orangestory

My cmsk oral presentation is finally over. Thanks to God for giving me the confidence that I needed, and to Jairus, an intelligent NUS student-to-be, for giving me brilliant points and excellent sentences, and for teaching me how to win my case.

These few weeks I have realised that I have a lot of friends. In secondary school, I felt completely left out. Imagine to have only 2 playmates that were not even your classmates, and imagine to have your whole classmates think that you are a weirdo who has an attitude problem! Yep.. Life will be hell for you. I dont know what wrong things I had done in Secondary school. I didnt gossip, I didnt backstab, I didnt bitch around.. I understand that I was kinda like a volcano back then.. I could not control my emotion and will straight away vomitted everything out to my "best friend" (I put " " coz I think she hates me now). But apart from that, I was kind of melancholic, I didnt say out my thoughts enough, and I was a quiet gal, very far from loud.

Perhaps in sec school I was still a kid. My school in Singapore was a secular school, not like my sec school in Jakarta back then.. It was a Christian school, and majority of its pupils are Christians. We had prayers and Bible reading every morning, and a sermon once a week. My friends back then were very thoughtful and kind, cos they were Christians! Sometimes we share our thoughts, and everyone was willing to lend their shoulders for me to cry on. I love my sec school life in Indonesia.. Sigh.. Hope I could turn back time.. :S

I dont think I have an attitude problem now. I have learnt a lot from that nasty experience. I am now very different from secondary school. I am vibrant, and I make friends with everyone. One of my classmates is often surprised by how many friends I have gained in poly within such a short period of time.. Well, the reason is simple. In poly, I took part in events that are still "managable". Helping others set up a booth, attend talks and seminars, attend workshops, camps, and any other events.

Another thing, I am an anti-gossip person! I have never put any interests in gossipping, ever since in primary school, or best, ever since I was born! I am not like most girls. Sometimes I listen to them gossipping, but I never give any damn about their comments. I have my own life to care for, unless they themselves ask me to give any advices. Not that I am an apathetic person, I do care for their souls. But I dont like gossipping. It doesnt change someone's life. Perhaps one's life is awful or immoral, let's say. But does gossipping help? NO!! What we have to do is pray for that person, or approach the person with smile and make a difference in the person's life! Well, becoz of my limited english ability, what I can do is just praying for him/her. I believe in the power of prayers.

Whatever..

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