "happy" day. I went to the campus with a huge smile engraved on my face, ready to go for the accounting paper. 4 of my classmates (vanessa, chienzhi, xiwen, crystal) gave me a bracelet and a card.. So nice.. :) Thanks to the 4 of you ^^

then I went straight to meet chris and terra. Do some hang out stuff.. Nothing much, but I had so much fun! =)

aiya......... I dunno whether I should complaint here. I don't think the readers deserve another complaint... Briefly, I was angry and disappointed as a lot of my precious friends (friends that are precious to me, people that I think are fun to be with, people that I consider my close friends) forget about this. It may sound so childish but I mean it. it is alright for me if those people in MSN forget. But they are my close friends!!! I waited till 23:59, perhaps they would like to be the last to give me surprises. But they didn't. The thing is, those whom I did not really expect much to remember do remember!! I know I should not be too egoistic and selfish. There may be some situations whereby their phones are out of balance and none their family members wanted to lend them theirs, or perhaps their internet cannot be used.. Or whatever.. But it's not likely to have ALL of them experience the same thing at a same time in a very same particular day rite? Some of them DID go online, but they didn't even NOTICE my so-obvious-and-thick-skinned nick. Or they did notice but didn't even bother to instant message me to say hi?? Some of them put "away" sign.. But were they really that busy to say even a simple wish?? The story I give you now is not the worse... If I were a heartless person, I may even copy-paste some of their conversations.. Ok forget about elaborating. I am very, very disappointed with those people! >_<

whatever... im goin to bed. im sick. im not feelin well. i deserve the rest i need. readers, im sorry to let you read another complaint. I am not that kind of person, really. i do give thanks, lolx.. but these days were just not right. i am away from my God, the only source of joy. That is probably why i become like this. abnormal. childish. selfish.. you name it. sigh... What's wrong with meee???

It's the 2nd day of July.. Have been very busy these few days due to the arrival of my family and my 2 cousins.. haha.. Not only that, school is getting tougher and tougher since the term test is just around the corner.

I have my communication skills presentation comin up somewhere in July, and to add the stress on it, my topic is soo darn serious! It's about euthanasia, whether you agree or disagree, and something like that.. T_T I didn't really notice when I wrote that piece of essay that I am supposed to present that essay to the whole class, that was why I chose the topic..

Last Sunday, the bro of my tuition teacher was married. I went for his wedding reception and that was my first time attending a Chinese wedding dinner, with round tables all over the ballroom...yes, you may freak out with this fact.. -_-" Ok. The wedding receptions that I usually attend are the typical Indonesian ones, those buffet like.. Then again, during the dinner last Sunday, my chopsticks dropped. First a stick, then another one, which made exactly a pair.. Sigh.. I was so clumsy T_T.. So paiseh haha.. Furthermore, I felt quite uncomfortable, coz I ate with those people I didn't know in one table, which meant that I had to watch my manner.. LOL. U have to eat silently (no jingling of forks and spoons, where the direction of your spoon when you scoop your soup, and stuff like that..) oh C'mon.. Don't u feel pressurized when you have to eat so formally? Well, I do, to be honest... =P

Ok. Change topic. Yesterday was the submission date of our CMSY L1 Template. I didn't really care about this particular project because my group was like.. Err.. Can I say "look at me in one eye"? Especially da leader, the participation-mark-despo (PMD) as well as the computer's husband (coz I think he has married with a computer -_-"). What he thinks I am??? He pushed me further and further to the corner by asking questions I didn't know, makin me like a complete fool in front of all the group members! It's true that I am not really competent about computer and stuff.. But hey, I have my own special ability too!! And today, when Daryl (one of the group member) came up with a template, guess what did the PMD ask me to do? He gave me the template and asked me to draw something on it! Oh puhleasee!.. Give me yesterday lah, so at least I can draw your 'beloved' wife.. Duh! -_-" I cant draw when I am pressurized with time.. Give me today, what can I do? So I just did a typography, and guess what.. My hand started trembling. Told ya, I cant do anything when I am pressurized with time, especially regarding sketching and drawing. But fortunately enuff, my group was quite satisfied with the typography I did. Oh, I shouldn't say "my group" as that aloy didn't even bother to look at it. But anyway, Daryl and Chien Zhi were satisfied, and that's great enuf for me. I don't need the PMD to comment my work. Who is he to comment my typography? he doesn't even have the RIGHT to look at it! All my drawings are copyrighted, and it's within my permission to see them! LOL.

