orangestory

It's no school to me. I felt totally great becoz at last, I could stay at home and get a little life. I could wake up as late as I want, and most importantly, had a break from going to TP which gets more and more sickening each day. I treated today as a sacred Friday, as if the world's gonna end tomorrow. It was really heaven, until finally I received an sms. 1 unread message. From: Daisy.

I opened the message unwillingly. And the message went something like, "please collect the global star award ticket booklet from me on monday. Advisor wants maincom to sell." My fingers quickly replied, "But I am selling tickets.." I wanted to put the emphasise in the AM, and made it in caps at first, but I did not want to sound rude, so decided to type in all lowercase. As fast as a sprinter, she replied my message back, "You need to take 20".

Great. G-R-E-A-T. The world's having so much fun on me now. I got my first booklet consisting of 10 tickets from TPIS this Tuesday, and I did not even manage to sell a single tix. I have promoted the tickets online and offline to attract my friends to buy, but they got turned off when they see the dresscode, which is ethnic. That's not the only case. Most of them can't make it on Thursday, especially in the evening, and some felt that $5 is a little too expensive. And now GCC wants me to get another booklet consisting of another 10 tickets. Just tell what's greater than that?? It's just rediculous. The reason that because I am a maincomm in 2 clubs hence I need to sell 20 tickets is so unreasonable and can't be accepted. It is clear enough that I can't sell a single one to my friends. I'm no marketing student. I have tried my best and this is what I get. Don't you think that keeping the tickets in OSC and make the students buy from there is better than having me mobilise 20 tickets? I can't turn the tickets into money. I will return you tickets in the end instead of money. And I'm being serious now. I hope I can get subcomms to show me their support by buying my tickets, or perhaps, selling my tickets.

I have tonnes of words to say, but I just don't know where to start. I think my position now is way too heavy for me. Being a maincomm in 2 clubs is unbelievably tough. I seriously don't know what was I thinking when Alvin approached me and asked to be in GCC maincomm. Ok. He rephrased the words in such a nice way until I thought I can manage.

As soon as Swee Kee knew that I am being the liaison person between the two clubs, she said, "I have a feeling that Alvin's gonna ask you to do more things than just recording minutes." Well, to be honest, Swee Kee has gained my respect. I think she is very thoughtful and always goes through everything thoroughly. I really did not think about this before. I should have thought about that, after knowing Alvin for quite a few months, but I did not. Miss Boey, my TPIS advisor, has shown me the necessary support and told me that if I feel too presurised being in GCC, I can always approach her. But Daisy is different. She can be quite demanding. Wait.. "quite" is not a really appropriate word to say. Should I say, "very"? No offence to Daisy, this is just what I'm thinking.

I have too much commitment in one go. I have my school which is VERY important to me, my parents, and my future, I have spiritual commitment with God my Saviour and other church commitment in the ministry, I have TPIS, I have GCC, and right now I have Poly Forum, and soon I will have this Tampines RC thing. Tell you what, I feel like ordering a coffin asap.

All I can say now is hopelessness. I am hopeless for both clubs. I personally don't think that I can endure it until the end of my junior year. I can't even manage my time well. My schoolwork is neglected. I can give neither clubs my 100% commitment. I know it very distinctly that I'm gonna let both clubs go in my senior year. I certainly will.

I'm glad I'm back to YRC Sunday service after been missing for 2 weeks. I guess I really need this coz I have been further and further away from God. The Spirit within me always whispers that I need to mend and work on my relationship with God.

I realised I have been acting like ordinary mankind. I have been talking bad about people, gossiping, cursing and swearing, being nasty to certain people, grumbling, and doing countless of other unworthy things. Being a Christian, I am supposed to be different from others. The reason is simple, because I don't belong to the world. This world. I belong the the Lord, and thus, I need to act things like God. The way He spreads love, the way He make others feel when He is with them, the way He does this and that... Yes, I know that. I learnt those theory in Sunday School. However, I did not put them into practice. It's wrong and it needs changes. Quick one.

I went to the Youth service this afternoon and there was a testimonial from a young lady, saying how she was taken to another dimention by God. Jesus took her to both hell and heaven. Usual story, you might say. However, the way she described hell was real. For those who don't believe, I tell you, Hell and Heaven do exist. You will face judgement (God Himself be the judge), and finally be put in only one of the two after you leave the Earth. You don't know when you will die. It can be tonight, tomorrow, or years later.

Hell

- Screams, wails, tears, and blood everywhere.

- It STINKS!!

- Scary, some places are very dark, with extra small cubicles, and there is a human in each cubicle.

- Everlasting fire that won't and can't be extinguished.

- The walls and the floors were full of blood, mucus, saliva, and it's really disgusting.

- People being tortured everywhere, but after that, he/she comes back to normal, ready to be tortured again. In other words, everlasting torture. Torture that won't stop.

• Some of the tortures are:
  + Eyeballs being taken out, blood flows like rivers, but after that, there is a new eyeball again, ready to be taken out again. This goes on and on and on forever.
  + The human inside the cubicles that I said earlier digerogotin ulat-ulat kecil from the top of the head to the tip of the toe. After all the body is gone, and left only the skeleton, there will be a new body again, ready to be eaten by worms soon after.
  + Dikulitin.
  + 2 girls of the same gender were tied together, and so as guys. Then hung above a valley of fire, ready to be "boiled". I guess this goes for the homosexuals...
  + Being scratched, mulutnya dirobek, mukanya dicakar-cakar.
  + Body parts being cut to small pieces again and again.

- The people who are in hell were not only those unbelievers, there are also those who called themselves Christians but do not follow the teachings of Jesus. You may be shocked, but there are pastors too. Wicked pastors.

