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HI!!!

There are TONNES of updates i can blabs about.... Hmm.. my blog's getting rotten? Hahaha, thats not the thing. I AM getting BUSIER, that's the thing.

ON SCHOOL:

School's getting more and more demanding and textbooks are starting to talk greek to me, especially OTBS. It's true that I scored DISTINCTION in project phase 1, but so what? It's just a mere 5% afterall, the thing is, can I get another A or distinction in phase 2 and 3? Answer is no. I took my assessment phase 3 just last thursday, and I scored 13 out of 20. What a shame. If only I used "for loop", "strlen" and "is_numeric", I could have scored higher. SIGH!!! I scored FULL MARKS in debugging la for goodness' sake! Why should I get an extremely lousy grade for programming???? The reason is because I'm a no programmer. Give me calculus, even though it's hard, I would still be willing to sit down and do the bloody question. I would try to use whatever attempts that I think can solve the question and still happy with it. That's part of debugging rite? Lol. Give me an output and ask me to code, I will die.

Jackson just informed us on our group assignment this afternoon in the lecture. And guess what? We are required to BUILD a blog system from scratch. Imagine Louisa is developing a BLOGGER??? Sigh. Is he mad??? And the deadline is 14th Feb. That's my FRIENDSHIP DAY, can?????? (I'm organising an event called friendship day [will change the name soon] on 14th Feb, TP-ers, PLEASE COME!!)

Last wednesday, Belinda gave back our test papers. I scored an A for Marketing!!! HAHAHA... That's PURELY my GOD's work!!!! Coz I studied in the morning all the way to the afternoon on the day of the test itself (no time to study at home days before coz I have appointments and stuff 4 consecutive days before the test)... So I'm extremely delightful to hear that I actually scored an A. Lol.

TPIS Meeting went REALLY long just now, but it's okay because we are organising a very huge event... the TP SPORTS FIESTA'07!!! Yeah!! Winners will get vouchers (either a restaurant, a cafe, or even a LAN Gaming vouchers) to celebrate their victory, and all sports participants will receive a certificate each. We are proposing street soccer, badminton, six-a-side cricket, basketball, and friendly captain's ball (no competition is going on, just purely games for fun)

ON COMPANY:

My mum and my dad are fully supportive, not yet to talk about my cousin and my uncle. Thanks. Because of them, I can have an overseas network. Still a very small one, but good enough to start.

Mr. Ben said it would be good if I make it a habit to come down to the company everyday. It's not impossible, true, but I just can't. First, CCA stuff which always have meetings until very late. Second, there is Ci Vivi in the house I can't possibly give her the impression that I leave the house everyday and come back late at night. Third, church stuff. It's awkward to come to the company on SUNDAY. The Bible says, leave the Sabbath Day for Me (God, I mean). I don't know, I just feel that I meet Mr. Ben and Jiayi more than I meet my own God. I know something's wrong with me. I'm not the type of person who is crazy about earning money. It's true that I'm not born or raised up in a wealthy family, but my parents have planted some values in me not to see money as God, because the love for money is the root to all evils (This is what the Bible says). I always tell myself not to be so materialistic. I told myself, if I earn, that's fully because of God's grace. God wants to bless me financially, this is why I earn. I work, I do things, I opp people, I share, all is for me to get extra. But God is still the One who decides whether I should get the money or not. I do something, God decides if my efforts worth my wishes. God wants me to be blessed from all aspects, and he give the best out of everything. So if He says no, I believe that He has something much better for me.

Not only injecting some materialistic sense into my flesh, they teach me to dream big. Ok. There's nothing wrong to dream big. Even the Church teaches us to dream big. But their DREAM BIG is really DREAM BIG literally. Like I am dreaming of having my own car at the age of 20. Impossible? That's called dreaming big (to them). Haiz.. They teach us to imagine things that we cant afford so we can work even harder to earn the money. Dots rite? I mean, so what if I have a car at the age of 20? So I can drive to university???? That's not the reason why I'm earning now, is it??

And OH! My DAD offers Mr. Yuan Jie a lift from the SoeHatta Airport to wherever he stays. Woah. I don't know my dad can suddenly be so free. Lol...

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JAKARTA!!!!!

Kamar gue mengecewakan nih............... panggungnya jadi jelek gitu....... huhuhu.... siapa sih yang bikin??? dudung... gak ikutin gambar yang uda gw kasi.... pake pengetahuan sendiri..... arghhhh........ jelekkkkkkkk....... huhuhuhuhu.......

ngapain gw k jkt ya? haha.. masa cuma pulang? gue ke sini with a mission...... misi apa? cari duit.. huwehehehehehehehehhe......... im coming with a mission........... lol

ayo ayo pada nyari duit bareng2.......................... gue seneng deh... huwaahahaha........................... komunikasi dari jakarta ke atasan2 di singapur............. serasa gue ini agen pentink! huwehehehehehehe ok ok imajinasi gue terlalu tinggi.... tapi beneran lohhhhh............ gue ini serasa agen penting yang lagi menjalani sebuah misi di indonesia............... huwahahahaha.......... pekerjaan gue keren bo.............

ok ok..... gue lagi bikin proyek nih..... huhu... php butut......... gak tau gimana cara bikinnya.... dudung...... hang man.... wheel of fortune... whatever..... bleagh......

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I thought joining the EGA community was a great challenge coz I know almost nobody there, but HEY! All my 'seniors' are EXTREMELY helpful and understanding!!

They allow me to STUDY and FOCUS on my term tests.
They teach me LOTS of stuff.
They care a lot on my personal growth.
They help me to earn more money.
They expect me to be mature.
They open up my narrow perspectives.
They let me see tonnes of things I could not see.
They give me solutions in handling urgent situations.
They are willing to help me in achieving my desires.
They occassionally drive me home if it's already late.