ok. stop talking about this crap and move on to a more exciting topic! are you ready??

TPIS is holding an international bazaar on the 22nd of July, and TP Indo Union is going to sell Indonesian food and snacks... so do drop by when you are around and make sure you buy something ok! Lol. sounds forceful but I don't care.. haha. another thing, there will be an international cultural nite on the 29th of July in the TP Auditorium. TP Indo Union is taking part and going to have an Indonesian halloween fashion show! WOW.. isnt that gonna be cool? So make sure you have yourself in the auditorium on the 29th of July nite okae? hehe.. peaceee... =)

Ok. So I applied for Tuition grant. Went to the webby and filled in the form.. And guess what? I entered my matric card number wrongly! I typed down my matric card's barcode, not my admission number. Bloody hell. I know this is stupid but I didn't know that "matric card number" is actually "admission number". Argh!! When I signed up for TP debates, I wrote down the barcode number and they were pretty cool about that. Hence I am confidently thought that matric card number is the barcode number...

Ok, so I know my application is going to fail. They said last Monday and Tuesday (20-21 June) were the dates the government opens the application again for those who failed to apply. I went down to the office on Monday to check whether my name was on the list of those failures and, surprisingly, my name was not there! I told the 'miss' in the office about the matric card number and stuff and she said I better apply again to avoid unwanted things to happen next.

On that same Monday, I had a TPIU meeting till late. I reached home 1 hour before midnight and was too freakin tired. I was completely forgot about the application. On Tue, same thing happen. I didn't remember to re-apply for the TGD as that day was the opening of AOYC and I was just too excited. Again, I reached home very late and was overly tired and sleepy.

Early in the morning on the next day, which is today, I just realised about the tuition grant thingy. My face had gone pale as I knew that there is no more chance for me to re-apply. I didn't know what to do. I took the bus and met Syl and we went together to the office to ask. The person was not really sure about my problem. She said if I couldn't find my name on the list, then probably my application was successful. But she was still not sure! I prayed and prayed, hoping that God will give me a little favour over this thing.

Went home in the afternoon and told my brother online about this, thinking that perhaps my family could help, but only to find myself being nagged and blamed. Stupid bro! I was too stressed out by the overloaded projects, the homework, the night dismissal almost everyday, the "failed" tuition grant, the AOYC report I have to submit, the essay I have to do which is almost due, and so on and so forth.. Now I find myself being blamed because of my cluelessness about the matric card number?? Gimme a break!! He said that I should memorise the matric card number by heart. Gosh! Wasn't he paying attention when I explained to him?? It Wasn't that I didn't remember my matric card number, it was becoz I didn't know that matric card number is actually admission number! Another thing, he blamed me of not writing it down in my agenda. Hello.. Does he think that I have my pen and my agenda with me whenever I travelled around the school? What does he think I am? A journalist? A reporter?? Sigh.. He expected me to be active in school, that is why I go home late almost everyday, which causes me to forget about the application. I am still a human being. Not a computer! It is still within boundaries to forget things, rite? >.< I was too pissed by my bro and asked him to shut up and stop lecturing me. and i shouted (u noe, by using a lot of exclamation marks <"!">). I know it's a bit rude, but I just need the break. And, guess what.. (just being frank) I am crying.. Yes, rite now! I just cant take it anymore! Why everyone keeps on mocking me over things like this? The AOYC report, the undone projects, and the unnecessary nags . . . I just have it enough!!

