orangestory

Ok. So I applied for Tuition grant. Went to the webby and filled in the form.. And guess what? I entered my matric card number wrongly! I typed down my matric card's barcode, not my admission number. Bloody hell. I know this is stupid but I didn't know that "matric card number" is actually "admission number". Argh!! When I signed up for TP debates, I wrote down the barcode number and they were pretty cool about that. Hence I am confidently thought that matric card number is the barcode number...

Ok, so I know my application is going to fail. They said last Monday and Tuesday (20-21 June) were the dates the government opens the application again for those who failed to apply. I went down to the office on Monday to check whether my name was on the list of those failures and, surprisingly, my name was not there! I told the 'miss' in the office about the matric card number and stuff and she said I better apply again to avoid unwanted things to happen next.

On that same Monday, I had a TPIU meeting till late. I reached home 1 hour before midnight and was too freakin tired. I was completely forgot about the application. On Tue, same thing happen. I didn't remember to re-apply for the TGD as that day was the opening of AOYC and I was just too excited. Again, I reached home very late and was overly tired and sleepy.

Early in the morning on the next day, which is today, I just realised about the tuition grant thingy. My face had gone pale as I knew that there is no more chance for me to re-apply. I didn't know what to do. I took the bus and met Syl and we went together to the office to ask. The person was not really sure about my problem. She said if I couldn't find my name on the list, then probably my application was successful. But she was still not sure! I prayed and prayed, hoping that God will give me a little favour over this thing.

Went home in the afternoon and told my brother online about this, thinking that perhaps my family could help, but only to find myself being nagged and blamed. Stupid bro! I was too stressed out by the overloaded projects, the homework, the night dismissal almost everyday, the "failed" tuition grant, the AOYC report I have to submit, the essay I have to do which is almost due, and so on and so forth.. Now I find myself being blamed because of my cluelessness about the matric card number?? Gimme a break!! He said that I should memorise the matric card number by heart. Gosh! Wasn't he paying attention when I explained to him?? It Wasn't that I didn't remember my matric card number, it was becoz I didn't know that matric card number is actually admission number! Another thing, he blamed me of not writing it down in my agenda. Hello.. Does he think that I have my pen and my agenda with me whenever I travelled around the school? What does he think I am? A journalist? A reporter?? Sigh.. He expected me to be active in school, that is why I go home late almost everyday, which causes me to forget about the application. I am still a human being. Not a computer! It is still within boundaries to forget things, rite? >.< I was too pissed by my bro and asked him to shut up and stop lecturing me. and i shouted (u noe, by using a lot of exclamation marks <"!">). I know it's a bit rude, but I just need the break. And, guess what.. (just being frank) I am crying.. Yes, rite now! I just cant take it anymore! Why everyone keeps on mocking me over things like this? The AOYC report, the undone projects, and the unnecessary nags . . . I just have it enough!!

Hayaz.. These few days I have lost the joy He gave me. Goddd.. Help me pleaseeee!! I need u desperately... >.< Only You can understand me, Father.. Forgive me for being rude to my bro..I just need the peace, the joy, the content surroundings when You are here... Draw me near.. Jesusss.. HELPPPP!!! ~_~

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