orangestory

No. No B. Sigh. This last two days had been such a mess. First, IISO exam. I studied the whole night but ended up doing a foolish thing of not carrying out the instructions given. Instead of choosing to do 3 questions, I did all 4! My goodness! I don't know how will the examiner(s) mark my paper, hopefully they will be merciful enough to mark all the 4 answers and choose the best 3. Sigh. However, I still thank Him anyway.

Day 2 is Business Accounting 1 paper. I have studied, yes, everyone knows it. But guess what? In the day itself, i forgot to bring my calculator!! Heaven and Earth know that calculators are very much needed in Accounting. Had no choice, I did mental calculation which slowed me down. Apart from that, there were MCQs and we were supposed to shade the OMR sheet. I again didn't have a 2b pencil with me, but luckily I took the correct mechanic pencil (I have 2 mechanic pencils, 1 with HB lead and 1 with 2b lead, and I took the 2b lead with me, phew~). The questions were enough to make my brain burst. I couldn't finish my paper (which was obvious, I had no calculator!) but well, I thank Him, anyway.

Tomorrow is Macroeconomics paper. It is not meant to be difficult. I have never felt that Econs paper is gonna be difficult. Everyone can easily Ace it if they study. The problem is: I have no mood to study!! OMG! Suddenly I had a very severe homesick, which caused my mind to keep on thinking about this 4-letter word: H-O-M-E! Oh no! It is such a waste to get a B in Econs!! Where is my mood to study? What on Earth is wrong with me??

Speaking of missing, I miss Jesus Christ. Yes, I prayed every single moment, but where is He? He seems so far away, I cannot feel His presence anymore. I miss Him. I miss the embrace of His hands, the hugs and the love. I want to have a deep kind of relationship, like Abraham's and Moses'. I want to have a victorious life with Him. But where is He? The last 2 days of exam were ended up screwed. Accounting was the worst. I didn't think it was difficult, but yet I have no confidence in getting an A. It is as if I have forgot Him when I did the paper. NO! I shouted for His help, I knew He would be there to help me out, I knew He was there. I wanted to be more than others. Hey, I am the head and not the tail! That is what the Bible says. I had done what God has taught me that I should not lean on my own understanding, instead I should trust in the Lord and acknowledge Him in all of my ways, and He will make my path straight. I have done the "ora et labora" thing, I believe I have done my part! But where is God? Where are you, God?

Just when I was about to post this blog, I remembered my days in O level. Sometimes I was over confident over something, but too chicken to think about big things in another things. I thought I was going to score a C in English, but ended up getting a B3. I thought I was going to get B for science, but ended up having an A. Hey, what you think is gonna be different with what He is going to give you. You might think that it is impossible now to score an A, but who knows? Nothing is impossible when you are walking with God. The faith that you sow will not grow and produce nothing. You will reap something that is worth it. Having a hope in God and trusting Him completely to handle the rest will not do you any harm. I have done my part, what is going to happen after this is beyond my control. Our God is able. It is the matter of faith. Do you trust Him completely?

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