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Hello people... folks.... friends... whoever you are....

Hehehe. its holiday and as you know, I'm no longer in contact with the English-speaking crowd (not going to school = not speaking english that often).

Hint hint... might be posting in Bahasa Indonesia now yea.... pardon me if this bugs you.

Anyways. Postingan dimulai...

Hidup gue asli nyantai banget setelah SAP. rasanya beban hidup terangkat dari muka bumi ini (ca elah..) yah gimana lagi... gak ada men yang namanya kuliah, exam, dll... semua sudah saya titipkan surat selamat tinggal. hihihi.

Alhasil, liburan gue bener2 gak produktif. gue nongkrong di rumah tiap harinya mikirin apakah ada yang perlu gue kerjain hari ini, yang pada akhirnya menuntun gue kepada jawaban "tidak, koq! Apa lagi yang harus dikerjakan?? Semua sudah selesai"

Hehehe senangnya diriku.

Oh iya. Puji Tuhan gue uda diterima di SMU.

Nah kalo ini gue bikin Englishnya lah ya, biar semua orang bisa baca dan nama Tuhan juga boleh dimuliakan (karna emang Dia satu2nya yang sanggup bikin ini semua terjadi.)

SMU offered me an admission to SIS!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD, coz without Him, this wouldn't have happened!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!!

Tapi yang namanya manusia, pasti punya keinginan yang berbeda-beda, dan apa yang kita dapetin gak semuanya sejalan sama apa yang kita inginkan. Bagus gue bisa diterima di SMU, bagus itu. Tapi inget ga cerita mobil2an di bawah? Gue pengen yang paling bagus. Dan menurut gue, SMU itu ibaratnya bukan mobil2an yang gue harep2in. Gitu deh... (padahal sih intinya yang mo gue sampein, gue sedikit ilfil sama -maaf- beberapa anak indonesia dari indonesia langsung yang ada di sana [ada lah beberapa, nggak koq, bukan dari gereja, tenang sajaaa shannn.. bim.... strid... huweheh])

Ada beberapa kata-kata mereka yg intinya ngejelek2in uni laen yang gue gak suka. bagi gue, its ok buat lu ngebangga2in kampus lu, tapi so NOT HOT kalo sampe elu ngejelek2in kampus lain... siapa elu?? elu gak tau gimana kampus laen beroperasi, siapa elu mengomentari?? Dan lagi, sebagai pelajar selama kurang lebih lima tahun di negeri singa, gue mo kasi tau ke kalian kalo SMU is NOT the only university that has a lot of CCAs and student activities!! And it is certainly NOT the only university which practices class participation scheme. Yes you can talk about those, coz they -perhaps- reveal the strengths of your so-called american style teaching, but don't talk as if you are the only one inventing it that you should patent it and stuff like that. It certainly turns me off.)

Gue masi menanti2 uni lain, NTU dan NUS, yang sampe saat ini masi belon ketauan hasilnya. Entah mereka dengan susah payah menimang2 hasil gue di politeknik dan kebingungan karna terlalu biasa isinya (yang tebel cuma sertifikat2 dan testimonials yang gak penting menurut kedua perguruan tinggi negeri itu), biasa karna gue bilang nilai akademis kurang memenuhi standar perguruan tinggi mereka. yah gue gak bisa dibilang salah satu dari mahasiswa-i top di temasek sih. nilai gue bener2 biasa banget, bisa kamuflase dengan mahasiswa-i yang laen. paling rata-rata B lah. banyak banget B gue, yang A ato distinctions bisa diitung pake jari. heheh. namun oleh kasih karunia Tuhan gue tau gue bisa masuk. Dan gue ngomong gini karna gue yakin Tuhan yang gue sembah itu bukan Tuhan yang cuek. Dia seperti ayah yang ngerti keinginan anaknya, dan saking sayangnya sang ayah ke si anak, dia gak bakal mampu dan tega mengecewakan hati si anak. Gue aminkan nih....

Banyak temen-temen gue yang bilang, "udahlah louisa...". Gue gak terima dengan kata "udahlah" sampe gue bener2 terima surat itu, sampe gue liat kalo emang bener gue gak dapet salah satu dari kedua perguruan tinggi itu. Kalo ini terjadi, gue gak bakal bersikap kayak anak manja yang nangis ngerengek2 minta mainan yg gak dipenuhi orang tuanya. gua akan bersikap dewasa dan ngikutin apa yang jadi kemauan Tuhan. Toh dia uda baik banget masi mau kasi gue uni yang menurut sudut pandang lokal, cukup baik (meski kurang baik dari sudut pandang gue namun gue akan tetep belajar menerima kenyataan kalo itu tuh yang terbaik di mata Tuhan gue yang gue kasihi dan cintai).

Begitulah.......

Oh gue kmaren ikut kebaktian padang yrc saturday dan di tengah jalan gue langsung pamit minta pulang. bukan kenapa-kenapa sih, gue gak bisa menikmati acara itu dan gue gak mau gak jadi berkat buat anak2 baru yang gara2 gue mood mereka yang mgkn uda high jadi low lagi. makanya gue balik deh. matahari sih gak panas terik, tapi entah kenapa angin sepoi-sepoi juga gak ada. mana semuanya sama2 berebut minta duduk di terpal, gak cuma tubuh tapi tas dan botol air pun harus kudu masuk terpal. gue bener2 gak bisa tahan sama suasananya. Pengab. Panas. Gak enak. Mana kalo gue liat sekeliling, anak2nya baru2 semua lagi. Gue gak ngerasa ini keluarga gua. gua gak ngerasa kalo gue adalah bagian dari mereka. entah kenapa. mungkin fa ko menthol juga uda banyak perubahan kali ya. tentang multiply fa jadi fa menthol dan fa ivan. tentang anak2 baru yang semuanya liatin gue kayak gue ini alien dari planet seberang. gue ngerasa aneh. gue pulang deh....

Barusan yrc sunday, kita ada rapat tentang acara2 yang akan datang. i'm sooo looking forward to warung sunday, lucu kali yah... hehehe basically kita bakal adain acara, tentatively on 18th may, judulnya "waroeng sunday" (tentative juga). Detail acaranya gak gue reveal di sini kali yah.... hehehehe. terus tadi yang kotbah ps daniel chua. firmannya keren juga, tentang lembah2 kehidupan gitu... heheheh.

abis yrc gue nonton forbidden kingdom ma anak2 FA... kerennn T_T hahahaha bagusss.... oke lah gue suka filem2 cina gitu... demen... bagus dan keren... meski gue tau jalan ceritanya gak masuk akal tapi gue demen ma filem2 cina yang kungfu2.... lol. dan gue demen jet li... oh jet li!!! ngefansnya saya, meski perlu gue bilang kalo jet li perlu lebih belajar inggris lagi... huwahahah.

Yah saya sudahi dulu... sampe jumpaaaa...

There was this little kid who longed for a toy car. He wanted the car so much that everyday, he would save a bit of his pocket money in order to buy it. There were tonnes of things that happened along the way, like people tried to steal his money or he accidentally lost some of his money over some stupid stuff. It was true that he was very sad when several things happened against him, but he still kept his dream alive. "I am going to own a toy car," he said.

One day, he went to a toy store and greeted by the salesperson.


Salesperson (SP): Good morning kid, anything I can help you with?"
Kid (K) :Yes, I want a toy car.
SP: Oh, sure, we have a lot of ranges, come with me and take a look.

The salesperson took the kid to the toy car section, where he saw a lot of cars, the big ones and the small ones, the ones with remote-controls and the ones without. Also, there are ones with bright, attractive colours, and ones which can transform into a huge masculine robots. His eyes sparkled with happiness as he looked at the heavenly collection.


However, there was this car that caught his attention. It was equipped with a remote-control and had the most complete features ever. The colours were bright with pride and its speed was tested able to dash faster than the rest. He smiled and had a thought. This car was the one that people talked about. It was popular among his friends. He knew that everyone was dying to get this car. Just that - it was very very expensive.


SP: So, any car do you have in mind?
K: Yes. That one.


He pointed to the car of his choice. The salesperson smiled.


SP: Wow, must be a perfect choice.
K: How much does it cost?


The salesperson revealed the price of the toy car, only to get the kid stood in silence.


K: I don't think I can buy that.
SP: May I know how much is your budget, son?
K: This much.


He opened up his wallet and showed a ten dollars bill.


SP: It's five times less than what the car is worth.
K: I know, but I will save up as much as I can and get that car once I have enough money.