Heaven

- Lots of houses. Some of them are big, but some are small. Some are built, some are still under construction. The big houses are for those who were faithful till the end, who served God with the right motivation.

- There are barracks too, for those who just received Christ before their deaths.

- Fresh fruits can just be picked from the trees, and a new fruit will pop out again.

- The floors are made from crystals, the walls are made from gold. How rich God is.

- There is a very big, beautiful and awesome castle. It's where God lives. Some of the people whom He has chosen also live there. Inside there is always a party to celebrate Christ, praising and worshipping God.

- There are angels with and without wings. Those without wings are to praise and worship God, those with wings are for the battle of the spirit.

- People found there are in their most "strong" state. No old and weak people. They are given a new 'body' when they entered heaven. All handsome and pretty.

- John the disciple, Paul the evangelist, David the King, and Moses the prophet are there. They said, "just grab His heart. Be intimate with Him. You will sure guarantee a place here."

- There are everlasting joy.

- Last but not least, Jesus' face is really lovely. Very, very different from what we usually see in pictures. He is a good-looking, ultimate heartthrob. (Hearing this makes me can't wait to see Jesus face to face, the lover of my soul!)

All believers, seriously, spread around the good news that ALL of us CAN go to heaven, provided that we believe in Jesus. There is NO OTHER WAY to heaven, for He is the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through Him. (John 14:6)

Hellow!

So I am chosen to represent TP in this year's Polytechnic Forum. Hais.. thanks to that, I can't seem to go back to my home country during the vacation. Also, thanks to TPIS for making me so busy even on my holiday. -.-

Ok, I guess I am just being too cynical. I mean, hey, this is life. You want something extra, you have to give in something too. No pain, no gain. It's true that you will have something powerful in your testimonial later on, but hey, after this you also need to go to university, don't you think it's better for you to concentrate on your studies first??

There is something that I just can't understand with my fellow committee members. They don't seem to be busy with projects, even though it's project week! I was like.. WHAT!?? Why are they so free? I almost wanted to break into tears whenever TPIS organised a meeting during project week. My projects were like killing me, and they really succeeded in making me slept for 2 hours a day, how can they still have meetings that end at 10pm++??

When I shared this to them, they don't believe me. "2 hours a day?? Really ah?? Wah you really put in too much effort on your projects lah.." Hello, what do you mean by "too much"?? I even think my group is too lazy compared to the other groups. Or is it that Engineering school students have never gone through this kind of things in their whole life before?? I personally don't think so. But why are they so surprised about?? And that "too much" effort that you are talking, oh PUHleasee.. I can even now tell you that I will fail my E-business Mgmt Project!! YES! After those 2 hours sleep, that is the reward I'm gonna get. How can I pass that one when my report was not even up to standard??

Okay, whatever it is, I chatted with Suhandy just now and he asked what course I am in. I shared about how I decided not to enroll in design but chose Business IT instead, and stuff like that. I told him how I hardly interested in IT or Business, but in the end he told me something that really convinces me that I am in a right course: "Well.. but it's good, nonetheless. That's a booming course nowadays, you know?" Alright. Perhaps he didn't sound like the way I phrase it. Lol. But I didn't change the meaning okay?? Yahh.. knowing that you are in a right course gives you the motivation to move on, right? Especially with the killing projects and all that.. hihihi..

Yap.. as the title says it all.. IT'S TERM BREAK TIME!!! Woo Hoo!

It seems like my hardwork ends today, but actually it doesn't. I still have my projects, TPIS meetings, poly forum thingies, basically LOTS of things to do during the break. Call it a break, but it doesn't really mean the "break" where you spend all your time slacking at home doing nothing.

My mum messaged me and aksed if I would like to go back. Well, I WOULD VERY GRATEFUL IF I COULD!! Haha! I mean, who doesn't want?? Sometimes, being awfully active in a CCA is not always nice, to me, if not to anyone else. Remembering that I am a foreigner and my family is not around me, it's kinda sad when you have to spend your holiday alone. And guess what?? To my horror, I am going to spend my 2-months vacation in Singapore!!!! Thanks to whoever deserves it, I have to attend the Poly Forum which is held on the 18th-21th of September. I just learnt that that is actually in the middle of the vacation. Why can't they just make it a day or two after the semester ends? Or perhaps just before the new semester starts? Why must it in the middle of the whole bloody vacation??

I know some of you may think, hey, you can go back right after the poly forum thingy what... Yeah right, I have lots of plans for this coming vacation!! I have promised myself that I would spend my vacation unwisely, meaning that I am going to do something! What's the something? I've told my mumy that I want to learn hairdressing, and she said OK! Tell me what's more cool than that?? And I have also told my daddy that I am gonna learn how to drive and get my license quick, so I can drive my mum or my dad to their desired place if they are tired, and he said very well! Also, I told myself to learn a bit of programming, as the diploma that I'm pursuing now does not teach any of the programming stuff.

Learning 3 stuff in 2 months is manageable, but how about in 3 weeks? Even driving alone is impossible to master in 3 weeks' time. I have asked the hairdressing school and learnt that it's gonna take me about 6 months to qualify. However, to my relief, they do offer a 2-months intensive course apart from the usual 6 months. But hey, you only have 3 weeks, Louisa...

Sigh, anyway, for the time being, I do hope that I enjoy my break. I have always been telling myself not to be tempted by the movies or the computer games. Or even the music. I told myself to hold on and do my school stuff first. You study first, and do the other things later during the break. And I nearly can't believe that I have reached the break that I have been waiting for!! OMG! Okay, guess I gotta go and have fun! C ya later time. Buh-bai :)