OOOoohhh I love what I'm doing. Hahaahaha.. Seriously.

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sejak gw menatapkan kaki gw ke sebuah dunia yang bener2 beda banget dari yang biasa gw jalanin, gw koq malah nggak ngerasa happy?

senior2 dan temen2 gue di dunia itu bilang kalo gw udah mengambil jalan yang benar dengan bergabung dengan mereka, dan emang diperlukan sebuah keberanian yang besar untuk keluar dari zona nyaman kita. Mereka bener2 memastikan kalo gw bakal liat sendiri hasilnya. tapi nyatanya? gue jadi makin boros karna iming2 nggak jelas dari mereka. maksud gw, siapa sih yang bisa memprediksikan masa depan?

okeh, mungkin gue sekarang tau kalo gue bakal bisa menghabiskan ikatan dinas gue selama 3 tahun di sana, mungkin hanya itu harapan tentang masa depan yang benar2 jelas terbaca. selanjutnya? tentang betapa berhasilnya gua kalo gua berani, tentang betapa gue bisa jadi anak muda yang berpenghasilan, namun menghabiskan uang hasil kerja keras orang tua gua... semua hal2 yang mereka bilang di saat gua masih naif, sekarang ke mana? hilangkah?

entah gua bodoh atau gua pinter, itu pun gua gak tau. orang2 pasti menentang keras dan menuntut gua untuk bangun dari tidur di siang bolong, berbalik ke jalan tradisional yang biasa ditempuh orang2 konvensional, belajar sungguh-sungguh biar bisa dapet kerja yang baik, dapet penghasilan tetap yang cukup, menikah dan berkeluarga. Konservatif sekali.

mungkin saat gua masih muda, gua punya pemikiran yang cukup gila dan menantang, namun apakah hal itu adalah sesuatu yang inovatif dari sudut pandang orang2 yang sudah lebih berpengalaman? ato mungkin malah dipandang sebagai suatu kebodohan?

akar dari segala kejahatan adalah cinta uang. gua akuin, akhir-akhir ini gua jadi lebih materialistik. kecintaan akan uang seakan-akan terbentuk dalam diri gua, dan kecintaan itu tumbuh dan semakin bertumbuh. salah siapakah? gua mulai ngeliat2 dan mencari tau dunia jual-beli options, gua tertarik untuk mengisi survey2 yang menghasilkan uang, gua tertarik untuk membaca iklan2 tentang cara mudah mendapatkan uang....

mungkin di mana-mana yang namanya bisnis kalo mau dapet uang emang harus mulai dari awal, seperti menulis proposal bisnis yang memberikan prospek yang cerah di hari tua, nyari2 sponsor dari perusahaan2 terkenal yang bisa menopang bisnis yang akan gua buat, dll dsb dst. Namun bisnis apakah? apakah gua ini punya tampang seorang businesswoman? apakah gua punya nature untuk jadi seorang entrepreneur? kalau mungkin proposal bisnis itu sudah ada dan sudah jadi, apa yang akan gua lakukan untuk mendapatkan kapital dan modal? menarik orang untuk membeli saham2 gua? nggak mungkin dong. orang mana mungkin beli saham kalo nggak jelas reputasi perusahaannya. apa yang akan gua lakukan? MLM? yeah, that's a good choice. memberikan gambaran2 yang masih kurang jelas ke anak2 yang punya mimpi yang tinggi akan masa depan mereka, tentang bagaimana mereka bisa jadi seperti orang2 berhasil yang mengendarai mobil tingkatan konglomerat. Membiarkan anak2 tersebut bermimpi dan membayangkan harapan2 kosong dan bilang kalo perusahaan gua pasti berhasil, dan keuntungan gua akan gua bagikan kepada mereka, kalau saja mereka mau bersama-sama membangun bisnis gua.

dunia sudah gila. dan gua juga secara gak sadar terbawa dalam kegilaan dunia. selamat bergabung dengan kami.

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Phew....

suddenly i was thinking of this guy, the guy i like in school.

it's such a huge secret i dont even want to reveal his name to anyone else, even if that one particular person doesnt even know him at all.

omgoodness i like him
omgoodness i like him
omgoodness i like him

i feel that he knows what i need, but too bad i guess we are going nowhere but being buddies.






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LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay I am so sorry. I was in bizlab, was playing truth or dareee *oops*. Okay Steve was watching me typing my stupid blog. Gottagobeforehemakesnoise!

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I talked to Jesher that day after InterPersonal Skills seminar. He shared on how I should have the passion in order to love what I'm doing. Geez. What passion? Can passion be built?? Nah! Don't even try and end up wasting your time. Haven't you learnt?? Don't you see GCC? They say they are grooming you, helping you in your personal growth, but are you groomed at all?? Not even one bit. Why? Because you have no passion for the CCA. You only get better in writing down notes coz they take you for granted and always ask you to write those darn minutes. Heck GCC. I am looking forward to the next AGM and can't wait to hand over my position to the next Honorary Secretary.

I replied Daisy's e-mail on what does GCC mean to me. I only write 1 sentence:
"Being with GCC is something that I won't forget for the rest of my life." Quite true. Because I won't forget how torturous it is, how it makes my life so ****ed up (Read: ffffed up, lol), how it steals my precious time. Ok pause here. No. Stop here. Let's rewind and don't ever play it again. I encourage you to be one of the sub-comms, considering these factors: friends to make, things to learn, activities to organise, overseas hosting stuff... go ahead and join for the sake of fun. But I strongly advise you not to join their ex. co., unless you are really into it.

TPIS too. What passion in helping International students to find their home away from home??? You ponteng their meetings, you forget about your responsibilities, you don't maximise your subcomms, what the hell are you doing, dear TPIS Head of Publicity, Louisa Zephania???????