SP: Okay, that's a great idea. However, this is the last stock that we have for this car. It's a limited edition. You might have to save up as quickly as possible before we run out of stock. To be safe, do come again before next week. But again, somebody might have already bought it by then.


The kid silenced.


SP: I'm so sorry, kid. But hey, what about this car? Or this? They cost less, but has about the same feature and functionalities as the one of your choice. The one that makes the difference is just the label. You see, the manufacturer is different. The name is different. But everything else is the same.


The salesperson offered the kid with 2 other toy cars. They did look almost the same, but somehow the kid just wanted the car of his choice. He wanted the best. He wanted his car to come from the best manufacturer and all. He did not want imitations. He did not want any other car.


K: Thanks, I think I'll come back next time.


The kid ran back to his dormitory as fast as he could and began to weep. When he reached, he gave it a thought. "Maybe I will just go get the cheaper one. It's impossible for me to come up with fifty dollars within a week." He was rather depressed by his own thoughts but that's the only thing that he could do. It's the most reasonable thing to do, in fact.


The next morning, his daddy suddenly called.


Daddy (D): Hey son, how are you?
Kid (K): I'm fine, Dad, thanks.
D: I reckon that you are trying to save up some money to get a new toy.
K: Yes, a toy car.
D: Wow. Must be pretty challenging. So, have you saved enough?
K: I don't know, dad. I really don't know. There's this car that I liked, but it's too expensive. I think I'm just gonna get the imitation. It's cheaper.
D: Imitation??? My son will never get anything but the best. I will give the best toy car for you.
K: Dad, it's fifty dollars. I only have ten right now, and the stock might run out by next week. I don't think I can afford it.
D: I have the money. K: I know. I know you do. But how are you gonna give me that money? Right now, reality tells me that I have only ten dollars. That's so it.

K: Really?
K: Nah, not that I know off.
K: Thanks. Bye, Dad.


The kid felt extremely ecstatic. He called his dad everyday just to describe the car that he likes.


K: Remember, dad. Do not get the imitation one! Don't be fooled by how similar they look.
D: Yes, yes. You will never get anything but the best.


The next few days, as anticipated by the salesperson, a lot of his well-financed friends got the toy car he wanted. They showed it off and the kid felt envious over what he saw. The kid often visited the toy store and asked whether the toy car was still in stock. If it was, the boy would call up his father and asked him to hurry up and got the car before it was gone.

Over the days his friends would encourage him to just buy the cheaper ones, that he would not have made it, that his dad would forget and all other similar intimidations. The kid stood up quickly on his feet and will loudly say, "My dad will never forget what he has promised. I believe my dad will get the car for me."

This happened everyday.

Until one fine day, when he almost lost his hope, he finally got the car. He was a little 'offended' because his dad took so long just to buy him the toy car.

The dad, in response, said, "Son, actually I have bought you the car long ago when the stock was still adequate. I just want to see how deep a faith you put in me. Now I know that you really believe in me and that you will always trust in me despite the intimidations you might get. Well done, son."

He smiled. The boy came right after his dad and gave his dad a big big hug.

"You are the best dad ever. I love you so much... I will tell my friends that my dad will never forget promises and he knows what is best for me. Thank you, dad."

The kid did what was said.

Louisa's note: Thank you, Father for knowing what I want. I believe in You. I really really do. For faith is a substance of the things hoped for, the evidence of the things unseen. (Hebrews 11:1). I may not see the outcome now, but I believe that You have reserved the best for me. God oh how much I love You....

hey guys!!

BPERP Mock Test is finally over. I got 89.73%, hahah. Ok la, my class consists of those super people, so that kinda mark was not so great. A lot of people actually scored over 90% and one of them actually obtained full-marks!!! I told ya it's driving me crazy.

Today we had cellgroup and it was cool...!!! We learnt about conversation. And about sharing God's love through praising the Lord and singing psalms and spiritual songs.

On the way back, Andy drove me home. And guess what he drove? A LEXUS CAR!!!! I didn't know, I thought it was a Honda like what Anthony has, but nope, it's a Lexus!!! The seat was super comfortable i tell you. It's such a luxury not everyone can afford. Thanks Andy for the ride!

Yesterday I attended an interview with FC30. They said they gonna call me today which I didn't actually talk to them, okay I did receive a call but i missed it and they didn't call me back after that. Now when I think about it, I didn't know if I wanna work there or not. The thing is, I will be going away to Malaysia on 13th to 15th April to play around with my cellgroup mates, and on the 13th to 14th May I will be helping Ci Lena for her fair in Hougang Mall, and will be away to Riau Islands, Indonesia, on 1st to 7th June for a mission trip. If FC30 hires lots of staff with many spares behind, I don't mind applying for off-days. But Pamela (the boss) told me that they only need 1 counter crew at the moment, which kinda leaves me with no-heart not to work.

Sigh. Another option to choose. Why does everything always have to go through this way??? Options. Options. Options. Sometimes we are spoilt for choices we have had enough of it.

CRAZY BPERP!!!

Hi guys.. its been a long long time since I posted in this blog....

Life's been rather hectic these days, I hardly have a time to go out. Yes, I know its a holiday, but my schedule doesn't seem to be empty.

First, BPERP Certification course.
I am taking this course to be SAP solution's certified consultant. It sounds VERY big, i know, but it's a freaking demanding course can?? The notes are like A4 size with an estimated thickness of about a usual oxford advance dictionary, stacked with an NKJV bible on top. Yes. THAT thick it's driving me nuts. Plus, you have to score a minimum 70% in order to get the cert. If you get a 69%, it means that you are very very very unlucky. The course will end on 4 Apr, and the exam will be on the 11th. Wish me all the best!!!

Second, acting and dancing.
Groove and Substation are just beyond cool. REALLY. Didn't know that performing arts are THAT fun. I met friends like Celine and Pei Li (and Chris!!) who give the energy and make dancing not just fun but be the most thing that I really really love (content is correct at the point of publishing, LOL). Also, Charlene, Jeslyn, Nickson, Soo Kian, and Chris for making acting such a thing I don't fear but enjoy. Thanks!!!

Third, Easter day.
YRC Sunday had this celebration on the Easter day. We came back to the sunday school days where egg-decorating competition was ultimately popular. I was extremely sucky at this, knowing that it has been years since the last time I participated in such competitions. Back then, in my childhood days, I always won those competitions. It's either the second or the third (ok la I admit, i think i never got the first before). Lol. But now I sucked to the point where I didn't wish to submit my egg to the committee for assessment. Hahaha. It's sooooooooo ugly!!! But nonetheless, Jesus is still risen and my life is renewed by the blood of Christ. That's what matters.

Fourth, cellgroup.
My cellgroup is growing more and more, and it seems to have more unity this time. It's like now every service, my cellmates will be sitting together. We had an outing last week and it was rather cool. I am praying hard so that everything would turn out just fine.

Fifth, university.
I was shortlisted for an interview for School of Information Systems in SMU. Wish me all the best!! REALLY!!!!
But if you ask me to choose, I would LOVE to go to NUS. Why? Coz that's the only uni in which I went for its open house. Lol. Maybe if I went for NTU's I would be interested too, but I didn't.

Sixth, DBS FEP
Okay, LISTEN everyone!! I was called by DBS HR and they wanted me to undergo an 18 months training with them called Financial Executive Programme, in which they will groom me to be the next Personal Financial Manager and eventually be a Relationship Manager in their Treasures. During that 18 months, I would be paid a monthly salary, and I am entitled for employee benefits such as DBS Shares ownership scheme, financial support for my part-time degree, and so on and so forth. I am majorly confused, coz it's attractive (i dont have to worry about my career, knowing how stable DBS is). And people, it's DBS!!!! HELLO!!!! The largest bank in Singapore, and one of the largest financial services groups in Asia!!!

All this while I always listen to God's voice about university, and now here it is, the excellent career opportunity arrives in front of my eyes. And the worst thing is, I am considering it. As in, I started to question things like "maybe this is God's way...". Like, what on earth do you want, Louisa??? All this while I always say that I believe in miracle, I am seeing with the eyes of faith that I would be in a university. But now, I started to question my faith by saying, "if am not accepted to any of those unis, I am going for this." So now I'm relying on the decision whether or not I am accepted, while previously I am so very sure that I WILL be accepted, no matter how low my GPA is, coz I have a supernatural God, who will perform a miracle in the least way I expect.

I WILL BE, right God????? I should turn DBS down, right??? I should believe in YOU that I will get into Uni right?????? OH NO, I am soooooooooo confused!!!!!!!!!!!!

