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Indonesians.. lemme clarify this event.. :D



The place is at Bestway Building, BCS Chapel, podium A, #04-01. Ask me for directions, k? will be very glad to tell you =)

Quiries pls contact info@lastgen.org or sms 94874812... we, The Last Generation team will be more than happy to provide you with information..

Ayo donkk.. pada ikutann.. bakalan asik banget... kapan lagi nih ngomongin cinta gede2an giniii.. skalian knalan ma anak2 indo laennya.. seru dee.. ga rugi.. kapan lagi coba bayar 2 dolar dapet snacks, tea break, ma dinner sekaligus! bisa langsung ikutan KKR lagi.. ayo ayoo.. ga rugi deee... hehehehe...

ditunggu kehadirannya loohhh... =D

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This afternoon was my Statistics paper. I have scored an A for the coursework, and have aimed for another A for the main exam, but now, i can clearly see my 'A' is flying high to the sky, with wings on the left and the right side of it, leaving me here with just a .. err.. 'B'? or worse, a 'C' maybe? Well, I believe that miracles do exist, but.. will a miracle happen this time? I mean, it's my fault for making that crucial mistake, for misinterpreting the question.. for being too confident too, perhaps?? ~_~

Ok.

Is God teaching me something now?
I don't know.

Why did God allow me to make that mistake?
I don't know.

Why at the first place was i very careless?
I don't know.

Will i be able to concentrate for tomorrow's paper?
I don't know.

Will i flunk tomorrow's paper too?
I don't know.

When my parents say "nevermind" everytime i do my exams badly, do they really not mind?
I don't know.

Will my brother compare my results to his?
I don't know.

Who is to blame?
I don't know.

Can I stop worrying now?
I don't know.

Why all don't know?
I also don't know.

What i know is, i am very sad. very very sad. it's like... what is the need to study when in the end you still did badly for the paper? studying just making things worse because once you know that your mistakes are actually stupid, and you know you actually can do it, you will feel very bad, and very frustrated.

right?

don't know?

Anyway.. tried to study for econs' paper tomorrow. Guess what I did?

Took pictures of myself

Drew things on Econs' booklet

Lol. I do care a lot about my grades in the final, but right now I just can't concentrate!!! HELPPP!!

THE POEM

I knelt to pray but not for long,
I had too much to do.
I had to hurry and get to work
For bills would soon be due.

So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.
My Christian duty was now done
My soul could rest at ease.

All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer.
No time to speak of Christ to friends,
They'd laugh at me I'd fear.

No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry,
No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die.

I went before the Lord,
I came, I stood with downcast eyes.
For in his hands God held a book;
It was the book of life.

God looked into his book and said
"Your name I cannot find.
I once was going to write it down...
But never found the time"

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Come and join TLG for this event! Interested parties pls contact me asap for booking. Workshop and talkshaw is about BGR, several "narasumber"s will be invited, and the topics will be discussed in a fun and unforgettable way, with Indonesian as the language medium (if we can gather enough English speaking participants, we will consider giving an English translation). Concert and drama is free of charge, and the drama is rumoured to be fantastic. Do not miss!

(food and refreshments will be provided for the talkshow session)

Those who wish to register, or should there be any queries, please e-mail me HERE

See you all there! =D

First and foremost, lemme greet everyone who celebrate St. Valentine's Day a very happy valentine's day!

Me? Well, i treat valentine's day as nothing special. There are reasons behind it, though..

First.
Valentine's day is a day when we celebrate love, when we tell our loved ones how much we love them. My opinion is, well, why 14th February? I mean, isn't everyday the day when we cherish love from our loved ones? Isn't everyday the day when we show our love to people?

Second.
Loving is not about chocolates, gifts, or roses. It is about giving. It is about sacrifice. It is about commitment. Ok. Perhaps you sacrifice your money to buy gifts, but what is important is not about the gifts. It is about the commitment that you have towards the person. There is no point buying him or her chocolates when you do not intend to love the person until the end of your life. You don't show off your love to someone. Your loved ones can straight away feel that you truly love him/her, when you really do love him/her. If you think that your girl likes roses, and when you buy her a bunch of roses will make her day, then go ahead. Just do things with the right motivation, and don't give if you expect rewards in return. Don't give your girlfriend roses if you want sex in return. Don't give your boyfriend chocolates if you want some words of love from him. Just give and that's it.