What makes TPIS better than GCC??? The tolerance, that is. You don't meet their deadlines, it's fine. You can't handle one, that's fine. You want to do this, that's fine. Too little control. Too slack. Too kind advisor. But I guess I should thank TPIS for allowing me to be in their committee. I'm proud to say I'm in IS Committee whenever I'm outside, coz all organisations think that IS Club is something big in campuses. It is true, but not in TP. Anyway, I make lots of international friends through TPIS, NOT GCC. GCC please shut your ar$e up and stop saying that GCC is a platform to meet international students. You are doing nothing but making you look stupid. Why? Coz the platform of all international students is TPIS. What GCC does is just asking TPIS to join them and tadaaa... the international students are there! But anyway, meeting other ISC Committee from other polys are something I should treasure, though. Thanks to TPIS.

Another thing that makes me stress: I am a full-time Business IT student. The mountanous projects... the never-improved GPA... Sigh...... But this one is not so bad... At least I still have what Jesher called "passion". But it seems like I have put anything else above it I forget about it. When was the last time you study??? Gosh. Motivate yourself to put studies above the rest. Thank you very much.

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Next week is the project submission. Gosh. My coursemates and I are like so dead now. Mountains of projects fall on us.

Today I came to school just to do the UIR test which I did not really do very well. Baka. It's like only MCQ and yet I did not pass well. I'm so super sad...

Principles of Marketing lesson was cancelled coz Ms. Belinda Ho was on MC. (Miss Ho, prepare yourself for your sing and dance performance next week, will ya? Lol...). So we all went to Jue's working place in Starbucks Changi Airport. The place was so cosy! Aisya, Stephanie, Fazi and I in the end had our OB project discussion there. We took like about 2.5 hours just to finish the darn OB Part A report. No, it's not because it is difficult or a lot, it was because we took more time to chat and joke around than to really discuss the topics (bullying among sch kids). And thank God Stephanie took Psychology before, so she kinda understand human behaviours and why do kids bully their friends. Jue is supposed to be in our group but she had to work so she did not join us. She did task 1 though. Anyway she served us drinks so it is alright to me. Lol. Ok I'm bad....

Anyway, Aisya said she will type the report, so OB down, 3 more to go.

Went home from school, I showered, surfed Internet for a while, and did OTBS straight after that. At least phase 1 OTBS is still doable.. In a sense that, it does not really require PHP codes to begin with. Only HTML and CSS will do. Then, along the way, I developed some ideas on my games. It was kinda cool on how ideas can pop up just like that. So I changed the game instructions and edited my flowchart. Phew.... Left descriptions to do but I'm too lazy to do it now. Lol.

Alright, moving on from projects... I have to find for companies to go for my SIP. Sigh. I throw away the ideas on going for overseas attachment as it is too troublesome (I think). So I guess I will stick to Singapore. Hmmm... Any ideas on where I should apply?

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11 November? Alright It was like loooonngg ago... hahahaha

My grandma is hospitalised and she can't talk now. Gah... We cant communicate no more coz she cant even write.. Not even pointing alphabets. Sigh.

I dont know what it would be when she is discharged man... Seriously... She cant cook, etc.. what am i supposed to do? Cook for her? Lol.

I'm listening Worlds Apart from Jars of Clay and it's really cool.. This song is about 3 years old already but it is still nice to listen. No wonder Ryan Cabrera loves this song!! HAhahaha...

Anyways.. Ive spent too much money this week I cant afford to spend anymore on unnecessary stuff... And Colvis asks me if I wanna start a business with him.. hmm basically I would be selling web stickers for others who wanna design their own page.. I design and he sells.. Of course the profits will be divided between us... Not quite a bad idea huh? But the programmes I have is only Photoshop and I suck in Flash so I dont know how to bloody design the stickers. Perhaps it would be just non-animated images all over. Lol. I wonder if he can sell those........

I have been wanting to get rich these days i dont know why. I have been attending an entrepreneurship seminar, I wanna participate in online stock trading competition, I wanna invest my money in a company, I wanna write a business proposal... Gah... I dont know what the hell is wrong with me man seriously......

Moving on, I received a wedding invitation from Ci Meili and Ko Albert... They are getting married next month so yeah.. CONGRATS to both of you cici and koko... I hope the two of you will live happily ever after (Lol.. what's this?? a fairy tale?? ~.~)

Alrites.... Enuf of the fun stuff already, let me share with you something ugly.

I HAVE BEEN EXTREMELY BUSY AND FULLY OCCUPIED WITH PROJECTS!!

Ugly? YES! Organisational Behaviour, Principles of Marketing, Systems Analysis and Design, Open Technology and Business Systems................ AND ALL HAVE THE SAME DEADLINES!! Tell me whats wrong with lecturers nowadays?? -.-"

And UIR has that bloggie thing needs to be updated at least everyweek, and my UIR class test is next wednesday....

Not only that, I have to secure my place for attachment next semester and by next month I have to submit my declaration forms, personal particulars, cover letter, and resume. Sigh.

What else? TPIS is having its sports festival, International Bazaar and Friendship day which 2 out of the 3 I am the in-charge.... GCC is having their meetings and I have not yet finished typing the previous minutes...

My mum is coming (again) this Friday....

And TERM TEST is coming in less than a month.....

I AM HALF DEAD NOW. HELP!

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there is someone i fell in love with.

His name is...

Jesus.

He cares for me so much that He knows how many strands of hair on my head.

And I have felt and experienced His love, when He hugs me, when He whispers to me how much He loves me, when He told me not to worry, when He asks me to be joyful.. there are a feeling that is impossible to describe. A feeling of satisfaction.

It is a stupidity not to follow His advice. It's a foolishness to just let Him go.

And now God, I know You are still there in the midst of my problems, You are just beside me when I have to make an important decision. And You will answer only if I ask.