My dad told me to go for it, the same way as my friends advised me. They said that if DBS is willing to provide a financial assistance for me pursuing a part time degree, why not? I will still get my degree, afterall. But listen, everyone. I dont want to go for a part time degree!! Dont you get what kind of person I am??? I am the kind of student who support school spirit. To me, going to school is beyond studying. It's networking. It's making friends. It's gaining experiences. It's joining CCAs. It's developing skills in a more forgiving environment. It's having fun. I don't care only about whether I get a degree. I care for all of those. That's why I don't like private institutions, not because they are bad, but because they don't offer you all those!!

What am I gonna do now????? ~____~

Okay, Exam is officially ended. YAYness. (learnt this word from Tirza)

Just when I'm about to enjoy life, here comes the sucky part: i have no $$ to spend! How nice. Holiday without dollars, equals to boredom. Why? Becoz all I can do is to stay at home.

My church encourages us all to fast for the upcoming bible camp. They want us to fast the Daniel way, consume only food that will not satisfy our flesh. But how to fast Daniel way when I only have instant noodles to eat????

Anyway, yesterday after paper went for overseas further studies counselling in school, turned out that the councillor is Ms. Boey!!!! MWahahaha!! I didn't know!!! I was like.. i wrote in so formal for what sia...... I can just call her anytime.. Lol. Btw she's my CCA advisor last year and she was the one who wrote me a testimonial....

Then after that I went gymming, thanks to Eric. He made the entire work out tiring but rather fun. But yeah, I know I am weak so what!!?? I couldn't lift up the whatever thing coz of muscle cramp... not my fault right?

The next day I woke up at 2 pm (HAHAHA what a luxury). My cell leader called and told me that today we have no cell meeting, just when Iggy told me that tonight our class has no BBQ. So basically, I have NOTHING TO DO TONIGHT!!! So since i have no money to go out, i have decided to stay at home tonight, doing housework. So yep, I cleaned the entire house (after being so much abandoned due to my busy revision schedule). I swept the floor, mopped the floor, did the laundry, dried the clothes, washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, ironed clothes, bla bla bla. TIRED!! But well, my house is pretty clean now. Thanks to the time I have now.

anjfksbijweokqldascmxnchbfgreuiowpla BYE

Well.. I have not been very productive these few days during the study week, so I've come up with a new way to study - THROUGH MY BLOG!!

HAHAHA.

Anyway, shall we start?? :D

You may be thinking that ERP equals to Electronic Road Pricing, those evil thing you will see on the road when you are about to enter the expressway. No no no, that's not what I'm talking about. In fact, ERP here is way far from evil. It's somewhat angelic in nature. The saviour for most businesses, which helps them a lot towards achieving their long term goal. Yep. It's called Enterprise Resource Planning System.

What the heck is Enterprise Resource Planning System???
According to Deloitte Consulting, it is a packaged business software system that allows a company to automate and integrate business processes, share common data and practices across the enterprise, and produce and access information in a real-time environment.

According to me, ERP system is just a system that an enterprise use, in order to maximise and plan their resources. True? Hey, it isn't called Enterprise Resource Planning system for no reason, right? Hahahah. The resources I'm talking about here constitute to many things, like their manpower, finances, R&D, sales and distribution processes, production planning, and supply chain. They are stuff you own and use, which is why called resources.

How it helps in planning the resources is another story. Basically, ERP is like a common language that everybody uses, which helps greatly in integrating business processes. When all processes are integrated, it results in having common practices and common format for documents (so it makes sense to everyone). ERP also means an existence of a shared database, and with such, timely information can be produced for better decision making.

Sales and Distribution Processes? How do you own such a thing?
Well, businesses have their own sales and distribution processes, but most of them are completely similar to one another. Like, say, first, a customer will be triggered to browse through to your shop, look at what you offer, explain to the salesperson on what are the things he needs, then the salesperson will check if the shop has the stuff he wants, if yes, then he will deliver the stuff to the customer, then he will make his way to the cashier and pay. You OWN the process. It's yours. People can't anyhow buy your things. They can't have the goods delivered to their hands, then the salesperson will check the inventory, then they pay, then they explain the things they want to the salesperson, then they will walk to the store and see what the shop has. NO. Most businesses just don't go that way.

Of course, there are businesses that have a unique sales and distribution process. Look at eBay. The seller post their goods on the portal, state the closing date for bidding, customers will browse through the shop, find the thing they need, they bid, eBay will close the bidding on the closing date, the seller will see who's the winning bidder, then the one who bids the highest price will get the good. After this comes the delivery and payment processes, which differ for every seller. This is eBay's sales and distribution process.

However, most businesses use the old-school 'Pre Sales --> Sales Order Processing --> Inventory Sourcing --> Delivery --> Billing --> Payment' because it's simply the best way to perform a sales process. It is used by most enterprises and is proven successful. This is called best practices. I'm not saying that eBay isn't good, it's just unique.

Okay...
ERP of course offers businesses with the best practices. But if you wanna be unique like eBay, but also wanna have an ERP system to integrate your business processes across your enterprise, not to worry, because most ERP system is build to have an open architecture, which means, you can mix and match, people.... You can CUSTOMISE the system to suit your own. HURRAY!!


to be continued...

Artist: Michelle Branch

One last call to answer
feeling full of despair
don't think I can get through it
just one last prayer

*And it's a leap of faith
when you believe there's someone out there
it's a leap of faith
when you believe that someone cares, oh
and when I call out to you,
will you be right there, right there

Searching for the answer
nobody seems to care
And now I wish that you were here, beside me
to wipe away my tears

(*)

Waiting for the answer
remembering times we would share
somehow I feel that you are here beside me
even though you're not there.

(*)

And I'll be waiting by the window
for your smile to come through
and I'll be waiting in the darkness
when I call out to you
and I'll remember when you told me,
I could trust in you

**And it's a leap of faith
when I believe that you are out there
it's a leap of faith
when I believe you truly care, oh
and when I call out to you
Will you be right there, right there
and it's a leap of faith

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'Nuff said.

Oh, whatever.

I watched Jumper with my group plus gloria minus dodi.

But yeah, whatever.

Today, there are 3 people who need to be taken out of my sight:

Stupid seetoh, for not defending us during the final.
Stupid kelvin, for shooting us like there's no tomorrow.
Stupid justin, for keep on criticizing people's business attire, for thinking that he's bloody handsome (he literally said that he thinks he's the best looking guy in class, like OH MY GOODIE BAG!! His head is ballooning), for criticizing my vista, and for saying lots of unnecessary stuff like who sleeps with who (oh im so interested im gonna snore! -__-"||).

LIKE WHAT THE HELL, PEOPLE!!!
GET A FREAKING LIFE!!!


And for those asking how's my MP final, here's the answer: WE SCREWED! BIG TIME!!!

I just did a personality test on Tickle.com, and this is my result. It says that I am the supportive friend..... Well. it's kinda true as A LOT of my friends actually come to me if they ever need an ear. I don't know why, because most of the time I find that I am stucked and can't really give them the advices that they need, even if I have, most of them aren't really the good ones.

But still, they come to me. Which left me wondering why. Not that I don't like it, but i believe that friendship should be a two-way thing. When I'm in my utmost down position, tell me who can I come to and confide in? Is listening to people's problems that hard???? Is putting aside time for people really impossible??? I know I can do it most of the time. But certainly not all my friends can.

The title so good ah? HAAHA . REALLY.

Today was the D-day. We finally submitted our MP Technical Documentation and WAAAHH I was sooooooooooo relieved. But too bad, we have the stupid PracTech problem 2 so we can't really have fun yet. The four of us - Shana, Shahirah, Justin, and I did not sleep for the entire night, went to school with the leftover energy that we had, printed leftover stuff, burnt all copies to CD for our softcopy submission, printed the stupid poster I did for my Project Showcase, and so on and so forth. We came to school rather early, but submitted late still. Poor thing.

After submission, we went to the library and watched Helen the Baby Fox. A Jap movie (based on true story) abt this young boy who found a deaf, blind, and mute baby fox and named it Helen (after Helen Keller). The boy showed love and care towards this little fox, taught her lots of things like wind, water, seabreeze, etc... became the "little Sullivan" towards this fox, and apparently acted as her "mother".

The love that the boy gave to the fox was remarkable, over-touching, and beyond-the-ordinary. Even when the baby fox was gonna die, the boy still made sure that it died well. I mean, make sure that she died happy. Lol. TOUCHING!!

It was soooo so sad that my three friends cried. YES! With tears!! In school!! I was there looking at them cried i didnt know what to do, like whether I should act sad or whether I should just be myself and laugh at them. LOL! And I chose the latter. WAKAKAKAK. Okay I know I'm evil.