Well, seriously speaking, i don't see a sense in teenage dating. To me, dating someone is to know the person more mentally and spiritually. NOT PHYSICALLY! Dating someone is just one step before the real big thing: marriage. It is the time when know the person more personal, and make these big decisions: am i able to love him/her in whatever situations? Am I able to love the person, to sacrifice for the person, to accept him/her whoever, whatever he or she is until the end of my life? For guys: Is she really the one who carries my missing rib? For girls: Is he the owner of this rib i am carrying?
If your question is, -sorry- how big is your $#%&#$%& *cencored*, then it is certainly NOT love. It is lusts.

Another one last thing. Your date and you will never suit each other. I have heard a lot from my friends who have problems with their girlfriends or boyfriends. When I asked why they broke up, their answers were "we don't suit each other." Friends, let me tell you something. A girl and a boy will NEVER suit each other. We are created to be different. You can tell straight away we are different in our physical appearance. Not only that, mentally, we are also different. Girls tend to take everything emotionally, while boys see everything logically. Girls can tell, while boys can do. We are different. That is why DATING is NEEDED. It is a period when you can learn to accept the person as what he or she is, to adjust yourself to be with him, and to contribute your strengths so as to cover his weaknesses. (and vice versa, of course).

Oops. I think i have talked too much. Is this a blog, or an online lecture? LOL. You could say that spoken is a lot easier than done. This may be easy for me who has never been into a relationship before. Friends, temptations will always be there. Stay away from them and believe that God will give you a lot more that you can never imagine.

One really really last thing for indonesians in Singapore (singaporean or other non-indonesian speaking friends can close their eyes on this):
YOU ARE INVITED for a COOL event this month! Check diz out!!



Interested parties please contact me HERE, and tell me which session you are attending. The location for the event is in Bestway Building, 12 Prince Edward Road (10 minutes walk from Tanjong Pagar MRT, I can give you some directions if you need). Any queries please do not hesitate to ask me. Oh.. the workshop and talkshow is about love and BGR, how to maintain the relationship, etc etc..and will be discussed in a fun and unforgettable way. This will be conducted in Indonesian. The drama for the concert will take around 30 minutes, and is rumoured to be fantastic. I think they will also be providing some meals before the concert for fellowship purposes, but I am not sure about this. So come and join TLG, for this very special thing this February! Looking forward to seeing you on that very dayy!! =D =D

C ya!

I would be very happy to announce to you that... *drum beating* I HAVE FINISHED ALL MY PROJECTS THIS SEMESTER!!! Woohooo! Imagine how happy am i? Lol. No. I am not so very extremely happy, to be honest. Why? Coz the main exams are approaching in a week's time T_T haiz... need to wait for another 2 weeks before the real freedom is mine.

Umm.. went to the Last Generation (my church's Youth ministry) service just now.. I was quite surprised that the praise and worship went very spiritfully.. i mean, people there were so zealful to worship God. It was awesome.. Usually on Sunday, during the YRC sunday which I usually attend, the passion is just not there. Young people clap their hands like grandmas and grandpas.. It is so sad, actually. Well, my church's youth ministry is missing quite a number of members.. some of them who have finished their studies in Singapore go to other countries like Australia and United States as their next destionations, but the others prefer to go to another church. Obviously the Spirit of the Lord need to be "injected" to the youth members. It is like... we are all dead--spiritually. It is a good news that today's service's praise and worship was really "refreshing" to me, and of course, to God Himself. I am just hoping that this happens not only for today.

Went home after church, I met heriyanto with his sister, monica, and his friend, Frankie. We chit chatted quite a while, talking bout this and that, and just 2 stops before I got off the bus, I just knew that Frankie was actually Yulia's little brother. --..-- The world is sooo freagginly small, don't u think? Frankie lives in Hana's and Terra's previous home.. >.<>Can you, inconsiderate people, stop speaking singlish? My first intention to come here was to polish my english, but it went to no avail as you all have made me speak singlish. I spent a lot of money to come to Singapore, but it all went down the drain..)