REcently I asked God a question. "Must I explore the things that I have never been through in my entire life before?" (The details of the question is confidential)

His answer was so simple, but yet so deep.

"You have the value that is already been instilled inside you ever since you are young. You know what is right and what is wrong. Seek me, and everything will be given to you."

That's true. That's so true. Why negotiate? God is the God of certainty. Yes means yes, and no means no.

YEsterday (Friday night), I asked God another question. Okay, perhaps it wasnt a question but a request. I want $$ within 2 days. A lot sum of them. In cash. The cash will be used for something that I wont (again) let you know in details.

I have been very worried. I called up my dad and he said he cant transfer it to me because in Jakarta, banks close on the weekend. I called my brother and he said he only can give me not more than 200 and he cant give me on the weekend coz he's busy. I almost gave up. But God whispered to me this evening.

"Louisa dear, let me handle everything. Remember Jeremiah 29:11? My plans are much better than yours. Listen, one thing for sure, I will never let my kids live below prosperity. And what money within 2 days? I have my own time, child! Relax. It's not as if you have a financial problem which cause you to beg so that you can live..."

"If I say yes, I can give you more than that amount you ask me. Do you believe me? Oh well.. You know I have everything right? This universe belongs to me. I can always give what you ask me. Money? Success? A companion? I can give to you. And when I give you, I always give you the perfect one, remember? Louisa, just one key for you to get all those: Ask me, and believe."

He really does make me feel better each time i seek Him. That's why I love to be a Christian.

(And Christian here is not a religion. I dont refer Christianity as a religion. It's a treasure that you chose to take. It's a value that you chose to believe in. It's a blessing that you chose to get.)

I love my God.

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Ok alrites

I think it's time for me to update the bloggie.. it's kind of rotting down there with no people visiting. OK maybe some people actually bother, but they dont bother to tag. Nevermind. Lol.

I was too tired after school, went home in the afternoon, and just when i was about to rest for a while on my bed (just to lie down and listen to some music, playing with my phone, etc.. i did not realise that i was gradually closing my eyes, and.. fell asleep. Dots. And I fell asleep for i think 3 hours? >.< Thats Loooonngg!!!

Sigh. cant believe another day just passed.

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Hari itu aku pergi ke pelabuhan untuk menanti seorang yang sangat berarti buatku. Aku tiba dan menunggu kedatangannya. Setiap sosok yang terlihat serasa memberiku seberkas harapan, laksana rasa dahaga yang hilang setelah menghabisi segelas besar air dingin. Namun, pengharapan itu hilang begitu kutersadar kalau ternyata mereka hanyalah manusia-manusia asing yang tak kukenal, yang berjalan lalu dari pandanganku.

Ke manakah wanita hebat itu?

Aku merindukan kedatangannya sejak sekitar 180 hari yang silam, namun ketika harapan itu terasa semakin dekat, ia malah menjauh. Jarum pendek yang biasanya lamban terasa cepat. 1 jam.. 2 jam..

Aku lelah. Tuhan yang Maha Tahu, berikanlah aku beberapa informasi. Pertemukan aku dengannya. Biarlah aku melihat wajah sukacitanya. Antrian taksi yang biasanya sepanjang kereta api Argolawu, sekarang telah berubah menjadi miniaturnya, seirinig berjalannya waktu.

Aku berdiri dengan pikiran yang dipenuhi oleh harapan-harapan kosong. Nihil. Dia tak ada di sana. Mungkinkah beliau menghilang di tengah-tengah kerumunan orang banyak? Rasanya tidak. Jarum panjang dan jarum pendek hampir bersatu. Sebentar lagi tengah malam. Ketidaknyamanan melanda perasaanku. Resah. Gelisah. Kelelahan.

Aku melangkahkan kakiku menjauhi tempat terang benderang penuh dengan suara dengungan sukacita manusia-manusia lalu. Jauh. Menjauh. Apa sih tujuan semua ini? Semuanya sirna. Harapanku hilang, menguap begitu saja dan bersatu dengan angin malam. Penantianku berakhir pada kekecewaan. Kekecewaanku melangkahkanku menuju sebuah tempat yang kurasa bisa memberiku rasa nyaman yang telah hilang.

Selamat datang di rumah.

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Hi..... Here I am.. again! :) Miss me? :P

I just read an Indonesian novel.. since my dad and sis are here and they use the comp more often than I imagined, therefore I have nothing to do (computer is my world, haha), and spend most of my time reading the novels that I bought when I was in Jakarta 6 months ago.

The novel was written in a very eloquent Bahasa Indonesia, great choices of words, fantastic idea and interpretation, and supported with strong characters.

Reading it makes me feel good. Damn good. And yeah, I guess some of you have already figured out where this conversation will go to.. hahah.. YeP! It makes me wanna blog in Indonesian tonight!

It feels better to express things in your own mother tongue, don't you think? I feel I'm a different person when I blog in English. Hahah.. ok ok whatever. Don't try to dig out for politically correct reasons just so that you can blog in Bahasa Indonesia.

Anyways, for everyone's sake, I WILL SPEAK ENGLISH!! YAY!

Yeah.. so my dad and sis are here. I don't like it!
Huh? Don't I miss my daddy or my sis?

Hell yes, I do, man! I DO! But I don't like when they come here to Singapore! I want to go back and meet them THERE!!

Why? because when they come here, I feel like I'm having tourists here. I need to make sure that they are not bored down here, and I have to make sure that they are accompanied everytime. I can't attend meetings (ok, this may sound good to a certain extend), but sometimes I too, want to do things myself with my friends when I'm in Singapore. There are too much things that I sacrificed. I don't go back to Indonesia, so I have to make sure that I enjoy my holiday in Singapore (which I don't think I succeeded).

Anyways.. its 2:22 am here.. both my dad and sis have fallen asleep, and I'm struggling down here! I CAN'T SLEEP!!!