It was a sad show and it was clearly written on the box cover that if you dont cry after watching, you totally have no soul (-_-")

I didn't cry. AT ALL. Does that mean I have no soul???

I CRIED watching one litre of tears okay!!

I have emotions too. Just that the show did not move me THAT much? I dont know, maybe because they were not really real and I couldnt relate it to my own life, even though it mightbe based on a true story? Replace the baby fox with a human being, I WOULD DEFINITELY CRY! Really!














And seeing a guy cried over a touching movie was just so unexpected. Okay I saw my brother cried watching one litre of tears too but i didnt really give a damn.

Not becoz I didnt care, but BECOZ I WAS ALSO THERE CRYING. HAHAH.

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tired.

Shagged.

Projects are killers.

My grave is five miles away.
I am reaching it, soon enough.

So many things to do, so little time.

I DESPISE PROJECT MADNESS SEASON!!!!

And photoshop... OH I AM SICK OF PHOTOSHOP CAN!!

God, please give me 30 hours a day.

.....

~__~'

I finally went out with ex- GCC main committee for daisy's farewell to Australia. That was so fun!! VERY FUN!

I reached home at 3:15 AM, thanks to Ron for driving so I didn't have to waste my bux on cab fares.

There were lots of funny incidents that happened, I am too lazy to reveal them here. Anyways. We went to Marina South for steamboat, only to find that the steamboat places were all gone. Dead town. Evacuated, like silent hill. Serious.

So we went to vivocity for Marche. Then spent the time eating funny stuff and having carrot + orange juice - thanks to me for suggesting. I couldn't help but to loooove the colour. Ronald told us its a Super Ring Juice (super ring snacks that has that kinda orange colour, lol).

There were 8 of us -- Daisy, Ronald, April, Jesher, Jane, Ye Tun, Terence, and I. Fun fun!!! Even though we kinda regret that Peilin, Isaiah, and Stephie were unable to join us.

Next we went to Clarke Quay to chill. We went to cafe Iguana and had some Margarita and Nachos. The nachos was damn euuuww... the first time we looked at it. It tasted funny too but not bad, overall. We couldn't drink too much coz Ron was driving, so we were kinda being considerate towards him (actually we just didn't wanna die yet as he's giving a lift to EVERYONE. So we just wanna reach home safely. Hahahah).

We played truth or dare and lots of secrets revealed. Hahaha. Went home very late, next day need to wake up early for service.... Shagged, but satisfied.

I love you guys.

Below are some pictures:

Alright thats all, folks. Again, I love my old circle of friends!!! Hahahaha.

So you wanna avoid me forever huh? Fine!

How was it like today? Didn't you realise that today I totally did not address a single word to you?? Not even one question??? Compare today with yesterday and the day before and the day before that.

I was too tired of you answering me coldly. I was to tired to mend everything and start everything all over again (and yes, end it differently, idiot!) without you being cooperative enough. I was too tired of you being a JERK.

What do you think I am doing??? I just wanna be your friend, and yet, this is how you treat me back. And you know what? I understand your standpoint, trust me. I've been in your situation too, the exact same situation (okay, maybe not. but similar).

I did tell you before I was close to a guy, didn't I? And I told you that between me and him, there's something that I don't feel right. He's not the guy I'm looking for. I can blabber all reasons why in this post, but I don't think that's necessary. The thing is, I did not have anything for him, not a feeling.

And yes, like you, I played his game. I showed him concerns and made him believe that I liked him back. When knowing this, I was like, oh my goodness. What am I supposed to do to tell him that I actually have nothing towards him? I had no choice but to continue showering him with care like what I had done all along. I always thought of ditching him but I did not have the heart to. I felt that I was the evil one if I just ditch him like that. The thing is, I had made him believe that I like him, it's too hurting to reveal the truth.

Sounds familiar?

However, unlike you, I had no other guys that I liked at that point of time.

Now, let's talk about the second assumption. The situation was a bit different from you, but the thing is, I was using him. As you have known before, my primary love language was act of service. Well, he owns a car and he always gave me a ride.

Can you guess the rest of the story?

But I ditched him in the end. And yes, until now, we do not talk. I always avoid him. But his case is different from my case because, he made no effort in mending the friendship. Whereas I did. To no avail, unfortunately.

I understand it just feels different and we can never talk like the way we used to be. But can you just admit it? Can you just stop hiding from the fact? Can you just stop lying to yourself??? It's clear that we are not acting NORMAL. We are FAR from normal. The way you talk to me was not the way you talked to me the first time we met. I remembered it correctly in Mac Bras Basah, our first MP meeting, we have already JOKED!! And we almost shared a cab!! Compared to now, we do not even talk to each other properly. Admit it, idiot.

I understand it just feels awkward. There's a huge gap between us. That's why I'm trying to build a bridge. But you, being at the other end, show me no support. Don't you wanna be friends? Do you enjoy the deafening silence? I shall stop building then. I'm too tired of doing things myself.

But one thing for sure, I now know that you are a total waste of my time and does not worth going after. I do not expect anything from you. So, don't be afraid of me. Just be yourself lah! I know I make you laugh, I know you wanna talk to me, I know you miss being my friend............... Just admit it.

I wanna forget about you,
forget about what has happened.

I wanna forget the hurtful process,
the pain that's terribly affect my soul.

I wanna forget the heartache,
and dozens of healing pills consumed.

I wanna begin everything again from the start,
and end it differently.

I was in Town on Saturday night and on the way home, my iPod played me this song called Salahkah, by Tompi.

At first I wasn't really paying attention on the lyrics, but when I finally did, I realised that it was a very emo one. I will translate the lyrics into English for the sake of the non-Indonesian speaking readers.

Tompi - Salahkah


(click on the imeem above to listen to the song)

Salahkah bila ku mendua
Salahkah bila rasa itu ada
Dan aku tak lagi merasa engkau ada
Dan cintaku seolah jenuh akan hatimu

Reff:
Kasih tinggalkanlah diriku tuk selamanya
Biarkan ku sendiri
Cukup bagi diriku melukai hatimu
Kasih tinggalkanlah diriku tuk selamanya
Biarkan aku
Mungkin kau akan bahagia dengan dia, yang lain

Tak perlu kau memohon untuk kembali
Tak perlu kau memohon cintaku
Tiada lagi ruang di hatiku
Yg tersisa untukmu

Repeat reff

Sungguh ku pun tak bisa
Untuk tetap mencintaimu
Sungguh ku takkan bisa
Untuk selalu menyayangimu

Sungguh ku tak bisa
Untuk tetap mencintaimu selamanya
Pergilah kasih tinggalkan aku

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English Translation:


Tompi - Is It Wrong

Is it wrong if I like her
Is it wrong if there's a feeling
And I feel that you're no longer there
And my love loses excitement to your heart

Chorus:
Love, please let go of me forever
Leave me alone
Enough for me to hurt you
Love, please let go of me forever
Care not about me
Perhaps you'll be better of with a different man

You need not plead me to come back
Need not ask for my love
There's no more room in my heart
That's left for you

Repeat chorus

I really can't hold on to love you
I really am unable to always adore you
I can't love you forever
Go, my love. Leave me.


Okay let me explain. I am not focusing on what the song says because to me it was wrong. You ask me is it wrong, to me yes, it is!

My pastor taught us on the value of keeping our integrity and no more compromises. Firstly, relationship is about commitment, and why the heck did you compromise until you have feelings for another woman??? Correct me if i'm wrong, but things will not go until like what the song says unless you allow yourself to get interested with her even further after you realised that sparkles start to occur. True? If only you did not compromise. If only you control yourself. If only.

And what about integrity? Dude, you have a girlfriend already, you sure have told her directly or indirectly that "I want to be with you". That what makes you a couple! How can you say to her to leave you forever???? And do you know how hard it is for her to do so? And how hurting it is for her that you told her to let go of you because you don't want her anymore????

Okay, enough of me getting angry to Tompi. It's not his fault anyway, he's just a singer. It may not be his choice to sing this song either. But people, I learnt the values of integrity, commitment, determination and motivation. Well, fortunately or unfortunately, relationship involves all these. It's not always at all rosy. No more compromises, please.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

Okay, this is not going to be a happy post but a rather emo one. If you hate emotions and bitterness, then stop reading from this point onwards.

Well. This new year as I reflect back to what I have done in the year 2007, especially to what has recently happened, I finally learnt something the hard way: Do not be too nice to people.

I am too naive I was always afraid to hurt people. Guess whats the result? I got hurt.