Hayaz.. These few days I have lost the joy He gave me. Goddd.. Help me pleaseeee!! I need u desperately... >.< Only You can understand me, Father.. Forgive me for being rude to my bro..I just need the peace, the joy, the content surroundings when You are here... Draw me near.. Jesusss.. HELPPPP!!! ~_~

Today I went to the Temasek Polytechnic International Students (TPIS) Annual General Meeting (AGM). Due to the cancellation of IISO lessons this week, I was dismissed at 1pm. And guess what? The meeting started at 6pm! Oh no! Should I stay back for 5 long hours in the campus?? No way! But I had no choice. I was meeting Wasis at 4pm, btw. Hence, no point of going back home.. rite? Anyway I had my CMSK research with me, so I did the essay outline and printed it during the waiting hours.

Err.. Who did you say you were meeting just now? Wasis? What a weird name. LOL. Well, I won't say such a thing la, coz I am not that mean.. HAHA. But yes.. I should admit that actually his name is quite.. er... unique? as people can mispronounce it as "wasit" (indonesian term for referee), "wasir" (ambeien), or anything else.. LOL. But hey, don't judge people by his name, can? You don't know whether the person is good or evil only by his name.. or perhaps whether the person is good looking or bad looking.. You won't know! People say your name reflects your personality, but I don't really think so! Let me give you some examples. 'Claudia' means limping. So if your name is Claudia, does it mean that you are limping?? 'Christina' means Christ's follower, or simply, Christian. So if someone is named Christina, can you be sure that she is a Christian? I don't really see a point of the meaning of names, although it is fun to find out the meaning behind your name. And oh, for your additional information, 'Louisa' means heroine. Not HEROIN, but HEROINE. I hope you can distinguish between the two. "Heroin" means a powerful and illegal drug made from morphine (definition taken from Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English), whereas "heroine" means simply a female warrior. Got the difference? LOL. So, what's the meaning behind your very own name? ;)

Ok. Back to the main point. TPIS AGM was quite a fun. I got a chance to meet other Indonesian friends in TP. Quite a number of them are freshies, perhaps I can ask them to come for the Indo-Freshmen Nite on August? LOL. OK. Seems I have nothing else to talk about. I believe you won't like it if I talk about the meeting on and on rite? It would be borrrriiiinnngg! Hehe. Ok I guess I'll see u next time. Bubbye and GBU!

Hellowww.... When was the last time I updated this blog? 1st of June? LOL... *checking the calendars now*... OH NO! It's already the 10th! Am I on a way that leads me to an inconsistency? LOL. Well.. if u are a jobless person that has nothing better to do but looking at my crappy blog carefully, u sure notice that at the beginning I started this blog, I updated it every single day! But what happens now? Mmm well, the lazy piggy has risen! HA HA! =P

School is getting better and better with lots of fun activities to attend. There are nice people around even though some of the TP population are kinda bengs and lians... Haha nevermind. Anyway, do you guys know why I can survive here in TP? Well, make a guess! You are incorrect if you say that the subjects I am currently taking are easy. You are a big WRONG if you think that there are a lot of Indonesians here. In fact, in BIT course alone, I only met 1 Indonesian, and he is my senior!! That tells you how rare Indonesians here... U are half correct if your answer is that TP students are friendly. So, what makes me survive here??

Well, simply becoz... All my classmates speak English to one another!! LOL. Some of you may go "huh?", but I tell u, it is a joy when all of them speak in channel 5. I have encountered the uneasiness of being a deaf goat in the middle of my Chinese friends speaking in channel 8. Don't ask me to go and learn Chinese, coz I have done it! I am a Chinese and I didn't say that I don't understand Chinese at all. Well, I just don't use it often, hence, every information that was stored in my brain has gone somewhere else I don't even bother to find out. Seriously, you have to try it yourself. How do u feel when everyone around you laugh so happily at things that they think are funny, and u are just sitting there being a complete idiot while, at the same time, trying your best to laugh with them, despite the fact that you don't know what on earth they are -and you are- laughing at. I am not good at describing, but I can tell that it feels terrible! I am being honest here.. and, oh, I am always honest, aren't I? Rite! That's so obvious! LOL *does anybody feel like vomiting?* :P