Why? why? Because my sister and I share a room, and not only that, we share a bed! MY BED!

And tell you what? she can't sleep still, she occupies 3/4 of the bed, she takes my bolster, she grabs the blanket, and she sleeps in the spot where I am supposed to sleep - at the side which faces the wall.

And I also don't like it when my family (especially my dad or my sis) comes over, because.. err.. because they always use the comp! I am only excited when my mum visits me here. Hmm..

10 reasons why I prefer my mum to come to Singapore to anyone else:

1: SHE DOESN'T USE THE COMP!
2: She cooks my favourite food
3: We have the same taste so can go shopping together
4: She doesn't use the bathroom for too long (unlike my sister who uses the washroom for like 30 to 40 minutes!! GRR!)
5: She is just like my friend. She has a good sense of humour. We can talk about everything under the sun.
6: She loves to exercise (she accompanies me to cycle at the East Coast Park, walk on foot to Parkway Parade, play basketball, or only do some tiny exercises at home, very different from those 2 lazybumps who only enjoy sitting in front of the comp)
7: She helps me clean my room (unlike those 2 who always make it even messier, and they don't care when I told them to tidy their things up, coz what they care about is only the comp)
8: She enjoys small talks by the pool at night (a thing which I always love)
9: She can talk to my grandma (unlike those two who only talk during meals coz after that they will straight away go to hit the monitor again)
10: She knows how to have fun

Well, the comparison above go to my sister more. Sigh. At least my dad can help me quite a lot, like fixing my comp problem, fixing my chair, fixing this and that.. unlike my sister. She is the worst when it comes to computer usage. She uses the comp like there's no tomorrow. She is supposed to study but in the end she doesn't. She always nudges me when I'm using the comp and asks, "are you done?" and if you are using it too long then she will be upset and does lots of stupid and childish acts. Well Im not so againts my sister but I'm extremely against her when she starts to do things like that. Like don't you have anything better to do rather than sitting here in front of the comp????????

Ok perhaps that's why I'm so annoyed by how long they use the comp. I don't like that because, to be honest, I also have almost zero things to do here at home in Singapore, besides using the comp. In Jakarta, I don't care much coz I have LOTS of things to do. Haha, the TV, the books, the friends, the work, the food, and MUM are more than enough to spend my time at home, leaving the computer to be one of the last things I want to touch in Jakarta.

Argh.. sorry to blabs trashes. I can't sleep.

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Okay, so we had this Immersion Programme which started yesterday and ended today. I was pointed to be the group leader so I had no choice but be a group leader..

Anyways there was this one Singaporean freshie in my group called Jia Hui, and he was such a sad case.. Lol. I mean, that Immersion Programme had nothing concerning him.. like we were there talking about the medical check up, the student's pass, the tuition grant, etc etc, and he's a local for heaven's sake!! He doesn't need all these... Lol. Poor Jia Hui. Anyways it was a good thing that the games are all conducted in the first day, if not, then Jia Hui would rot there alone.

Then, I dug out my shelves on Monday night just to look for my cheer list. I recalled some of the cheers during my orientation last year. Then guess what? On the 2nd day itself, no cheers were required.. we only did the TP Oei! and the 11 claps.. that's all.. We didn't even sit according to groups on the 2nd day... ~_~

After the programme finished, I was supposed to take some freshmen for medical check-up together with Parkapan. Then, to avoid communication breakdown, we requested Ruonan to come along with us as we were taking some students from China. And when I called him, he confidently said "don't need.. the agent for the Chinese students will take them to the clinic today themselves. There won't be any Chinese over there." Then I was like... errr... but we had like 2 PRC students with us now leh.. how dare you say things like that... Then he called the agent and agreed that we are going to the clinic together as a big group, meet at the ATM machine at 1:30 pm. Alright, everything was settled. What happened after that????
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Ok, actually that was not completely his fault, coz we changed our plan at the very last minute. Therefore, some misunderstandings may occur.. but he should at least call us when he was about to leave right?? Parkapan, Ye Tun, Isaiah and I were happily having our lunch around 1:20 pm la...

Then... that agent lady took them to this small clinic in Bedok and that clinic does not have an X-ray service. Erm.. OH. That clinic is the MoSt ExPeNsiVe clinic ok?? At first Parkapan and I were thinking of taking them to the Raffles Hospital, cheaper and has more complete facilities, but in the end we ended up taking them to that small and expensive clinic in Bedok. Sigh. Moreover, no X-ray service provided. Ok. Fortunately, there is an X-ray service nearby which takes like 5-10 minutes on foot. Phew...

I swear I'll never take up this responsibility of taking freshmen for medical check up in my entire life.

After taking the freshies to the Bus Interchage, we straight away went to SP, Dover, as we were the invited guess for SPISC's Mid Autumn Festival. Erm.. we arrived almost 1-hour late, sorry... sorry.... i have no comments on the musical, but I should admit that I had a good laugh when SPISC committee was doing the skit. Michael was so cute la in that broomhead. Lol. And what's with Fern being the Prince?? He should be the Princess man!! huwahahaha.... Ok. This skit was then followed by a wu shu performance. Not bad.

Then the performances ended, we went outside the Auditorium for dinner.. We had a good talk with the other IS committee (mostly from RP). The last time we met each other were like during the movie outing, which was mistaken as Howe Luen's birthday celebration by some gundus -.-", but during that outing, only a few turned up. Ya.. So now is when we met SPISC and RPISC committee once again...

After dinner, we had games... Argh.. dont wanna talk bout this!! So paiseh..