I built a freaking wall to protect myself ever since I entered Poly, and in the year 2007 when I was determined to destroy the wall, I was cut deep.

The year 2008, I am not going to build another wall. Instead, I will equip myself with weapons in order to protect myself.

But dont worry, I would still be open to people. However, once Im attacked by some morons, do not think I will just give in like that. I have got weapons. I am no longer the Louisa you know.

And to you: please note that you are an idiot. i dont care how you gonna live your life, and dont come to me once you are broken. and i bet you will be broken, eventually. by the time it happens, I am no longer willing to be there for you. And dont try to symphatize with me coz you are the one whom you should feel sorry for. And again if you didn't catch the previous one, you are an idiot.

Merry Christmas to ALL READERS.

This Christmas wasn't really bad, thanks to my cousins. I love you all man, you guys ROCKS!

On the 24th we went to my church service (Bethany Church), together with them. We had fun, and Celebration of Praise was AWESOME!!! They are super and extremely talented! I am proud to be an Indonesian!! Lol.

On the 25th I went to my cousins' church (the Cathedral) for their Christmas service. I was rather reluctant to attend the cathedral though because I am not a Catholic, unlike them. But I have a moral obligation to them since they attended my church's Christmas service. This is actually my first time attending a Catholic service. I have tried Presbyterian way before (my church follows Charismatic Denomination), and even though I felt funny and uneasy but I still think it's okay. But Catholic services are totally different, even compared to Presbyterian. I thot Catholic would be something like Presbyterian but I was wrong. Anyway I am not going to explain further on this. After church we went to Chinatown to by some souveniers for the loved ones back in Jakarta.


Then we went home and celebrate my dad and mum's 25th Anniversary (so cute!). We had dinner at Hua Yu Wee Seafood Restaurant until we were too full and decided to walk about 5 bus stops before finally taking our bus home.


The next day, we went to the East Coast Beach in the morning, then to the Esplanade, and had dinner at Lau Pa Sat.


At night, we went on a 3-days 2-nights cruise trip and that was the most happening part of my holiday. Something happened though (like my grandma forgot to bring her passport, my cousin was angry because we woke her up from her nap, etc) but everything ended well. Thank God. We spent our 3 days 2 nights on the cruise mostly eating (we had like 4 to 5 meals in a day, can you imagine??!), laughing, talking, playing board games, walking around the ship, playing basketball, swimming, jacuzzi-ing, and taking photographs and videos. Below are photographs taken ON THE SHIP except the first photograph.


I was not in a very well emotional state recently, and the cruise trip really helped me much in forgetting all the pains and problems I had back here in Singapore. With the presence of my lovely cousins, and the holiday away from Singapore, I am sure I'm gonna get adjusted soon enough. Eventhough I am not 100% emotionally recovered and back to my oldself yet, but everything that happens recently sure plays a part in the healing process and I am thankful for that.

Reached home, we (again) went to the East Coast Park to chill and visited my uncle's house. It's as if we were not sick of the sea yet after 3 days on the ship. There we saw the East Coast Park by Night. I was rather upset because I had to come back to the reality and go back to school. Sigh. Not that I don't like Temasek, it's just that I had to meet people I don't wanna meet. True enough, the next day, unfortunately, I had to come to school to finish up one of our projects, while the rest went to Jurong Bird Park in the day and Orchard Road in the evening.

The next day on Sunday, after going to church (yes, Bethany Church), we went to the Singapore Science Centre until it closes. It was fun but tiring day. We were exhausted but my cousins still wanna go to Suntec City after that. They sure have the energy!



On Monday, I went to school and they go back home to Jakarta safely. I miss them truly. You are the greatest!

Life goes on too fast sometimes I need to catch up faster. I don't really have so much time to procrastinate, to cry, or to do all the unnecessary. My friend Andy once said, "Life is a cruel teacher, it punishes you first before giving you the lesson."

Within this week itself, I have learnt so many things. Too many that me myself is taken aback by them:

1. God always takes promises seriously, unlike most men.
My friend once asked me to promise something to him which supposedly do him a favour, and I did. The very next day he told me to indirectly break the promise I just made, and when I told him I can't coz I have made a promise, he said its okay. This proves that men do not really take promises seriously, the way God does. Also when we promise someone to meet up, sometimes we don't really think that it's important enough to show up. When that person calls, we will think of so many excuses and worst of, still ask, "do you still need me to come?". We don't really think it's important we take our own sweet time having fun with other stuff. God always keeps His promises. When He said He will do something, He really does. When He said He will always be by my side, He never runs away. He never leaves me alone. That's what I meant by keeping promises.

2. Everything that happens in my life is good.
I was reminded on this through one of this week's worship songs in church. It basically says that ever since the beginning, He has already planned my life perfectly, and everything that happens in my life is good coz God plays a part in it, and He has made my life meaningful.
Sometimes sh*t happens and I feel that I am terribly down, I feel that I am the most stupidiotic person ever lived, and I forgot how it feels to be so carefree when I am with the Holy Spirit. Oh well, what the heck. After a thunderstorm, there will always be a rainbow.

3. God is our strength and He's the rock we should cling on to.
Sometimes I feel that I am strong. I think I can fight my own problems myself, and when I know I can't take it, I turn to my friends and not God. I completely forgot that my source of strength is not from men but from God itself. I am reminded that I am weak. I am not as strong as I thought I was. The reason why I can be strong is because my God is strong and I am walking with Him.

4. Depend on God, not on men.
Why? Because God never changes. He is still, and He's powerful, unlike men. Men do change. Men disappoint. No matter how close I am to someone, there is no guarantee that that person will not upset me. Therefore, I learnt that I shouldn't be too dependent on men, let God be the only person I look out for when in need (and when not in need).

5. Pray out loud, say it out.
My advice: When you are low, pick up your guitar and sing. Cry. Shout Jesus' name. Blurt it out loud, treat Jesus as your very good friend. Yes, talk to Him in your most comfortable language. Talk to Him the way you are talking to your bestest friend. Believe me, it helps. Don't think before you say, because when you process it logically with your brain, you won't eventually say it because you will feel embarrased whatsoever. And if you can, do speak in tongue, because when you speak in tongue, it's not you who talks to the Father, but the Spirit in you. And we all know that the Spirit in us knows us better than us ourselves.

6. God is always waiting for us to come back, no matter how sinful we are.
Whatever things I have done that do not please God, they don't matter anymore once I ask for His forgiveness. He loves me so much He can't take it but to forgive. Just ask for His forgiveness and ask Him to cleanse our hearts, and everything will be alright. I was too busy over something I even positioned Him after other stuff. He was no longer my first priority and that's terribly wrong. I am again (for a million times) reminded on this priority issue. I was too embarrased to admit, but hey, I have done it and I felt as if I'm the luckiest person to have known Him as my personal Saviour.

7. Give thanks.
People who give thanks will receive blessings. There are too many reasons for us to be thankful for. For example, when things come to an end, do not grumble that it's over. Instead, be thankful that it happened. And again, thousand things happen in our lives. It's our choice to make those thousands really dreadful, or really meaningful.

Enjoy life ! ^^

She walked along the quiet pavement quickly,
Scared that reality would strike her anytime
and softly whisper to her ear,
the memory she's shared with him.

The lively swimming pool has died in agony.
Two vending machines were standing abreast,
quiet as they studied the picture,

The cheerful playground has turned silent,
Knowing every single secret of her.
Tears slided on those yellow cheekslides,
Slowly outside, but wildly inside.

The swing remained tough and strong
as it witnessed two passionate souls
who neither surrender nor fight.
Their arms locked and their tongues met.

It was a bitter, venomous battle.
The swing was bleeding.

He waved goodbye,
and she knew that's the end.
I'm gonna be strong, says she.

The brightness of the night has gloomed,
and the jovial smile has loosened its signature curve.

All she needs to do,
is to be brave enough to say
goodbye....

Term test is finally over, thank God.
I spent my entire week studying, yes, literally. I did not go online, I was not at home, I was outside studying with Su Ling and Justin.

Okay, maybe we spent two days of the week having a HEAVY 2-hour break like watching movies. But apart from that, if we are not having our daily meals, we are studying.

And tests were really not very easy to be honest, and i am kinda disappointed myself. just that i cant really change the way it was, can i?

Anyway, on Friday after PracTech test, I met steven and joice to jog. it was 730 pm i know but still we ran in Tampines Stadium. Was kinda energizing after the test.

After that, we ate SUSHI!!!! (and sprite float)

Hahahaha.... so cool laaaaaa.......... It has been forever since the last time I had sushi...

YUMMY!