Ok. Change topic! Today is my first time visiting the campus' Library. LOL. sotong. Went there just to see and know only, and I looked like sooo dot. Haha. Wanted to borrow a book but didn't know how, till I noe that I have to create a numeric pin first before using the electronic borrowing machine or whatever the name of the machine is. Haha. T_T Ha ha ha. Not funny for me.

Okiez... Bought a blouse with Christina and Terra yesterday.. We 3 have the same blouse.. LOL. Argh.. dunno what to sae already larh.. Next time I update again..

OH YAR! Forgot to post the Session notes! Tomorrow k? LOL. Hopefully....

Hello.... it's been a while since the last time i updated this blog... hehe... ok. without further speech, let me staaarrrttt this.... =D

I feel like talking bout the Bible Camp. it was a 3 days 2 nights camp held on the 21-23 may. Huwahh... can i talk in indonesian? i'm just too lazy to talk in english... LOL... No. i cant really express myself in English. English is a foreign language to me. I have been learning it since 5 years old? LOL. but indonesian is better. I learnt it ever since i saw this beautiful world.. XD... I am more fluent in Indonesian, to be honest. =P So, can i? Of course can! How can you say "no" ? This is my blog, remember?? LOLLL *am i forcing you to say "whatever.."?? HA HA!*

Ok. jadi gw mulai aje yahh... Bible Camp kmaren ini diadain di City Bayview hotel. Gw kira itu hotel bintang 3, gak taunya kmaren ini gw cek di internet, eh.. ternyata dia bintang 4 bow! hwuaha.. ah. bintang2 mah gak penting deh. yang penting tuh apa yang lu alamin di sana. ya gak? huwahahaha

Hari pertama:
Mm mungkin ini gak terlalu berkesan sih.. gw siap2in barang, dll, trus gw brangkat naik bis. agak males gt deh.. maklum lah, gw ke BC juga gak ada tujuan. cuman ngisi liburan. somehow gw mikir "temen gw ada, gw gak kurang kerjaan..knapa mesti ke BC?" haha tp gw pun pergi juga pada akhirnya. Di jalan gw ketemu ma rombongan NTU. Ci Ricci, ko Anton, ko Andri dkk. *yang laennya gak knal.. huwahah*. Ya ude gw gabung aje ma mreka. ehh.. tengah jalan pula, ketemu ci Achill. wuihh. all heading to the City Bayview hotel, with some heavy and some light lugagges. My mind asked, "Mm.. will this gonna be a great and unforgettable camp as it was said? Or they were probably just being too exaggerating?"

Sesampainya di City Bayview, gw orang ngumpul di lantai 5. gak ada kerjaan. cuman ngumpul2 aja. trus abis itu ada ice breaking games. yahh.. lumayan lahh.. gw sekelompok ma Ci Achill. tp kalah. huhuu.. gpp deh. abis itu klo gak salah pembagian kamar gt. tadinya gw sekamar ma Ci Merry, Siefen, sama Suryani. Trus gw liat room allocationnya.. masa Citra, Yossy, Jessica, San-san pada sekamar??? Gak relaa! haha.. gpp sih, gw gak protes juga sekamar ma Merry. Tp knapa mereka pada sekamar?? huhuuu.. Abis itu, gw orang ada session. Om Djohan yang bagiin firman. tentang kasih Bapa. gw ada catet koq. ntar ya gw post catetan gw di sini =D ok ok? Akhir session pun tiba.. San-san bilang ma merry kalo gw sebaiknya masuk ke kamar dia aja.. dan si merry setuju... So.. kita 1 FA jadi sekamar.. asiikk.. hahah! sharing nya jadi lebi enak ;) Trus.. jam yang paling ditunggu-tunggu : MaKaN mAleM! LOL. Rawon bikinan Ci Biena.. enak looo! *nyamm*