Indonesian languange are also full of 'ingredients' that make the languange not original anymore.
Standard Indonesian: Kalian sudah makan? (i dropped the word "apakah" as it sounds too formal.. i am not talking about formal language here, i am refering to standard SPOKEN indonesian..)
made-up indonesian: Lu orang uda pada makan blon?
LOL. what a huge difference, but still, it sounds friendlier and it creates a certain kind of familiarity when you use the made-up language.

Ok. Let's cut the language part and move to the next item.

So our next item is any other businesses. Any other businesses, everyone?
*everyone shakes their heads*

/HUH?/

Ok, if we don't have any other business, I shall close the meeting. Before that, let me announce you that the next meeting will be held next month, same time, same place. Any objections?
*everyone says no*
Perfect. The agenda for the next meeting will be sent in two weeks time. Thank you. Meeting's closed.

/HUH??/

LOL.. too much business communication skills thingy... Pardon mi.

Phew... finally my Freehand Drawing assignments are all done. I slept at 3 plus this morning but still couldn't complete all my drawings. Luckily today we didn't have a Business Accounting 2 Lecture in the morning (and poor Daryl came to the campus in the morning only to find out that there's no lecture today.. LOL!), so I completed everything in the morning.. Oohh.. it feels like.. BleaGhs x_x Finally!!

And today was like a VERY NICE day.. Lol. I got to know my Statistics coursework and got an A for that.. And the whole class only has 3 A students.. >.< Huhu.. Then I went for FreeHand drawing class and submit all my work.. =D and Today too, I got to know my WHOLE GRADE for freehand drawing.. and it is an A!! Wakakakakakaka... I am so extremely happy.. If it is a 'B' then I think I will cry the whole day today >.< I worked very hard for this subject, and drawing is supposed to be my lifetime desire (LOL, so exaggerated), so if it is not an 'A', i will be very upset.

Walking back from school, I met Vishal in my block. And when I asked him what was he doing here, he told me one surprising fact: VISHAL LIVES IN THE SAME BLOCK AS ME!! Omg.. I has been like 4 years since I live here, and almost 1 year since I am in TP, and I think I have never once seen Vishal anywhere in the block, and neither does he.

Hmmm... freaky.. haha.

Neways.. i just learnt that Serla wants to visit Singapore for 2 to 3 days, and my dad is coming on the Valentine's Day.. Hai.. I need to study for my exams mann.. >.< They come in an absolutely wrong timee... Nvm la.. haha..

Neways i wanna go to bed now.. its late and i need to come to school early tmr.. Soo.. see u around.. :)

I HATE SCHOOL!! LOL. Yeah.. Quit School is the bez!! >.< When's my graduation?? 2 years' time?? Whoahh.. bestt...!! >.<

Sigh..

I don't hate school because of the bitchy friends or watever.. It's the projects that are @#$^$&ly sucky. While all polys are promoting their institution to the prospective students, let me tell you this as a poly student: DON'T GO TO POLY! It will waste your youthh!! You will have to sleep at 2am++ the EARLIEST during project months, and this project moths can mean up to 2 months (or even more)! Not only projects, you will have another paper-based EXAMINATIONS after that!! And this EXAM's weightage can be up to 60%, you obviously won't want to flunk it (which means you also need to MUG and HIT your head on the SUPER THICK BOOKS, and super messy notes~!) And during the term time, you will be ASSESSED everyday thru your COURSEWORK, and there will be POP QUIZZES so make sure you are FULLY PREPARED during Tutorials!~ In the midst of term time, there will be ASSIGNMENTS (individual or group), etc.. etc.. My advice is: Go JC and HAVE FUN!!