=D

Today is such a long day I spent 12 hours in school. I arrived at 9am, doing PracTech projection financial reports till 1pm, then had my lunch, went to PracTech revision lecture, attended another PracTech meeting, watched Kung-Fu Hustle (ok, I need a break. Everyone does, rite?), studied ERM, and finally travelled home.

During PracTech lecture, Justin seriously had nothing better to do he drew on my hand using his black thick pen. And let me tell you the saddest story. All the things he drew were nothing but nonsense. He even drew Bing Go!! I didn't know he loves Bing Go. Lol.

Anyway, today I studied ERM to prepare for my Mid-Semester Test. And guess what? It's all about SAP BP-ERP!! As what Mr. Jackson says, SAP does not stand for Systems Applications and Products, but Slow And Painful. Lol. Anyway, seeing Justin studied was scary. He built mindmaps for every chapter and his paper was full of blue-inks. He said ERM is not hard coz it only needs logic and common sense and all you need to do is just write down all the things you have in mind, with some seasonings of related technical key words you have learnt. I kinda agree but that applies only when you understand completely how ERP works, and how this connects to all business processes.

But anyway, I am not gonna copy his way of studying, coz I am not a mind map kinda person. I am not the type of person who can remember everything just by seeing key words, colours, and images. I need something more than that. I need to link all points together, see how one connects to the other, and how the topic I am learning interlinks with the one I revised previously. I need the complete story. When I study, I need to understand the macro picture, and this requires more than just key words.

Too bad I was not really prepared with my own notes just now, coz if I do, I will surely write so many stuff on it. Just now I was using Shana's notes and Justin's textbook, so I couldn't scribble on it. And when I study, I need lots of highlighters and coloured pens, coz this what makes things more attractive and fun.

And I studied in the school library until it closed, until I was being chased out by the staff. Lol. And damn Justin he kept on reminding me that he needs only 15 minutes to reach home, unlike me who took an extra 20 minutes, excluding walking from the bus stop to my block, waiting for the lift, search for house keys, opening the door, and finally get in the house.

But anyway. Im glad that today I finally did study. I was so worried but I think I wud manage to score in my term test. Wish me all the best.

My heart is very fragile.
Please handle with care.

YRC Sunday has moved to OHGS and hence our services will no longer be in Hyatt Hotel.
Not only that, weekly services will commence at 11am in the morning, instead of the usual 2pm.
Do take note!

If you are young within, understand Bahasa Indonesia, like to sing and dance, be in a band, etc, love to be in a super funky and vibrant bold and unashamed never say die for God kinda attitude community, be in a place with fun loving people, love to do whatever stuff thats cool, then JOIN US! Hahahahaha.....

Today's YRC was super! I thot the change in place and time will affect how the service commences. Erm, correction, it does have changes here and there, but i guess its for the better =)

We are still YRC Sunday, afterall, thus when we move to OHGS, we still commence our services in our way. We use chairs instead of sitting on the floor, and we have a holy communion every month. It is rare for a youth service to have a holy communion, but we do.

Having chairs is (glad to say) better than sitting on the floor, coz during praise and worship, when everyone wants to jump, they will run to the front and do so. The feeling is so cool when they leave their seats, race to the front and jump for God. They wanna get rid of their comfort zone of their seats and shout and jump the way youths do to express their love to their Creator. I said its better coz there wont be any bags or bibles lying on the floor which prevent them from jumping freely.

Today, the ushers kept on adding new rows of chairs due to congregations that kept on coming in. It was packed all the way to the back. Okay, we only filled in the centre part at first, but we couldn't help it but to create a new sitting block at the two sides. Thank God for the ushers who had served mightily, and did not stop smiling even though they might be tired of 'ngangkut2in bangku' and arranging the chairs.

Moving on, multimedia team only needs 2-3 people per service due to the limitations in the equipments used. We are no longer using the big camera, and no more dvds and stuff, no more messy cables, and no more service documentations. Okay, maybe in the next two weeks Ko Alfon will start rotating each of us to do and edit the service docs every week and we will upload it in YouTube or other video sharing media for everyone to see.

Because Multimedia team only needs 2-3 people, I won't be scheduled to serve everyweek (yaay for this!). Therefore, I would be able to do other stuff, like making friends with the new comers or so :D

It's amazing to know how I heart (read: love) YRC Sunday. I know it will be used to reach out to more and more young people out there. I am optimistic for this.

Talking about love reminds me of CoOL. Man, how I miss my cellgroup. I want cellgroup meetings!!! Hahahaha... Hai. My cell is now holiday-ing coz almost all the members have gone back to their hometown, leaving my leader, stephanie, and myself. Pathetic? Kinda.

And talking about cellgroup, I don't really treat my cell leader the way I did previously. Ever since my cell leader has a girlfriend, I rather lean back whenever I want to talk to him. I have lots to tell him, but I am afraid his girlfriend might feel uneasy. Another point is that he also doesn't seem to have the time to talk to his cellgroup members lately due to his commitment on his current relationship. I wish I could tell him this, and remind him to talk more often with his members. I want cellgroup meetings, because only with this, he can do whatever things he used to do, pray for us, talk to us, listen to us, go out with us, etc.

Give me back those moments.

Why do I always take cab nowadays?

Coz Its Very Convenient! Hix.

I wasted bucks just for the uncle to drive me around.

Haiz.

I know its fast, but thats not my point.

Okay, sometimes i need to go somewhere quick.

But the thing is, I'm kinda addicted to it.

What's bus concession for?

Me = Cab?

Sigh big time.

Money waster.

I hope it doesn't develop into a lifestyle.

Bus rocks.

Tell me why you keep on disturbing me.

Just tell me.

Gue mo cerita.

Ada seorang anak, yang pengen punya seekor anjing. Dari dulu dia selalu mampir ke pet shop, liat2 kalo2 ada seekor anjing yang bisa dimilikinya. Dia juga jalan2 sama anjing orang, kenalan sama anjing2 jalanan, pokoknya apapun yang bisa bikin dia ketemu sama anjing yang sesuai sama kriterianya.

Suatu kali dia ketemu seekor anjing cantik di pet shop, namanya Chelsie. Dia jatuh hati sama tu anjing, dan pengen bgt dapetin anjing itu. Dia liat harganya, muahalnya bukan main. Agak sedih juga, namun dia gak putus asa sampe situ. Anak itu terus mengumpulkan uang, berharap saat tabungannya sudah cukup nanti, Chelsie masih ada di sana. Akhirnya, hasil jerih payah anak ini pun terbayar. Chelsie pun menjadi miliknya.

Anak ini gembira, begitu pula Chelsie. Mereka menjalani kehidupan bersama seakan-akan tak ada kesedihan yang berani menghampiri kedua makhluk hidup itu. Sang anak menjadi begitu dekat dengan anjing peliharaannya, demikian pula dengan Chelsie, yang makin lama makin manja dengan sang anak. Sang anak pun bersyukur telah mendapatkan Chelsie. Baginya, anjing cantik ini adalah anugerah yang tak tergantikan.

Tapi sayang, tiba-tiba Chelsie yang disayanginya ternyata berubah menjadi judes banget. Sejak itu, Chelsie gak pernah mau menerima cinta kasih dari si anak. Chelsie selalu membuat anak ini kecewa, Chelsie gak pernah mau diajak main, Chelsie gak mau dimiliki oleh anak ini. Seakan-akan memiliki dua kepribadian, Chelsie pun menjadi sosok anjing yang sangat berbeda dari yang dikenal sang anak beberapa bulan yang lalu. Sekarang, di mata Chelsie, anak ini memiliki banyak kekurangan, dan gak pantes buat memiliki seekor anjing seperti dirinya. Anak ini pun terus berusaha dan berusaha, namun hasilnya selalu gagal. Usaha pendekatan yang dilakukannya terhadap anjing cantik itu selalu gak membawa hasil. Chelsie menjadi seekor anjing yang sulit diajak berkompromi. Paling tidak, sulit diajak kompromi dengan anak itu.

Berbulan-bulan berlalu. Si anak terpaksa melepaskan Chelsie ke tempat di mana dia bisa lebih berbahagia. Si anak sedih banget begitu tau kalo Chelsie gak mau dia miliki. Demi kebaikan Chelsie, si anak rela melepaskan anjing itu ke habitat yang lebih pantas baginya.

Seperti dikirim oleh angin, beberapa hari kemudian, ada seekor anjing liar yang ditemuinya. Anjing ini biasa2 aja, gak terlalu cantik, gak terlalu indah, bulunya gak terlalu bagus, matanya gak terlalu mengkilat, pokoknya biasa-biasa aja deh. Kalah banget kalo dibandingin sama Chelsie. Si anak gak memperhatikan anjing ini pada awalnya, tapi karna anjing ini selalu ngikutin dia ke manapun dia berada, dibawa pulanglah anjing biasa2 ini, dan dinamainya Luna.