Hari kedua:
Hari ini games day. Kami pergi ke Sentosa buat main games. Gw dimasukin di kelompok "Esther" yang diketuai oleh Cynthia. Huwaha.. Btw, for your own info, Cynthia itu dulu temen smp gw... Haha.. Oh ya. Again, Citra, Yossy, Jessica were in 1 group!! Ugh.. knapaaa?? Huwahaha.. Gapapa deh. Gw punya grup juga ok. Ada Cynthia, Suryani, Andreas.... ok kan? kan? kan? =P Gamesnya tuh basically kayak amazing race gt.. kebayang dong capeknya? gak bisa istirahat karna dari 1 station ke station lain aja mesti lari! Huhu.. tambah lagi hari tuh puaaannnaass abis! Mana panitianya nyolot lagi.. ugh! Station pertama aja grup gw jalan.. yang laen pada naik bis.... sengsara bener sih?? Haha... tp by the time we reached the 3rd station, grup gw udah jadi yang pertama! Tapi sayang... setelah itu gw orang nyasar! Sebelnya, panitia tuh super nyolot. udah tau kita salah tujuan, bukannya dikasi tau kalo kita nyasar, malah didukung supaya kita ke tempat yang salah itu... Nyebelin abis deee!! Huhuu.. Oh iya, games nya juga super duper gak manusiawi.. Masa udah di station trakhir, udah super capek, disuru brenang di laut, jaraknya kira2 .. mmm.. brapa yah? lumayan jauh deh! Bujut! Orang bisa pingsan tuh! Tp puji Tuhan, gak ada yang pingsan.. Ugh. Ok. no point complaining now. Toh gak ada gunanya juga dan gw jadi kesel en ujung2nya dosa. Wah.. bahaya kan tuh? Pokoke intinya, in the end grup gw juara 3 dalam "amazing race" ini. x_x *bersyukur*

Abis main games, ada workshop ttg LSD.. ni workshop keren abis. gak kayak biasanya... Ini lebih ke mentality and application.. biasanya kan only talk about physical, physical, and physical... which is quite boring. Ugh. Haha. Setelah workshop, ada session lagi. I mean, YRC. haha.. gak ada firman Tuhan, tapi smua orang ngerasain jamahan Roh Kudus saat itu. Mm. gw gak gitu berasa banget sih, tp gw tau RK ada di sono. Sebel.. gw lost focus. Fokus gw ke BC tuh bukan buat Tuhan, tp karna gw mo ngisi liburan gw. Makanya gak gitu berasa juga. Tp gw tau tubuh gw bergetar dan gw gak bisa kontrol. Gw tau ada Tuhan. Tp gw gak gitu ngerasain semangat yang berapi2. Setelah itu kami muji Tuhan. Lagunya juga yang loncat kayak Running After You nya Planet Shakers (ini theme song BC kali ini), trus dilanjutin ma One Way nya Hillsong United. Gw orang loncat-loncat. Herannya, sebelum ini gw orang cuapekk abis gara2 games itu.. Mana hari juga uda malem.. tp koq masih ada energy buat muji Tuhan se-vigorous itu? Mmm.. God provided the power to praise Him. Amen!

Hari ketiga:
Nothing much to say.. just a session and a performance day. Grup gw performed drama. Smua orang bilang drama grup gw paling bagus, tapi gw orang mainnya 9 menit. Ini melampaui batas waktu yang hanya 5 menit. Akhirnya, nilai grup gw dipotong banyaaakk banget! Huhuu T_T. Tp gpp de.. hadiahnya juga cuman makanan. Dikit lagi! Hahaha... After that.. kita pulannngg! =D

Besoknya, gw sekolah. 1st day in TP. enak sih. asik gt. meski lecturenya a bit boring, tapi anak2 E01 tuh asik aja... =D haha.. nothing much to say bout school lah hor... ok i guess sampe di sini aja dulu.. see you later yah.. ntar gw post deh session notes nya.. sip? Byeee....

