orangestory

I'm so sorry to all people, especially to my non-Indonesian friends for not keeping you updated. I've been posting my blog in Indonesian lately, which may put you off. Hehe.

Things have gone pretty badly these days, with term test being held up this week, not forgetting the amount of stress I had. The past 2 weeks had been the tough ones, I should say. The screwed up interview, the unprepared me for the term test, the lack of focus me when studying as well as praying, the failures of not being able to overcome all the temptations such as not to read the story books, or not to watch any movies, to turn off the comp, to keep those blank papers free from sketchings... well, basically, there are times when I failed to overcome the lazy and procrastinating attitudes in me. My term test had been such a mess, Business Accounting paper was the worst. I hate Accounting. It has been my enemy ever since Gerald started to tutor us. Well, it's not that I don't like Gerald, err..ok, I should admit that his teaching ability is not as good as our previous tutor, whatever her name is. However, i just find the subject a hassle. Too mahfan, if I am being honest.

Last Tuesday, I was involved in the Daegu Medical College's visit to TP from Korea as one of the ushers. I don't know why they chose TP instead of other Singapore's fine institutions. Ok, TP may be a campus with an award-winning architecture, but... does TP really that rock? Lol. Well, I am so used to being an usher in the church, so this was not much of a difficult task for me. I got to know more friends, got a free t-shirt, and gained SEAL Points. Yeah.. This thing could be fun in some way, apart from the fact that it was held during the term test week, the day when I had my Business Accounting paper... And I screwed the paper up. ArrrGgHh!!

Nevermind, Louisa, calm yourself down. You can't turn back time, can you? Just let it be. Move on. Step forward. Okay?

Well well. So now, the term test has over. Econs paper was okay, even though there was a question that I FORGOT the answer!! Argh.. This was EXTREMELY irritating, and depressing as well. I STUDIED, okay? I hate it when you have memorised a thing but suddenly you fail to re-call it when it is being asked, no matter how hard you try to dig it out. My memory sucks, I can't help it. Sighhhhh... What a waste of time memorising it.. -__-"

Move on. I just learnt that my friend's mum passed away today. His MSN nick tells all. It says, "Selamat jalan Mami, Love you so much.. Yohanes 11:25-26" which means "Bon Voyage, Mum, love you so much.. John 11:25-26". Well, he isn't a close friend, but I feel so so sooo sorry for him. :( :( :( He is a good guy, very low profile and hardworking. He is not selfish and is helpful. I don't think he deserves this. I really don't. :( Why must this happen to him? I mean, he doesn't come from a very wealthy family. He has siblings to feed. Life has been tough for him. He had been keeping his faith when his mum fell sick. He always said, "in Him there is healing". But in the end, his mum still passed away. Hmm, there are certain things we don't understand about our God. His timing, His plans, His thoughts... they are mysteries. Our minds are too limited. They are just not capable to understand our BIG God. What I kept in mind is, however, that our God is forever faithful. He will keep His promise alive to those who love Him. He will not disappoint His children. Sometimes, when the tide comes, we feel that He is away and is not there for us. We are wrong, man! He is watching over us. He is moulding us. He is in the midst of making us perfect. He lets all those things happen to us so that we become better creatures. He is giving us challenges. Just keep in mind that every challenge that He gives is always within our abilities. He knows we are strong enough to bear it. He won't let things that are beyond our strengths happen to us. If such thing ever happened, however, trust me, He would be there for us.

Life is beautiful, don't you think? God didn't promise days without pains, but He promised to give us strength for the days and light for the ways.

My friend, you are strong when you are with Him. You can overcome this. You surely can. I believe that... :)

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