Luna sebenernya adalah anjing buangan. Dia dulu pernah dimiliki oleh seorang bapak yang ngakunya sayang ma dia, tapi justru membawa ketakutan luar biasa buat si Luna. Luna gak bisa main sama bapak ini, dan Luna ngerasa bapak ini cuman pengen mempergunakan Luna. Luna dijadikan ajang taruhan, dipermainkan, dicemooh, dihina, pokoknya sama sekali gak dihargain. Luna pun akhirnya kabur dari rumah si bapak begitu ada kesempatan, dia berlari dan berlari jauh meninggalkan kota tempat bapak itu tinggal, sampai akhirnya dia menemukan anak itu.

Meskipun Luna gak seindah Chelsie, namun Luna gak sejudes Chelsie. Dia senantiasa menemani anak itu kapanpun dan di manapun. Pokoknya, di manapun anak ini berada, Luna selalu ada di sampingnya. Kalo Luna takut, dia pasti selalu nyari tuannya, begitu pula kalo si anak lagi sedih, dia selalu cerita ke Luna. Terutama tentang Chelsie. Si anak selalu melampiaskan kesedihannya pada Luna, dan Luna selalu menghibur tuannya ini dengan mendengarkan dan mengajaknya bermain. Kehidupan ini berlangsung cukup lama, dan Luna ngerasa sangat nyaman berada di sisi sang anak. Belum pernah dalam hidupnya, dia diperhatikan secara luar biasa oleh manusia.

Tapi sayang, si anak cuman menjadikan Luna sebagai pelarian dari Chelsie. Dia sedih banget atas perlakuan anjing cantik itu atas dirinya, dan pas banget saat itu ada Luna, dia selalu menumpahkan kekesalannya pada Luna, meski pada akhirnya Luna juga dipelihara, dikasih makan, disayang2, tapi tetep aja, hatinya ada pada Chelsie dan bukan Luna.

Luna sebagai anjing tentu punya insting yang luar biasa. Dia tau banget tuannya itu masih menginginkan Chelsie dan bukan dia. Tapi sayang, dia gak bisa ngapa2in. Yang bisa dia lakukan cuma ngedengerin setiap kekecewaan tuannya atas perlakuan Chelsie terhadap dirinya, dan mendukung tuannya setiap kali tuannya pergi ke pet shop itu cuma buat ngeliat Chelsie dan ngobrol2 sama Chelsie. Di satu sisi Luna cemburu, tapi di sisi lain Luna tau kalo dirinya gak seindah Chelsie, gak selucu Chelsie, dan gak semenarik Chelsie. Luna pun jadi sedih. Tuannya selalu nyari2 cara buat dapetin Chelsie kembali, dan Luna jadi ngerasa gak aman. Gimana kalo tuannya berhasil ngedapetin Chelsie, Luna mau diapain? Apakah dia akan kembali jadi anjing jalanan?

Luna terus merenung dan merenung, hingga akhirnya dia sadar, kalau pada awalnya dia pun hanya menjadikan anak ini sebagai tempat perlindungan. Dia mempergunakan anak ini untuk melindunginya dari bahaya, kalau2 pemilik sebelumnya mau merampas dia dan membawanya kembali ke kehidupan asalnya yang pahit dan kelam. Mungkin Luna juga mempergunakan anak ini, mungkin Luna juga menjadikan anak ini sebagai tempat pelarian, tapi kenapa Luna cemburu tiap kali tuannya cerita tentang Chelsie? Kenapa Luna ngerasa sakit? Kenapa Luna ngerasa gak aman? Kalau dia bener2 sayang sama tuannya, bukankah lebih baik jika melihat tuannya bahagia bersama Chelsie? Sebegitu egoisnyakah Luna?

Luna pun memutuskan untuk terus menjalankan tugasnya dengan setia, menemani tuannya siang dan malam, menjadikan tempat curahan hati, mendukung, dan membantu tuannya. Namun dalam hatinya, ia mengiris sedikit demi sedikit luka dalam hatinya, dan tak hentinya ia selalu bertanya, "Mengapa engkau hanya melihat dari luarnya saja? Kenapa karna dia lebih lucu engkau lebih memilih dia? Sifatku jelas lebih baik dari dia, dan aku mengasihimu dengan tulus, setulus engkau mengasihi dia. Aku akan selalu menjagamu siang dan malam, sebagaimana sudah kubuktikan di masa-masa ini. Engkau selalu berusaha mendapatkannya, engkau berharap bisa memeluknya, namun engkau tidak menyadari bahwa apa yang kau butuhkan saat ini sudah tersedia di depan matamu. Aku tak bisa berbuat apa-apa, tuan. Jika engkau terus memilih dia, aku tetap akan mendukungmu."

Strumming my guitar,
Singing songs out loud,
On one simple evening.

It has been so long since the last time I felt this pleasure.
And now I am enjoying it again.

HAhaha...

Well, to me, Monday isn't that bad. Partially because we only have 1 miserable 2-hour PracTech lecture which happens to start at 11am.

After having our lunch, we then started to work on our BizIntel assignment, which ends at around 3:30 pm. Our plan was to meet John Sung at 6pm, our company project supervisor, and present him our system, as well as to test the company server. Justin told the group that we would need approximately 1 hour 15 minutes to get into the Island. So we decided to bum around in the computer lab until 4:30 pm comes. Justin and I watched The School of Rock in his laptop. Obviously, there was not enough time to complete the 2-hour movie, but we still watched anyway.

We left the Lab at 4:30 sharp, (even though the bus-waiting time took longer than expected) but we still managed to reach the Island at 5:45 pm. In the Island Bus Stop, Justin met his previous colleagues and we found out from her that JOHN WAS ON MC!!!! Great! We had already travelled that far, but everything just went in vain. Everyone was so excited but now, the mood had gone by the wind towards the thin air. Anyway, we learnt our lesson that next time, before we have an appointment with anyone, do confirm with the person on the day before we left.

Suddenly, in the midst of our disappointment, Shahirah spoke up, "Hey, anyone in for a movie?" We looked at her... actually it wasn't such a bad idea. We thought of it for a while, decided upon which cinema to go to, and finally chose the Grand Cathay at Dhoby Ghaut.

The movie was from 7 to 9 pm, afterwhich, shana and shahirah went home. Justin, Dodi, and I then had our dinner, and went home by train. Everything went good, when finally the sour stuff appeared.

Someone I didn't wish to think, to remember, or to talk to, called me repeatedly. I kept on rejecting or ignoring his calls, but this guy just wouldn't give up calling. He texted me a message, asking why I rejected his calls, which I did not reply. I mean, wasn't the answer obvious? I was avoiding you!

SMS: What's wrong? Do you want me to come over to your house?
I stunned, thinking of whether or not should I reply his sms this time.
My reply: No. Do not ever.

The guys noticed the awkwardness in my face.

Justin: What happened mun?
Louisa: What? Nothing.
*my phone vibrates*
Louisa: Tsk! Stop calling, can??
Dodi: Aiya, just pick up lah!
*I rejected the call*
Dodi: Why never pick up? Your friend calling you, you don't want to pick up. Hai..
Louisa: I don't want to talk to this person lah!
Dodi: It's good what... At least got people call you. I whole day wait for the phone, nobody calls me.

SMS: Why don't you pick up? Anything wrong?

I gave no responses.

Dodi and I talked in the train while Justin was in his own world on the phone. The train finally reached Paya Lebar where I alighted. The calls still kept on coming in, and I always rejected it or just simply did not pick up. Suddenly, a message popped up.

SMS: That's it. I'm coming over...

I FREAKED OUT!!! YOU KIDDING!!! This guy freaking knows my complete full address, he knows which level I stayed in, he knows my unit number, and he can reach my house in no time coz he stays bloody near my house!!!!!!!!!!!!

My hands trembled, I didn't know what to do. I grabbed my phone, typed, "I don't want to see you!"

Message sent.

Then I went to the address book, searched for Justin's number, nearly called him asking for help but I failed to do so. I wanted to cry. I was so terrified I couldn't think properly. I typed to send Justin an SMS, "Please HELP me, I'm so scared!". I have already typed the message, but I realised he was happily in the train, heading home. Then I switched target. I called Shahirah instead, since she knows my situation and this guy, basically everything. Then Shahirah prayed for me. She also didn't know what to do. On that small pavement towards my house, I literally shouted to God, "GOD! PLEASE SPARE ME!!! I really don't want to see him!!"