Erm.. ok maybe I should. Just to clarify things up. That Dodo (Fern's nickname is actually Dodo, hahah) sabotaged me lah.. -.- Hey... don't sabo your fellow countryman can? Lol. Among all students in that audi why must he choose me? And why must he call my name so loud using that microphone? But thank God the game was a gift-wrapping competition and not other stupid dirty wet and embarrasing games.. Alright. They provided only 1 pen knife which was supposed to be shared among the 5 groups (ok it's not 5 group, it's 5 pairs), which was always not available to use, but thank God Haoren's nails are sharp. Hmm.. I didn't think much when I wrapped my present. My hands were just kept on folding and folding... I even had no idea that it actually looked like a french fries wrapper until Haoren told the rest..

Anyways, I was shocked when Fern announced that the two of us won the first prize though, so I think the 'sabotage' thingy did not turn out to be so bad.. Lol. I think he also just anyhow decide because I am from Indo just like him. Hahah. However, the kepo TP people made Haoren put some act.. duh! Haoren is such a thick skin dude lah aiyo... you ask him to do one thing he will be there entertaining you. Those who came to PF this year would know his personality already. Haiz.. The teasing part makes me wanna vomit carbondioxide. Haoren is happily attached can???!!! -.-"""

Ya.. then we went home.. I caught up quite a lot with Fern in the MRT. And he mentioned Indomie! Ok I'm not so despo about Indomie though.. Anyways, Singaporeans, this "Indomie" is not the "Indomie" that you see in Singapore. To tell you the truth, those "Indomie" in Singapore are not made in Indonesia. It was made in Malaysia... so what Fern and I discussed was "Indomie" made in Indonesia.

And oh, sorry to speak in such a horrible language. I just feel like speaking Singlish tonight.

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I just had my dinner and guess what, I don't know why but my grandma made today's dinner very Indonesian. Lol. All the dishes served on the table were ALL Indonesian food!!

We had Indonesian fried rice (unlike Chinese ones, Indonesian fried rice is cooked with black soya sauce and chilli padi, and hence it is brown in colour and tastes a little sweet [without chilli] and spicy [with chilli]. Lol.)

Then we had soto ayam (not malay mie soto okay, this one is really Indonesian..., eaten with VERY SPICY chilli [warning! VERY SPICY!], plus perkedel kentang, plus boiled egg, plus bihun... cooked with kunyit.. huwaha sorry I don't know the English term for that spice "kunyit")...

Then, we had ikan pange!! Erm... how to explain ikan pange ah? Ok, this.. tengiri fish (okay what is 'tengiri?') is cut out, then cooked with belimbing wuluh... ermm.. what is belimbing wuluh in English?? =.= my mum plants a belimbing wuluh tree in front of our house in Jakarta, lol... never see them in Singapore.. if you want to take a look then come over :P ermm.. then cooked lo.. don't know what other spices and ingredients... but tastes greaaaattt!!!

Last but not least........ we ate the fried rice with kerupuk udang!! Aaaaa.... My mum's friend came to Singapore and brought them over... I love that kerupuk!! (kerupuk is....crackers! Prawn crackers!! Yay!!) But nothing beats kerupuk keriting2 (keriting means curly... so kerupuk keriting means curly crackers... lol anyhow translate ah louisa!!). Yup.. nothing beats kerupuk keriting bought in waroenk (read: warung)!! Huwahaha... Singapore has no warung ah... aiyah... warung is the best man!! Lol. Amazing to think that most warung sell everything under the sun.. from office supplies to food to even gas! Ok, not all warung sell gas though.. only those with "tersedia gas Elpiji" sign sell them.

Now.......... The really really last.......... the dessert........... we had jeruk bali!! Yaaaayyyy!!!! OH man.. Indonesian food is the besttttttt....!!!!

But even though all the were Indonesian dishes, I still did not feel that I'm back home. Why? The environment wasn't supporting ah... My grandma turned the TV on, and it was channel 8!! ~_~

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Hey, I'm gonna post a very beautiful song, titled "Masterplan" by Go Band, the band of the Indonesian Full-Gospel Fellowship Youth Community.

This song always burns my spirit again after feeling down about myself, always puts back my strength whenever I think I have lost the game, always wakes me up whenever I think I have failed as a person.

The "You" in the lyric refers to God, which in my case is Jesus Christ, the source of my hope, my best friend who never fails.

It may take sometime to load so be patient.. this song is worth the waiting...



THE LYRIC :
Vocal by Charlina Gozali

You crafted my life
before I was born
Created a special story
so beautiful just for me

You knew me by name
and called me Your own
You set me apart
and held me by Your love

Like a clay to the potter
So are my days in Your hands

Everything You've planned is perfect
I may not know it now but I will someday
I'll just have to remember
that my perfect plan may not be Your masterplan

You've opened the doors
and showed me the way
You've let me fall down
and even go astray

But in the end I know I'm secure
'Coz my days are in Your hands

And everything You plan is perfect
I may not know it now but I will someday
I'll just have to remember
that my perfect plan may not be Your masterplan
-Youth Indonesian Full-Gospel Fellowship (IFGF)

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"your family is very rich right?" said April, when I was there in her house.
"if not, how are they going to send you and your brother to singapore"

Many Singaporeans thought likewise, like Kelvin, QT, Miss Chong, Jesher, bla bla the list goes on.

Indonesians in Singapore = RICH? What a stereotype.

Let me make this clear: MY BROTHER AND I CAME TO SINGAPORE ONLY BECAUSE OF GOD'S GRACE.

Yes. A lot of Indonesians in Singapore are filthy rich. Look at how they shop (branded goods everywhere, bugis street is just not their level), how they live their lives (play everyday, club everynight, no studying), how they say things (most of the time their words are immature, not digested, and they take things so easily)...you know already.

However, there are some of them who are considered lucky enough to be able to study in Singapore under scholarships. (Most of my friends in church are Indonesian scholars, and tell you what, they are the oh-so-smart kids who came from small towns, or maybe from poor family background who always asked for a tuition fee subsidy, or perhaps those who are just like me, a so-so family, not so poor but can't be considered rich).

