orangestory

I don't exactly know what I was feeling, but I just felt like puking.

Not that they are not a perfect match though, just that I finally felt how stupid I was to fall for him.

He was a freaking bad asshole to begin with, if I can't really say the bad F word. He is the kind of guy who likes to play and can never be serious. The one whose hobbies include making fun of people. After I graduated from TP, I made a simple swear to myself that I would never ever see him again, no matter what it takes. I have turned down my friends' efforts to have some kind of meet-ups after graduation for as little as 3 times, and I believe it's gonna be more.

To think of it, why am I avoiding him so much? After all, I am now living a better life. I am studying in one of Singapore's prestigious universities, I passed all my subjects, I have enough money to treat myself, and most importantly, I have A LOVING BOYFRIEND.

Oh please, my boyfriend is way taller than he is, certainly more handsome in ANY ANGLE, and more muscular. Additionally, my boyfriend is a much better kisser than he is. He is also more humble and always ready to be here for me anytime I want. Simply put, he is just a phone-call away. He respects me for who I am, willing to wait for me, and look at me differently in a way that makes me feel so special. He takes me to places I never expect, he opens up a new dimension in life, and he is not ashamed of loving me. He protects me like a diamond and will never let me walk alone at night. He is honest, he loves me no matter how bad my day is, he loves me when I'm feeling down, he loves me when I'm happy, he loves me when I'm sick, he loves me when I'm broke, he is who he is, and he let me be who I am. I love him with all my heart and soul. My boyfriend is everything to me.

So what's now to avoid? That guy is nothing to me. He can never compete with me. I can always see him with head held high, step him on the ground and walk over him.

But with all these achievements, why do I still want that guy to go down even deeper? I even wish he should never ever be happy. I do not want him to move on, I want him to get stucked being a fool. I want all girls in the world to dump him miserably.

Am I being very bad? Just once I want to laugh AT him. He played me and I want him to feel the misery every second in his life. I wanna be successful. I wanna be an entrepreneur, creating jobs for the unemployed. One day I'm gonna be stunning. One day I am gonna be THE GIRL. One day I'm gonna look at you disgustingly for the last time, and since then, I am not gonna look back.