I texted the guy. "Don't scare me by coming over."

His SMS: Ok. But let me know why you acted so strangely. If not, I am coming over to find out.
My reply: Are you threatening me? I just feel uncomfortable whenever I'm with you. Maybe you are not the one.
His SMS: What is it that makes you feel so? Anything I can do to make it better?

I seriously fed up. I didn't reply him.

Finally, I reached my apartment, and I looked around, searching for anything that represents the presence of this guy. But no, he's not there. Phew. Thank God.

I quickly went up. I sms-ed Justin, telling him what just happened. I typed for so long, but I accidentally cleared the screen without saving it. Darn SMS.

Then THE GUY called. I rejected, obviously.
Another call came. This one was from Shahirah. I picked up and thanked her for praying for me, and talked to me when I was scared.
Soon after I ended the conversation, another phone call came. Justin.

"What happened? You OK?"

Like Duh! Obviously I'm not!! I told him everything, then he laughed his butt off. Stupid.

Justin: Well, who knows if later there will be news of you and him together...
Louisa: Choy! Shut up! It will never happen.
Justin: Oh, you sure?
Louisa: Hey, don't say anything la, sometimes whatever you said may come true.
Justin: Oh yeah, there is power in a believer's tongue.
Louisa: Exactly. So shut up.
Justin: Laughs
Louisa: Not funny. I will hang up.
Justin: OK Ok relax. bla bla bla.

Then we started talking about anything else....

My life seriously is screwed up. But for now, I just let God have a hold of it. Nope, I mean from now onwards.

Danny is born an Emcee.
NextLevel is talented (i mean the four goofies who sang on stage, that was ultimately entertaining!)
Book of Hope is useful. (For the first time Christians!)

And, what makes everything special: MY FRIEND CHRISTINA =]

Attending a service with your usual TLG friends is usual, but with her presence, it all became special.

And of course, God's presence too.

Want me to be honest? I feel the PW a bit screwed up. Honest.

But oh well. God still showed up. That matters the most.

Bokek!!! Gua lagi bokek!! Kerjaan gua tiap hari itu tuh narik duit dari ATM. Koq bisa?
Yah bisa lah, masa gak bisa? Hehehe...

YAh uda deh, gw mo cerita. Selamat tidur membaca cerita harian gw... hehehe.

Senin - Selasa... pegi kampus, pulang kampus, mampir parkway, SHOPPING. Gak ada yang perlu dijelasin kali ya, mungkin karna ini terlalu membosankan untuk diceritakan.

Rabu ... Sedikit menarik. Presentasi!

Gua uda dag dig dug gak keruan, gw dan grup dateng pagian buat latian, dan we had the entire lab for ourselves. Kita akhirnya ngetest laptop kita di projector sekolah, dan akhirnya error gara2 by default laptop gw maupun laptopnya justin (cuma kita bedua yang bawa laptop), uda di extend ke second monitor, jadi pas mo dijadiin 1 monitor doang, projectornya gak terima sinyal apa2. Akhirnya kita panggil si technician, and we managed to get the thing done.

After the technician went away, kita latian (gladi kotor), terus akhirnya diusir dari lab karna labnya mo dipake, dan kita pindah lab. Justin closed the Lab Room door, and he instructed, "Ok everyone, Let's pray!" And he led the prayer. It's a good thing that all of us (ok, only 4 out of 5) are Christians, so we can pray together in times like this.

Gladi bersih.

Gua present duluan, dengan group members gw belaga jadi judgesnya. Di tengah2 speech gue, Justin nyeletuk, "what is system management?"

I stunned. Firstly, i didnt expect any questions at that point of time. Secondly, I knew he was acting as one of the judges, but I did not know that the question would come from a person like him. (Ooops. Lol.) I froze.

Latihan selesai, we were waiting outside the presentation room, when everyone was going crazy. Justin and Shana were singing songs they created, like "Yesterday", but they changed the lyric into something depressing, and I was too sleepy to listen. Nevermind.

Presentation went ok, I believe we can pass. Then we went for lunch, and quickly go to the Lab to finish our BizIntel assignment. Pas uda kelar, kita pulang. HORE.

Doa pengerja.

Pulang sekolah ada doa pengerja.. jadi buru2 mandi, grab some meal, then walked off to the bus stop. Sore itu gw baru inget kalo BingBing, spupunya Tirza, hari itu jualan waffle di kampus, dan kmaren dia ktemu gw di kampus ASc dan gw da janji ma dia mo beli. Argh! Maap Bing, gw lupa gara2 presentation itu.....

Sekian dan terima kasih.

heHEHE DAh lama banget sejak gw update blog gw ya, sampe2 teman2ku satu2 meninggalkan blog gw perlahan2 karna bosen nungguin update-an yang ada...

Banyak hal terjadi laaa... dari bete sampe seneng
Apalagi pas worship with stars....

BETE!!! Emang!
KECEWA!!! Sangat! sampe gw ngomel2 ma c sansan (sorry ci!!!)
SENENG! Gak juga sih tp oke lah.....

Btw yah, apaan tuh worship with stars? Heheh. makanya ke www.lastgen.org donk gimana seh! HAhahah. MAles gw jelasin 1-1. ya pokoknya acara yrc sunday deh..

eh ngomong2 soal yrc sunday, kita bakal pindah k ohgs looo... jem 11 pagi, huweheh horeee!! (meski kacau juga kalo diliat dari segi pelayanan...)

Usher jadinya harus berubah cara menyambut jemaat2 baru, skrg ini kan ga ada kursi, gak ada sepatu ato alas kaki juga.. haha.. tmpatnya beda pula... cara ngasi kantong persembahan juga pasti beda.

Multimedia juga mungkin berubah, meski gak banyak, remembering that the Projectors are fixed, the screens are fixed, the camera position changed, the laptop, mixer, computer, etc all changed.

PW? Jangan tanya!! Ini bukan di hyatt, stagenya kecil, jemaatnya uda gak pake tempat duduk, terus ruangannya gak kedap suara, jadi music team must control their loudness.

Apalagi? YAh doa mungkin gak ngaruh kali yah... SALAH!! Sebelum youth service, ada BES... jadi doa gak tau mau jem berapa.... hahehe... minor sih, i know....

Apa lagi? sound system? Beuh!!! Ruangannya bergaung2 gitu... mesti jago deh si anthony...

Cuman perpindahan ini membawa teriakan HALELUYA yang sangat keras dari CARE TEAM, karna dengan ini, care team bisa lebih mengontrol jemaatnya satu per satu, terutama dari segi jemaat baru.... heheh.

Oh iya, pindahnya tanggal 11. which is also tanggal berlangsungnya acara natal gabungan TLG (yang flyernya keren banget itu!!!) WAKAKAKAK. Bawa kado luuu... buat gw moga2 dapetnya yang 10 dollar... LOL.

Trus kmaren ini gw ikut FA ko iie... bole juga, meski gw tdnya pengen share sesuatu ttg anak2 yang tertolak (mnurut gw mereka kurang tau siapa itu anak2 tertolak.....) tp uda malem jd ga jadi d...

Btw, ngomong2 soal FA, pas worship with stars FA gw (Perez) menang kategori FA tergubraks... WAKAKA.. Hidup gubraks!!!! Haiz.... sedih juga sih.... Tau gak sih perez uda bubar??? Alesanny banyak la... banyak yang gak komit, dll dll.... Tp bakal ada FA baru sih taon depan heheh... im so looking forward to that...

Kmaren ini gw balik indo..... ikut retreat gereja, tentang rumah tangga yng diberkati (gak relevan sih sama gw yg belum berkeluarga, tapi gpp la buat masa depan, hehehehehe). gw berdoa kenceng2 soal pemulihan keluarga besar tapi hasilnya tetep nihil, but i know God's time is perfect, so im still hopeful. Sigh.

Di indo bosen banget, satu2nya hal yang gw lakukan yg bermanfaat di indo tu cuma ke salon (anak2 semua pada tau kalo gw merubah gaya gua habis2an sejak gw balik indo!), beli buku di gramed....... nonton, udah. Haiz.... nyiksaaa nyiksa.

Udah ah.

Ngeliat poin2 di atas.. ternyata banyak juga ya yang mesti gw ceritain... ah udah lah... kalo curious leave a comment aja ntar gw ceritain yang panjang.... hehehehehehehehe......

BYEEEEE....

Gue mo siapin presentasi dulu.. besok gw ngeblog lagi d!!