However, In Poly, most of my Indonesian friends are sons and daughters of businessmen. Their fathers have their own companies, and hence my friends have their future secured - keep the business going. The rubber wheel company, wood, rice-grains, garments, you name it. Wasis asked me once during the fathers' talk in one of TP Indo Union outing, "How about your dad, Louisa? What business is he involved in?"

Ha ha ha. Hmm... Let me see.

Should I say, education? Lol. My dad works as a part time lecturer in 2 private universities in Jakarta. Ok, no. One in Jakarta, the other one in Tangerang, a city just beside Jakarta. He teaches IT in general, computer systems in particular. He's no businessman, hey? And don't imagine lecturers in Indonesia earn as much as in Singapore. They earn in IDR, and Indonesia has lower standard of living!! He came from a poor family with 9 kids, and went to national schools all the way till high school. National schools, okay, during his time there were still prejudices, where Chinese ethnic was still discriminated against, and my dad was forced to learn Arabic and Islamic studies, even though he's a Christian. When he was still studying, he had to cycle back and forth everyday, picked up my grandmother and his other little siblings, while at the same time, studying outside the house, on the road, waiting for my grandma to finish shopping in the market.

My mother came from a better family background. They had nice steady house in Gunung Sahari, a well-known housing estate back then, and went to a private Christian school. That was when my mum received Christ. My maternal grandfather was born in Singapore, but stayed in Jakarta for quite sometime. When my mum finally settled with my dad, her family (yes, all, together with my aunts and uncle) moved to Singapore, leaving her alone in Jakarta with my dad. That's why compared to my other aunties and my uncle, only my mum can't speak fluent English. And only my mum doesn't have foreign qualifications. She obtained a degree in dentistry, and now working in a polyclinic of a non-profit organisation (under a church), helping the poor in their tooth problems. She doesn't work in a hospital. She gets her salary every month, but not much okay? That polyclinic is really non-profitable and targeted for the poor. Imagine you fix tooth decay, take out your tooth, minor gum operation, altogether for just a mere $3!!

Still think that I am rich? Hahaha. Unlike other Indonesians, I stay with my grandma. My grandma is rich, i know, that's why she can have a unit in a condo in Marine Parade. But my family is not. If they are rich, tell you what, I won't be here. I will already be in say, the US, or New Zealand, or Australia. Duh! I won't stay with my grandma. To be honest, I also want to rent a space!! But I don't want to bring up that request to my parents because I know that would mean extra cost. I stay here for free okay? And if I'm rich, I won't bother to study hard, involve in clubs, etc etc!! I will just go shopping all day and club all night. What an easy life.

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GAHH!!

I'M SUPER MAD!!!! THIS IS VACATION FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET A LIFE!!!!

OH, perhaps you don't know what does "VACATION" mean??? Hmmm.... Let me tell you one thing: there is this one thing called "dictionary"!!! GRRR!$#%^

























































its useless.youtakemeforgranted.
bringmebacktowhereibelong.
onegaishimasu.please.kumohon.

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I just finished watching a Korean Drama "Full House".. OK, I know it is like a 2-year-ago show, but yeah, as my favourite T-shirt says, better late than never :P

It is such a great show with excellent acting and storyline. However, I personally think that Han Ji-eun should not go for Lee Young-jae. She should marry Yoo Min-hyuk instead. Haiz..

OK, here are the reasons why I think Min-hyuk makes a better husband:

He is more mature!! Yeah, this is definite, man.. Look at Young-jae. All he knows are just nagging and yelling. What the hell?? Ok, perhaps that was because he hides his ego to show Ji-eun that he loves her, but now they are happy together and Young-jae showers her with all kinds of love and affections. But hey, as the time goes, Ji-eun, think about it carefully, he has this very bad personality, do you seriously think that he won't go back to his ownself, the Lee Young-jae that loves to nag and yell? He is just a little boy. He is so childish he couldn't make up his mind. He is too raw to understand what love really is. Now look at Min-hyuk. He loves you deeply until he is willing to sacrifice his precious time just to see you. He likes you, but all you like to tell him about is Lee Young-jae. He doesn't get mad though, in fact, he lends you his listening ear and comforts you. He knows how to make you feel better and happy. He knows how to love and protect you, and he calls you his woman. This is what I call respect. Unlike Young-jae, who calls you his poultry.

I believe Min-hyuk is better in a long term. Boooo!!

LOLLLL, hahahaha... WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU LOUISA!! Duh!! It's just a story. The writer likes it that way so what can you do??????? Hahahahahaa...

Anyway, A GREAT DRAMA! I love the soundtrack too!

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Poly Forum rocked my holiday!

Well.. urmh.. not really.. I just love the late-nights. Well.. duh.. It's the only free time for you to socialise!!

Thank God Umar is alright. I was so scared when they said he vomitted after that hard bang on his head. Phew.. Rest well k friend? :p I'm concern..LOL!! (ok, only those who were in melda's room that night will laugh... HaHAHaHahaha!!)

I just realised that I love making friends so much. I realised that every reason I joined a camp or activities was only because I want to make more friends and widen my social life. Hmm.. Am I getting more and more sanguinistic? Oh well.. I remember people always call me soft and quiet, and I hated it. I hope I have changed, even if it may be just a little. But yea.. from what I have known, ever since I am in Temasek Poly, I have grown more and learnt more on how to socialise. I am a different person compared to when I was still in K7.

Anyways.. busy watching TV series now.. haha.. YouTube you Rock too!! Thanks for allowing a free video-sharing service...!! Lol.

And back to PF, Sub-theme 2 rocks!

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There are lots of things that need to be reviewed..