Haha. Today's the 2nd day of orientation and Citra couldnt come coz she has a diarrhoea. Poor Citra. Today was more fun coz we have the Temasek Regatta. It's a dragonboat race between the five schools. Before that, there are some games also. And whether this is good or bad for you, i will still tell: TP Business WON! WOW! Isnt that great? I shouted my lungs out. Very tired. Actually we still have the jam and hop and the campfire. I was too tired so I went home. Haha. Very cool. Tomorrow is the bible camp. I dont knoe what will happen. I guess it will be great. Just see how. Hehez... Go Business Go! You Go! We Go!

Went for the orientation today. So bored. Too many waitings. The only thing that I loved was the TP mass dance. Yes, we learned the mass dance already during FOW, but I just like it. LOL. Citra went for the orientation too. I know she is still unsure about her destination next, but she went, anyway. However, we are not in the same class. She is in E11 and I am in E01. Quite a difference. Saw Niven just now. Couldn't believe that he is in the same course as me, Business IT. I've knew that he is in TP but I have no thoughts that he will be in BIT. Well, but again, we are in different classes. Hehe. We learned new cheers, but my class have no team spirit. Sigh. I made friends with some students. Some of them are quite enthusiastic, but some of them are not. They went off in the middle of the program, and that's pathetic. Tomorrow we will be given our schedule and matriculation card. Let's see how many people will turn up...

Haha.. bought guitar strings just now.. Oh finally.. after long days of tiredness and boredom.. just saw that guitar with broken 4th and 6th strings.... Sigh.. huwahaha... Oh so happy. Can play the beloved guitar already.. Pamela came to my house today to fix my antivirus. Hehe.. My computer is now spyware-free... Woohoo! LOL. Very happy........ Bye annoying spyware and adware! Hate yooouuu!! HA HA! *toing*

Went for the Bash Camp yesterday. Extremely tired. I didnt sleep the whole night. Huwah. Haha. but it was fun. I have never been in such a fun before. We got games, bbq (we had sting ray.. yummm), jam and performances.... Got to know quite a lot of TP students and all of them are kind people. Oki. I cant get my eyes open now. Gotta back to sleep. Gd morning! ZzzZzz

So Surina has finished her mid year exam. Finally, eh? Hehez. She asked Pamela and I to go out today. Actually, my plan for today is to have Pamela comes to my house to do something with my computer. But it changed. Lol. We went to town and watched a movie. Surina still hasn't bought a mobile phone yet (she lost hers in Far East Plaza.. Sigh), so it was kind of difficult to meet her. She told me to meet her at the Robinson's bus stop. So I went there only to find out that Robinson doesn't have a particular bus stop. Her sister called me and told me that Surina is at the bus stop in front of OG. I went there but failed to find her. I walked to the Orchard Emerald's bus stop and finally she was there! Huwah! At last! Hehez. But another problem came. My sandals broke. T_T Luckily, I had a glue in my bag.

Phew...We went to the Cineleisure and watched "Are We There Yet?". I saw the premiere and it was so funny. So we decided to catch it. Yes, it was funny, but a bit boring. The storyline was easily guessed, eventhough I could hardly predict what the kids were going to do to Nick. Hehe. I think I'm gonna give it 3/5, since the easy atmosphere is better than the House of Wax. Ha!! Let's say I hadn't have watched House of Wax before, perhaps I'm gonna give less! Lol. Well, House of Wax is not a bad movie. It's very creative. It's just the wrecking atmosphere that doesn't really suit me. So thrilling. Different with Are We There Yet? which is easy and cheerful. :)

We decided to go home after the show. After Pamela left with the bus she rode, I saw Diana Ser and her team interviewing peoples about something. I don't know what's that, perhaps something to be shown in Get Rea!, no? Well, I am not very sure... Haha!