JC students, on the other hand, will say that JC is more stressful! I tell you something, it's a myth!! I hate it when they tried to console me and say, "oh.. dont worry, your workload are not as much as ours.." HUH?? THEY DARE TO SAY THIS???!!!!?? *slap 'em*. They dont know how it is like to be a polytechnic student! They believe in a lie that say that POLY students are the 2nD claSs PeoPLe!! What the .. !!

Ok, maybe JC can lead you to university easier than other institutions. I won't say anything about uni lah.. coz university is worse! But hey, uni students are MORE MATURE~~ See their age?? 20 PLUS!! So, when you are still 17 or 18, PLEASE DO CONSIDER YOUR LATE TEENAGE YEARS!! ARRGHH!! I HATE PROJECTS!!

LOL. ExcuSe ME.. Maybe the above are just my 'pelampiasan' of overly tired, overly stressed, overly bored, overly nauseated, and overly sickened me~~ I need a new BATTERY.

The Holy SPirit whispered to me RIGHT NOW: "OHH.. erase that!! ERASE thatt!! You don't bring blessings to anyone if you post that!~"

ARRGHH...~~!! Sometimes it is pressurised to be the AmBaSsaDoR of the KinGdoM of HeaVen.. prestigious position, i know, but you need to Watch watever you sae and do, so that it wont lead anyone to a false way.

So.. PARDON ME LAH..

I WANNA QUIT SCHOOL AND GO BACK INDOO!! Mann,, I miss my FamiLy!! Ok, this is my flesh. Go against it you sleeping spirit!! >.< *whack my spirit*

Forgive me, Father Lord God.. I can't help it~
*cried*

Today was the very 1st time I tried facial masking. I was walking down and had my feet step on Watson's for a quick look only, and I saw this Montagne Jennesse Calming Spa Facial Face Tonic.. It was written "anti stress" on the package and the 2 words certainly caught my attention since I was extremely under pressure for the past 2 months (and I pity my skin too, coz I have been sleeping at past 2am everyday). Without further thinking, I took two sachets and walked to the counter.

I had never had any facial mask before, and this one was really great! The sensation it gave was like.. ooohhh.. soooo heavenly nice! I laid down on my bed with the facial mask on, and felt myself taken to somewhere near heaven. I don't know what on earth they put in the ingredients (there are a lot of Chemical names, and the last time I took Chemistry was in secondary school), but I am sure they put Menthol in it, coz it was extremely cooling.. My face reacted so positively, very smooth and rejuvenated.. I am sure if my facial skin could communicate in a certain way, it would ask for more.. as if it was given some ecstasy or something. Haha. Ok, I am not paid by Montagne whatever the name is, I am just very amazed by the effects a facial mask can have on my face. Lol. Perhaps this is because I have never had a facial mask before.., so my skin is still very primitive to this kind of thing.

Look at me! LOL

Anyway.. the BIG main exams are coming really soon. Dunno fortunately or unfortunately, my dad is going to come to Singapore nxt week. I hope when my dad is here, I won't get so easily distracted, because I need to study for the main exam. I dont want to get a low GPA.. I certainly dont. C is a horror to me. Last semester I got a C for my Communication skills (sorry lah, my English very lousy mah..) and I cried for 2 days just because for that 1 C. Tell me I am so greedy or what, but I just don't want to get a C. I used to heck all my subjects during sec3 and sec4, I didn't care much about results until O level was near. Just after my brother came to university and scored a straight A for all his subjects in the 1st semester, I started to compare my results to his. I don't know why I created this sibling rivalry myself, coz my parents do not pressure me to score exactly like him. I guess this is what sucky about having siblings. You feel like you are second best if one of your siblings scores much higher than you. It is frustrating sometimes. My brother told me to go to NTU and take business course there. He can dream about this. First, I will try my best to find a business IT course rather than only business. It is a good foundation I am getting here in Poly. I love my course. Business IT people will be the stars in the future (at least this is what my dad says).. Well.. local universities hardly offer this course, so, if it is not possible to study both, I will go and explore the IT field instead.

Secondly, NTU people are chauvinist! Ok, not all are. But.. yeah.. watever. Lol.