First: The Class Chalet (6 Sept)

It went ok, the food was tasty, and a lot turned up that day, even our very own careperson, Mr. PTT! This event can be considered a success, even though Justea said that he made some losses.

Second: Barclays Singapore Open 2006 (7-10 Sept)

I worked as a Banquet Staff at Barclays Singapore Open this year, and it was so freaggin exhausting! Ok, perhaps that's because I have never worked in an F&B business before, like standing there watching people have their lunch, serving them drinks, clearing tables, and everything... Those ang-mohs sure consumed beer a lot more than I imagined.. One bunch of drunkards sitting at the corner of the balcony, ordering nothing but glasses of Heineken.. And it was tiring because there were a lot of people and we were very busy taking orders here and there, and we are not allowed to sit unless it's break time in the pantry, but tell you what.. even in the pantry itself, there were no chairs to sit on!! So we had no choice but to sit on the floor. It's supposed to be 4 days, but I worked for only 3 days because I couldn't wake up for the 2nd day.. Lol.. It's stupid la but I need to reach Harborfront at 7:40 in the morning and heck, I consumed my Neozep the night before.. I'm sure Neozep can act as a strong sleeping pill to me-.-. Anyways, I have not collected my pay yet, I wonder when I'm gonna collect those cash.. I seem to have no time these days...

Third: Kumamoto National College of Technology Visit (12 Sept)

This is the most fun activity this week, i guess... I got a chance to make friends with Japanese from Kumamoto College!! They visit singapore for 5 days and they visit TP on the 12th. It's a disadvantage that my Japanese is only very limited, but I'm glad that we still made friends in the end... We exchange e-mail address though, but I dont know if we will stay in touch in the future.. but I do really hope that we will..

Here are my new friends:
1. Yoshihide Takamura (haha Takamura rocks!! Thanks for the pen and light brushes and those "neat" Japanese writings of yours!! Hahah.. thanks for teaching me Japanese characters, for teaching me how to write my name in Katakana.. you are the best! Next time when we meet again, do show me your drum skills... And yeah, I will make sure to get you something in PINK, Takashimaya! Oops, I mean, Takamura-kun :P)
2. Ryuji Hori (the first Kumamoto boy I talked to! Eigo ga jozu desu ne... You have the most confidence when presenting those chopstick manners in English!! -impressed-)
3. Kyohei Yamaguchi ("Call me Kyohei".. errm.. was that because you treated me as your friend, or because you were pretty irritated when i called you 'tamagochi'? Haha... Gomen'ne, Kyohei-Kun.. :P)
4. Shigejiro Hayashi (Man, from my observation, you are the most outgoing among your other friends.. I thought you were pretty ignorant but you are not.. Keep smiling because that's the only way to make you not to look fierce! :P I like your smiles.. Haha.. Keep playing captain's ball, Shige-kun!)
5. Taromaru Satoshi (Don't try to look cool.. take off that black jacket of yours coz Singapore was totemo atsui desu! Hahah... Well, in the end you did take it off.. thanks to us man! :P Gohan no oishikatta desu yone? Well, the beehoon was pretty tasteless to me, just say the truth la Mashimaro.. Haha..)
6. Naoki Harada (Seriously, I didn't know your name was actually Naoki!! Hahah.. All the time I always thought of you as Nao.. Nao.. Nao.. Then when you wrote your name for me, you wrote "Naoki" -.- Anyways.. What I asked you that time was when you introduced your friend Kenji, I wondered why the slides showed him as 'Kenshi' instead of 'Kenji'... aaahh..)
7. Kazuyuki Kozai (You are another Nao man! Wrote your name as 'Koze' -.- Hahah.. nice to meet you.. you have a cute face :P, I didnt expect you to be in the school team, lol. Just kidding)
8. Jun Yamamoto (I think one of my friends fancies you.. :P :P :P Blink blink... Such a cute turtle you drew! And yeah, you are in the school team as well!! Haha.. So do you play badminton in your free time?)
9. Mako Horikawa (Kawaiiiii!! The only Japanese girl I made friends with!! I am no lesbian but you sure are totemo cute lahh.. Especially when you speak English, omG Mako-Chan! Let's go shopping together!! Hahah.. *and yea, you didn't give your phone number to Jesher.. yokatta... He's dangerous, please note that! Lol... I'm sorry Jeshy! :P)
10. Miyamoto Kisuke (your Kyudo seems to be powerful! Hmm.. you sure have muscles!)
11. Kazuya Yamashita (What a looooonnnngggg e-mail address! ~_~ Hahah.. you look cool when you sit still, don't move, don't talk, don't smile. Lol. Seriously!)
12. Yusuke Nakashima (Thank you very much!)
13. Liyana Safra (This girl is not a Nihon-jin, but a Mareshia-jin.. You are sooooo lucky to be able to study there!!! Arrgghh!! I also wantttt!!)

ARghh.. this event really drives me to learn Japanese moreeeee... Heck Chinese! I'll go for Nihon-go! ~~

Forth: Results are out!!

And I got a super darn shocking result for my Japanese!! It's Z!!! Whoaaaa... can you believe that???? I aimed only for B and since Shigeta Sensei is pretty strict, I am very much prepared if she gives me a C+... but guess what?? No A, let alone B.. It's DISTINCTION!! Z!! Whooaa.. God, are you telling me to study Japanese moreee?? Lol (I'd love to!! :P:P I'm gonna learn Japanese, save money, and visit my Kumamoto friends!! Haha.. what a dream -.-")

And my GPA is improved, by 0.02. What an improvement... -.-
Well, at least it's improving.. lol. I promised to still thank God for whatever I might get this semester. I am pretty much relieved now..)

Well, I guess there are what have been happening to me.. Tomorrow is roller-blading time with Isaiah and HL!! Hmm.. I'm a sucky roller blader for their information.. they better take this down very seriously, LOL.

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