Hey hey.. hehe... Went to my bro's place juz now, packing all his stuff coz he probably won't be staying there anymore. Too tired, I fell asleep in the cab.. Nevermind. Oh yes, did I tell you how much was the cab fare from NTU to my place? 18 bucks, dear! 18 BUCKS!! T_T... That was a lot, you know? With those amount of money, you can have many things! Am I right? hehez.

Ok. So he will go back to Indo tomorro. So nice. Sigh. But hey, I'm gonna have fun here too. Haha. Tomorro Pamela will come to my house to check my computer. I dunno what will we do tomorrow though. Hehez. Oh yes, forget to tell you something. My bro will take the camera with him!! Huwaaa.... How am I suppose to take pics during d camp?? Hix. Oki then. I dunno what else to write man. Guess I juz stop here k? Take care and God bless.

Went out to town with pamela today and watched House of Wax... It's very very scary (to me larh, hehez). It's a thriller, murders. The idea is creative, though.. it's just bloody. Too sadistic. Lolx... Couldn't stand it..I felt like goin out of the theatre in the middle of the show.. Lolx.. But it's just make up, though. It's not real, is it? Hehez.

okie dok. Town is just as the same as usual. Full of people and nothing more. Lolx.. Nevermind. I chatted with Jen online today and she asked me to join the Bash Camp. Think i'm gonna come. After YRC, of course.. just who's gonna come together with me? I've no idea...

Now, here is the invitation card. The Bash Camp is open for any Youth. Any teens. Any school, any polys. Interested? Join us!! =)

Hehez... today i went to the immigration to finish up the student pass thingy.. Phew.. finally it's all done. I got my poly student pass.. finally... hehehez... met gong yuan and jiang lin in the ICA building, figured out that Gong yuan goes to SIM for her further studies.. good luck then.. Hehez.. Very tired.. let's see what i can do after this... Lolx... Tomorro i'll meet pamela for a movie, yay! C ya!S

huwah.. finished workshop already. very tired. super duper tired. huwahh... our group, Argon, won the best empire of the year. hurraaahh!! we scored very high!! lol, this is what they said, even though we lost in the final clash. anyway, today is mum's bday. i was forgot but remembered after asking today's date to a friend. huwah.. lucky i asked. if not, i would not wish my mum a happy birthday... T_T sorry mum.... This afternoon, i went to Bestway for Y-lead. Was so sleepy but still could manage to open my eyes. unfortunately, i couldnt focus. i was just so lifted during the praise and worship time and when ci Biena shared some of the word of God. the rest, my focus flew to some other places like the past workshop i was on. huhuhu, i'm sorry, God. Chatted with Faith tonight, discovered that she's also a devoted Christian. Kewl, eh? Hehehe...... Thank you God for giving me a Christian friend... I will surely treasure her...

Phew... finally my windows are done............. Thanks to my big bro! Hahaz. Accompanied my bro to buy a bible just now... quite a lotta things to do.. huhuuu... my student pass thingy hasn't done yet.... i dunno what to do lehh... >.<

Hehehz... Today is special coz my mum is here.. Lolx.. She'll be in Singapore until next Monday.. Went to the ICA today to cancel my student pass.. Terry was there but he didn't notice me. He's in the queue line and and i was already on my way to go home. Haiz.. Nothing to write... Listen to songs now.... next time larh... Very lazy now.. huahaha.

Actually there's nothing I can talked about today. Okay. Err.. Something happened yesterday but I'm just too embarrassed to tell everything here. LOL.

Now. My computer sux. Viruses come and go. All I have to do is nothing but re-installing the windows. So yesterday I tried to install it and it was said that the estimation time was about 39 minutes. So I waited and waited (while doing other things, of course).. until 1 hour!! I mean, this is just plain stupid! So I could no nothing about it but canceled the installation. Geez. Now the computer seems to be worserer and worserer. I guess I need to do things all over again. Windows is really... troubling me rite now! Somebody please help!!! Argh!!