Say a little prayer
Dear God, i want a tall and handsome and whatever-the-bible-teaches-us-to-be kind of man.
Amen.
| at 10:59 AM
Dear God, i want a tall and handsome and whatever-the-bible-teaches-us-to-be kind of man.
Amen.
| at 10:03 PM
I wish love was the way to show us our soul mate. But no, you can love someone and then realize that the person you fell in love with isn't exactly meant to be yours. Even if he/she loves you back. Heartbreaking as it sounds, but still you are expected to be faithful that you will soon find that special someone, even though it is hard for you to believe that there will be anyone that can be better than him/her. Funny because I always thought that among faith, hope, and love, the greatest thing of all is love. But in this kind of situation, i think having faith is the hardest thing to do. Falling in love is easy, but having faith is difficult.
| at 11:32 PM
Sometimes when God closes one door, often we forget that He opens another.
| at 8:50 PM
Betapa kumencintaiMU
Segala yang t'lah terjadi
Tak pernah sendiri jalani hidup ini
Selalu Menyertai
Betapa kumenyadari
Di dalam hidupku ini
KAU selalu memberi rancangan terbaik
Oleh karena kasih
BAPA, sentuh hatiku, ubah hidupku
Menjadi yang baru
Bagai emas yang murni
Kau membentuk bejana hatiku
BAPA, ajarku mengerti
Sebuah kasih yang selalu memberi
Bagai air mengalir yang tiada pernah berhenti
| at 12:31 PM
| at 10:02 AM
What hurt me really badly is how I have wasted this time not preaching the gospel more to him. Because while he knows Jesus is good and he prays before meals and stuff, I am not completely sure how it means for him to truly know Jesus and let Him takeover whatever difficult circumstances he might face. I know the decision he had to make is extremely difficult - to choose between a girl or his family - both are the ones he truly loves deeply.
He chose his family, and sacrifice the only girl he wants to marry.
But if only he involves God in the decision making: the result might be the same though. But at least he will not be too hurry making this decision, and the impact might not be as harsh. Because I know He is gentle.
My only wish and prayer is not for him to be happy with his family (although I should by right do that) but my only prayer is for him to know Jesus more, and to always be holding on to God in his life.
| at 1:10 PM
When things don't work out in a relationship, just think that maybe he's not meant for me.
Unless you are married. Man, that sucks if you are married and things don't work out between you and your spouse. Especially when you have kids. GG.
I won't wanna be in that situation.
| at 10:20 AM
This post is dedicated to my appreciation to my friends who has stood by me all these days. And also to God. He heals my broken heart faster than anything else. He clearly told me that He has something better in-store for me.
Thank you to those who has listened to my unbelievable break-up story (I still can't believe it, let alone digest it). You guys are extra excellent.
RR: thanks for reminding me that he will never be happy. That boosts my ego. Lol.
YA: Thanks for listening.
WK: Girl thank you!! Thank you so much. I know you are the one who understands the most, because you know him well enough and you have been through all this similar shit as well in the past. Not with the same guy though but who cares. And help me scold him in Chinese when he's back. Haha.
FI: Thank you sis for reminding me of God and His plans. I went to Him and my heart amazingly stopped bleeding. It still hurts, but at least the blood has stopped dripping.
Abba Father, my God and Saviour Jesus Christ, through the form of the Holy Spirit: Thank You for everything, for this life You have given me. Though it may not be so smooth but You promised that You will be there at all times to hold my hand. And THANK YOU for keeping that promise, although I may have forgotton You many times, but You are still there, watching over me with love and showing me how to live. I thought all the "future" I have created with him for three years is already crushed within days, but You told me "Hey. Why worry about the future? I created the future. Don't ever worry on that one." Then You told me to flip to Jeremiah 29: 11-14. You showed me a much more fabulous future You created for me. You closed this one little door but You opened a way much bigger door for me. Thank You so much.
While I am still broken and crushed, I am slowly building up again. Building up to a much stronger person, a much better individual.
Born in Jakarta, 11 July 1988
Moved to Singapore in 2002
Singapore Management University
School of Information Systems
Graduated from Temasek Polytechnic