It is not that I cannot enter that school (academically speaking). Ok. My brother is smart lah. I can never compete to my brother academically. He is much smarter than me. But my parents said I am smarter than him coz my IQ was higher by 2 points. Lol. IQ? What is IQ?? You and I know that IQ doesnt tell the truth. How you perform in school shows more accuracy of your intelligence rather than IQ tests results. Yes, it is true that your dilligence plays a part in your GPA. But it is no point if you are a hardworking student but your intelligence is just not there to support your dilligence. Sad story, huh? Haha. Ok. I am not dilligent. Yes, I attend lectures and hardly skip them, but the lecturers were just so darn boring until i feel like sleeping during lectures. Even sadder story? Lol. But dun worry, I have never slept in Lecture theatres before..

So how?

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I just read an article in my church's youth ministry's weekly newsletter, and it's indeed a good article and has totally changed the way I used to think for the past few weeks. The article really reprimanded me about how i performed for the past view weeks. Here, let me quote some of the paragraphs:

"My teacher looked at me.. and she smiled. She said, 'You shouldn't give up. Even if it seems impossible, you still have to give your all till the end of the race.'

"Many times I stop and sometimes I walk backwards. Sometimes I would sin the same sin and would just cry out desperately to God, 'How can I reach You with all these sins following me? I just can't carry on." But He will always say, 'Well, you are still in the race. If I don't think you can make it, I will never let you stay in the race. The sins won't leave you unless you run to Me with your everything. So, get up on your feet and run."

"I don't know what your struggles are, but if you are reading this, I can assure that you are still in the race. Don't give up on Him as long as He still keeps you in the race. There will be times when He decides that enough is enough, just like the fruitless tree that He cursed. But now is NOT the time!"

I have been thinking all the way that my projects are extremely demanding, so demanding until i believe that no beings would be able to finish it, unless that being is a superior person. It is utterly impossible for you to finish 11 sketches, including the sketching of Temasek Poly's exterior (A2 size), the sketching of any complex machine (A1 size), and 8 sketchings of any object you see (A4 size). This is only for my Freehand Drawing, I still have other things to do, like my website, completed with contents, images, animations, audio and video, and also it must include JavaScript applications, which my tutor DID NOT give us any practical session on this, plus my NMM Journal which requires me to examine 4 websites, go through them thoroughly, comment, and write some JavaScripts or CSS stylesheets for each website... and tell you what.. the deadline for ALL the assignments I stated above (Yes, ALL!) is NEXT WEEK! When I say next week, it is really next week, 7 days ahead from now. And, between the 7 days, there is 1 day when I have a summative test, with weightage of 30%, and this test is NOT easy, which means I need to spend my time STUDYING in order to score it.

Just imagining the things that I need to work on makes me real dizzy. Each day I have been sitting in front of the comp doing the unrealistic website, with no idea on how am I going to finish it on time. Everyday I feel hopeless, I feel like giving up everything. I need someone to help me, but found nobody. My church friends don't understand what I am struggling with. Ok, they prayed for me once during cellgroup session, and my cellgroup leader always sends me some encouraging words. She has been like a pillar for me, but sadly, the pillar is not strong enough to hold me. My mum always says that I should just do my part. But the thing is, my part is way too heavy for me.

/Strength/

That is exactly what I am lacking. I JUST HAVE NO STRENGTH TO DO IT!~ I am WEAK!

Today, I just realised that GOD is MY strength. I have always thought in a very narrow perspective. I visualised everything using my own spectacles. I have never put on God's special specs, which means an act of faith. Sounds too cheesy, huh? But yea, after pondering for a while, I realised that I have always been doing everything using my own capability, which is why it seems impossible. Anyway, God once whispered to me one day in the past, "My power is made perfect in weakness."

I don't know why, but now I feel strong, because His right hand is holding my left. I am very grateful that I hold this Christian belief. It has been the source of power to me, like the electricity when I am in a "low-bat" state.

Now it's time for me to RUN TOGETHER with God (coz if I rely on my own strength, you know what will happen: I won't survive!~) with a POSITIVE mindset. I know I will still be alive til the end of next week. :P